August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
January 4th, 2018
Rude awakening
Startled awake, I was staring at a shotgun pointed at my face. He told me in a rude term what he was going to do, and ripped my nightie pretty much off. He then pushed between my legs, holding the shotgun in one hand. To be honest, I didn’t notice...
April 15th, 2014
A Journal of a Wayward Child
I have a long history of abuse and rape in my family and myself (44 years for me) and would like to have the opportunity to share my story with women around the world. Forgiveness has been the first step in healing and am now in a woman’s shelter beginning...
November 23rd, 2014
In The Past
I started dating my boyfriend when I was 18 years old. He seemed really nice, caring and I loved him the way you do as a fresh 18 year old. He quickly started to change and began showing controlling traits. I thought this was normal as this was my first...
December 2nd, 2014
Freshman Year
I think the hardest part is the amount of friends I lost after being raped. Maybe they don’t realize that they’re treating you differently, but as the one affected, it’s pretty obvious. Friends don’t know how to deal with you. Family doesn’t know how to deal with you. If something...
January 4th, 2017
My Best Friend’s Boyfriend
My junior year of high school I had class with this guy I had never seen around school before. It turns out he transferred from another school and as time passed he began dating one of my best friends. I had a crush on him but I obviously didn’t purse...
March 12th, 2016
Siblings
I was 10 when my mom got married her and my dad were together for 15 years then all of a sudden broke up when I was about 6. I was there only child and my mom was pregnant by my step dad who had an older son that came...
January 25th, 2018
Never Heals
I am a young girl, only fifteen years old. It was over seven months ago, when I went through a very traumatic time. I was at a house party, somewhere I regret ever going. I was interested in a boy who was holding the party, and that was the only...
January 23rd, 2017
Relationship does not equal consent
I had been with my boyfriend for 6 months, and he was starting to distance himself from the relationship. When we made out he always tried to take things further but I wasn’t ready. In an attempt to save the relationship from ending, I told him I wanted to do...
Born A Girl When I was 10, I noticed men looking at me differently When I was 10 to 12 men and boys of all ages honked their horns, whistled and yelled profanities at me When I was 13 my friend and I were walking home in the daylight, when...
August 8th, 2018
When will it be enough?
Why is it not enough? Why is my reluctance not enough to make you stop? Why is my “no” not enough? Why is my “no no no” not enough? Why are my clawing, shoving, desperately-trying-to-pull-my-pants-up hands not enough? Why is my cry of “oh god make it stop, please make...
November 13th, 2018
Lost My Virginity In Rape By Jehovah’s...
I was barely 17. Living on my own and fairly naive. Had a job at chicfila in Clayton Georgia USA. He was 36. Ex con. Jehovah’s witness and my boss. He raped me repeatedly over the course of two years. Forced anal when I said no. Choked me unconscious and...
December 19th, 2015
I Was Raped as a Child
I was ten years old when I was raped by one of the church helpers for my weekly class. He always scared me. He constantly would “playfully” chase me around during recess and tickle me, finding me when I would try to hide. I never told anyone; other adults would...
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
November 5th, 2014
Six Years of Denial
After six years, I am finally allowing myself to acknowledge that I was raped. The rapist was someone who I had recently became close friends with. It happened after a dinner party at his apartment, after everyone left. I was so shocked and confused I didn’t even realize what was...
February 14th, 2017
I Thought I Was Safe
It was sophomore year of college and I was so happy to move back on campus. It had never occurred to me that with the independence and freedom I found in college, there also came many things I needed to be aware of that could compromise my safety. I was...
May 23rd, 2016
Cafeteria Food
When I was 16 years old I was a nerdy person. I kept to myself and didn’t go out to parties or other. So when I got my first boyfriend I was ecstatic. He was a practical god to me. Things had been going well, until one day when we...
October 28th, 2015
I Don’t Trust My Father
As long as I can remember I have been raped by my biological father. I was at least 2 or 3 when it started and also started with my sister too. She never likes to talk about it.. I first came out with it when I was 10-11 to my...
March 26th, 2014
I’m Speaking Out!
I’m really glad to see people like Linor Abigal speaking out against sexual violence. I believe the more of us that speak out the less power we give this crime and we help victims and survivors heal. I experienced childhood sexual abuse from age 8-14 and it took me over...
July 13th, 2018
All men are the same
I’m 16 now and it all started when I was 4/5 My dad passed out when I was 4 and my mom start working.I was young and can’t take care of myself therefore my mom always take me at work with her.There was a man at my mom workplace who...
September 4th, 2022
Creepy Grand Uncle
One time when I was 10, I had the weirdest scary experience of my life. It was a Chinese new year party we had every beginning of the year and all my relatives were there such as grandmas, grand aunties and uncles, uncles, aunties, cousins, you name it! All the...
July 10th, 2016
What Is Success?
I’m not a doctor or a lawyer, a CEO, athlete nor a celebrity of any kind. I don’t own a boat of any sort or make six-figures. But I am a success. Here’s how… The first time it happened, I knew what it was, I said no. I was 18...
October 26th, 2014
Raped Three Times
I’m 21 years old and I would like to share my story. When I was 10 years old, my uncle’s friend who worked at his place, tried to rape me. My cousin said that he wanted to talk with me. I went to the shop who were next to my...
December 4th, 2017
Touched by my cousin
I was ten years old, my cousin was fourteen. I remember I was sleeping in his younger sisters room when he came in to see me. I remember waking up with his hand on my vagina and his tongue in my mouth. As soon as I woke up he had...
August 15th, 2014
Kibbutz
I’ve just finished watching your amazing documentary, it’s taken me a couple of months of knowing about it to finally be able to press play. I’m so pleased I did, I cried for you Linor, I cried for myself and I cried for all the strong women who spoke, and...
April 18th, 2015
Stranger Rape
Hi, I’m Nye-Emah and it was kinda weird how it happened 5 months ago. It was my birthday i turned 12. So. I went to my BFF. We was going to hang at the park. While we were there were strange men was there too. So we payed no attention...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
March 7th, 2016
Raped and Molested
This is long, bare with me, please. From what I remember, it started when I was 6 continued until the summer going into 6th grade. I was molested almost every night by my step father (who was drinking and smoking at the time). One night, I was raped. My stepdad...
June 29th, 2014
With Love
I was 6 years old when I was first raped. My older brother saw fit to make me a woman. For many years this went on, I didn’t even realize what he was doing to me until I was 13 and it continued for several years after as I did...
January 28th, 2018
My Mother’s Life Partner Sexually Harrased Me...
When I was 13 & a half my mother took me out of school & used me as a labor child . She prevented me from going to school , having friends, or ever leaving our home for one full year I worked like an adult DAILY in her clothing...
January 30th, 2016
My Rape
I was raped by my emotionally and physically abusive husband while living abroad. I had finally decided to leave and lied telling him it was a trial separation, either way I was going home. And that despite the fact he always had sex when I said no other times over...
October 8th, 2016
The Fight We Can All Win
On January 23, 2015, I came out and told my very own story, who I once called my father. It was the hardest thing to do, because I had never told a single soul. A year later and a new job later, I found someone I could trust who had...
March 8th, 2018
Fiance Father of my Child
I was nine months pregnant and he was mad at me. I tried getting him to talk to me ana calm down. Helps started hurting me. He then decided to hurt me in the way it would hurt the most. My biggest fear. He raped me. I begged him not...
May 15th, 2018
Someone so close to me
This only happened a year ago. My uncle who always would make sexual comments to me from age 6-still today raped me. We had this cookout where we invited our family and my uncle came. About halfway through I went to go use the bathroom and he cornered me and...
April 5th, 2017
14 Years, He Was Like A Brother
I was 19 years old, just came home from my first semester of college. I start back at my old job, seen many of the same faces, but also some new. One face in particular was of a guy I grew up with, I had known him for 14 years...
June 23rd, 2014
Dirty Whore
was once innocent. But that part of me doesn’t exist anymore. When you’re raped you lose a piece of you in a sense. You find yourself left a different person with a broken spirit. I’m a shadow of the girl I use to be. Life is no longer safe and...
August 8th, 2018
Your never stop hurting me till your...
I barely knew you. You only just came back to your family. You were supposed to be a fun loving uncle but instead you hurt me. I was a week away from being 15 and you knew what you were doing was wrong, so why’d you do it. My uncle...
March 24th, 2016
Think You Know
I had a boyfriend for already five months, who I loved and did anything for. Sure we’d make-out once or twice we were raging with hormones but there’s a time and a place for everything. It was my first time alone with just him on a date and we were...
April 20th, 2019
At 17yr old was raped by my...
I became pregnant at age 16, forced to marry months later at 17, I went through domestic violence, physical abuse, mental abuse, sexual abuse by him, my husband and my family did nothing to help me out of the nightmare! After 2 yrs I got out with the help of...
November 15th, 2016
Hidden Emotions
My girlfriend and I have been dating for a little over two years. When we first started dating she told me that she had been raped and was very matter of fact about it. The only details she gave me was that it was someone in her family. Fast forward...
October 2nd, 2017
He ruined my life
My mum and dad separated when I was 12. After that she began to hate me and my sister (who was 7 at the time) because we were her ex-boyfriend’s daughters. A few months later she brought in one of her old school friends to live with us. Although we...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
April 10th, 2018
A person to trust became my worst...
It was supposed to be one of the most exiting weeks of my life, a step into adult-hood i had dreamed about all of summer. Freshers week. The week everyone is supposed to let go of all inhibitions and have an amazing time with new friends and people who you...
January 11th, 2018
Still Going
I can barely remember my childhood but Im going to let it go and share what I do remember. Im 33 years old and grateful to have survived. I remember my mothers husband raping me at the age of 7. He was sexually, mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive. He was...
June 16th, 2014
Raped By 6 Men
I was 18 years old when I was walking to the bus stop after class. I hear voices behind me calling me names but I don’t pay attention to them. I don’t know exactly what happened but suddenly I get pushed and I fall to the ground and hit my...
April 4th, 2015
The Worst Feeling
Hello, I am 27 years old, came across this story on Netflix. I was abused as a chid. At 5 years old is were it all began. I was abused by my cousin, he was about 22 years old in that time. My mom would drop me off to my...
I met my boyfriend online 3 years ago, I was 17 at that time. I week after I went into college. One day his friend invited us to his home we were just few, my boyfriend, his friends, some other guys like 5 of them and girls like 6 of...
February 20th, 2018
my story
In the wake of the #METoo movement, I have had constant reminder of sexual assault stories. I have never spoken out about what happened to me but I saw the Brave Miss World documentary and immediately came here to vent. When I was little I told my mother my cousin...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
The first that I remember being hurt was when I was 4. I stayed home from kindergarten and my daddy came into my room and started rubbing my upper thigh, which turned into him rubbing inside of my panties. He put his fingers inside of me, and I remember screaming....
January 29th, 2017
My Story
Hi all. This is my personal story. It’s taken me awhile to share it out in the open like this, but I believe it’s the next step in my healing. Ive read lots of your stories and it helps to know I’m not alone in the way I feel. I’ve...
August 12th, 2014
The Party
I was 14 years old at the time it happened. It was summer the end of august. The year was 2006. I liked football and hang around with hooligans because i thought there were cool people and just wanted to belong something. With my closest girlfriends at that time we...
December 7th, 2017
Rape Being Considered a “Joke”
Dear Readers, I am anonymous for a reason that me revealing this story is a danger to my life. The reason for this is because the rapist is somebody with high power. They are the son of this (something). I don’t know. I just know that for a fact that...
March 20th, 2017
My Nightmare
From the age of 8, I have been protecting and defending myself. Trying to keep on his good sudden so that he wouldn’t hit me the way he did mama. I just didn’t know that something worse was in store for me. One night he walked in all calm and...
March 30th, 2017
Third time’s the charm
One night I went over to my friend’s room. I was having a bad day so I drank until I couldn’t anymore. He decided to walk me back since I couldn’t even hold myself up. I thought that was just him being a good guy. I later realized he wasn’t....
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
December 8th, 2015
Stronger Every Day
I was 18 years old when it happened. I am now 34. It’s crazy to me to realize that it was almost half of my lifetime ago and yet something reminds me of it so often, even now. And then I see this documentary, and the tears surface without my...
December 13th, 2015
Second Night of College
I was raised in a Christian family to believe that I should never have sex before marriage, and I always planned to have sex only with my husband. When I was about 6 or 7, I was molested by my older cousin for about 2 years. I was very confused...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
November 21st, 2015
I Trusted Him
When I was a teenager, I would stay out past curfew a lot. My mother was at her wits end with me. She constantly expressed her disappointment. At one point she said to me “you are going to end up pregnant.” When I turned 18, I signed up for the...
You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
September 7th, 2009
לדבר, להלחם, לנצח
לינור יקרה, בלי שתדעי ליוות אותי בשנים הקשות שלי. נאנסתי במשך שנים וכשאת סיפרת את הסיפור שלך אני הייתי בת 13. נתת לי את הכוח לספר את הסיפור שלי ולבקש עזרה. היום- יותר מעשור אחרי… ואחרי טיפול ארוך שנים ואין בוף עליות וירידות אני גאה לומר- ניצחתי. אני חיה. נהנת...
November 22nd, 2017
Never Thought It Would Happen to Me
Dear Survivor, I know the bad days outnumber the good ones. Maybe you haven’t even had a good day since it happened. Maybe you feel like your temptations are the only logical way to escape. Maybe you’re ignoring it. I thought ending my life was the only way to escape....
August 7th, 2015
Gang Rape
I was 14 when I was raped. I went out with my friends to a party where i met these guys there were 3 or 4 of them. They looked at me and complimented on my beauty. Saying “You are a really pretty girl” and “what’s your secret?” I said...
The first time I was raped. I was 18, I never thought of it as rape until recently, but I guess it was. I’d been drinking and there just wasn’t a clear line of consent. I was too out of it to say yes or no. And the guy had...
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
I went to my friends house. I thought I knew him well. We hung out for a while and he never showed any signs, but I was on his couch and in an instant he was on me. He raped me and denys he did it. It took me two...
December 27th, 2015
A Family Affair
My father has always been very active in charitable efforts to save the world in his own way. He attracted many fans who attended his lectures and eventually ended up part of our social world. My parents were essentially absent from my life as a child and my connection to...
July 28th, 2014
הטרידו אותי
היי לינור קודם כל אני חייבת להגיד שראיתי את הסרט שלך אולי מאות פעמים וכל פעם אני מתרגשת מחדש. אני בת 13 ולפני כמה ימים הטרידו אותי וזה לא יוצא לי מהראש זה הלך ככה הלכתי עם חברה שלי לקניון ואז איש מבוגר פנה אלי ואמר לי שיש לי יופי...
January 10th, 2016
Warrior
When I was a child, my mom’s boyfriend touched me. I didn’t tell anyone. When I was 17, my boyfriend forced himself on me. I told my best friend, and she didn’t believe me. When I turned 20, I told my mom everything. She didn’t believe me for a long...
August 25th, 2016
Happy Birthday
I fell asleep on a couch of my friend, coworker, and tutor. I knew his place to be a safe one. I even knew his roommate, a friend I’ve known since elementary school. I woke up in his bed on my stomach with his on my back inside of me....
April 22nd, 2016
Smoke Together
I had just entered high school and i felt comfortable with more freedom and extreme stuff. I had some friends and in my country weed is really in-fashion… I found a person that was only 2 years older than me, he was handsome,fun and he started selling me the strongest...
February 9th, 2016
Did He Rape Me?
I really need an honest answer, I just want to understand what happened. I feel guilty for calling it “rape” because people have such worse experiences than what happened to me. I’m sorry if this is long, but please bear with me. Ok, this is the background…. I never wanted...
June 4th, 2015
Naive and Raped at 15
I had just turned 15 and it was the summer before my sophomore year in high school. I had had almost no experience. I was a virgin. I liked this older guy who was 18. We had talked a few times at school and he texted me late one night...
December 18th, 2014
Life and Death
I was raped by a man who told me that he was a friend of my roommate and that he, my roommate and friends were back at his hotel room. I believed him though I had inner stirrings of fear warning me of where he was leading me to. I...
August 3rd, 2014
A Self Destructive Life
I was sexually abused by my stepfather from age 5 until age 13. My mom knew and did nothing. Actually she told me when I was 10 that… ” everyone has hardships and this was mine so shut up and deal with it.” I was also abused by 2 of...
December 22nd, 2015
I was 17 and survived
My story began when I was 17 years old. Two of my friends and I went to a party, but it was cancelled due to the risk of police. We were invited to go to someones house to drink and have fun. His name was Jamil who was 26 or...
October 9th, 2014
What Happened?
I was out with my friends. We went to a nightclub, I was 21 and it was April 2013. I started drinking and everyone was drinking. My parents always told me not to ever let my drink out of my sight. Well that night I guess I got a little...
October 18th, 2011
Different face, but the same monster
It started when I was 5…he was a trusted friend of a neighbors family…I can still remember his smell, some 20 years later…’If you tell anyone that I touch you, I’ll hurt you’ he would say, and then throw me to the ground and walk away…fast forward 10 years, same...
May 15th, 2014
The Night That Changed My World
I was raped at college just after turning 21. Off campus at FSU. It was New Year’s Eve, 1979. He got in & blindfolded me. I was raped repeatedly for hours. There were no roommates or neighbors, no cell phones, nothing but a pair of scissors I was fixated on...
July 23rd, 2018
I forgot, but then I remembered
He hit me in the back of the skull with a beer bottle. I didn’t have much time to prepare–we had gotten into a drunken argument and he lunged towards me. The last thing I remembered was the cold, hard glass snuffing out my consciousness. Everything remained dark for four...
June 9th, 2016
Just Another Night
On September 31st I was raped. Very few people know this about me. I’m too scared to tell anyone. How do I even tell someone? How do I handle the way my parents would look at me knowing? My friends? How could I go to the police? Tell my story...
March 8th, 2018
Victimization
I went to San Francisco to help a friend move. Afterwards we grabbed a beer. I didn’t even finish half of my beer and I don’t remember much of what happened. A man named Oleg started chatting with my friend and I. I told him I was married and had...
April 21st, 2016
I Didn’t Even Know Him
A couple of years ago back when I was in my senior year of high school some of my friends convinced me to go to this party. It was the last and first party I will ever go to. I didn’t plan to have any drinks at this party. All...
August 7th, 2015
Gang Rape
I was 14 when I was raped. I went out with my friends to a party where i met these guys there were 3 or 4 of them. They looked at me and complimented on my beauty. Saying “You are a really pretty girl” and “what’s your secret?” I said...
January 14th, 2015
STRONG
When I was 8 years old a woman came into me, my brother’s and my dad’s life. My dad fell in love with her. Two years later, he proposed. A year and a half later we moved into her house. She had a nephew who was 17. I had liked...
March 4th, 2016
Sexual Abuse
i haven’t had a good upbringing. my mum left when i was 2 and left with me my step sister dad who isn’t related to me. (at this point i never knew) when i was about 7 he started to do stuff, touching me and my friends and making me...
March 17th, 2015
I Thought He Cared
It all started in 7th grade. I was some what popular spoke my mind about things I tho was wrong even tried to break up a fight once. My boldness is what caught his attention. We started out as friends laughing about almost everything but I soon became interested in...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
September 5th, 2010
גבר אלים וחולני
לקראת גיל 15 התחלתי לצאת עם בחור שהיה גדול ממני בשנה, לאחר חודשיים בערך ביחד הייתה בנינו מריבה מטופשת במהלך המריבה הוא נהייה אלים כלפי זאת הפעם הראשונה בעצם שהוא הרים עליי יד, הביא לי סטירה שהפילה אותי על הריצפה וכשאני שוכבת על הרצפה הביא לי מכה חזרה בבטן עם...
April 25th, 2015
Molestation
This happened to me 20 years ago. My older brother by 3 years started touching me and gradually raping me. I don’t know how long it was going on, I think a few months to a year. I don’t have a lot of memories of the abuse,only pieces of it,...
When my siblings and I were little, we were molested by a man that forced himself into our lives. My oldest brother was 9, other brother was 5 my sister was 3 and I was two. This man was a guy my mom knew from the bar down the street...
(I’ve felt) Man in Florida ruined my innocence I’ve felt sorrow I’ve felt vengeance I felt what it was like to lose God Tears run down my face allot no one understood I felt the guilt and the blame I felt what it was like to be ashamed being in...
June 23rd, 2014
Virgin Rape
In 1971, I was groomed/tricked by a male student from Chicago’s south side who was at a community college located in southeastern Washington State on a football scholarship. I was 18. I came from an abusive home: my mother mentally, emotionally and physically abused me from my age of 2...
November 20th, 2014
Forced, De-flowered
I’ve experienced sexual assault and harassment for as long as I can remember. It mainly started when I was about 3 years old and my brother’s friends molested me. I remember having to see counselors due to becoming violent…they passed it off as ADD. Flash forward over a decade, I...
May 8th, 2017
I called him my friend
It was a dated function. This guy was my friend. I showed up, and was given lots of vodka. Thats all I remember. I woke up. 4am. I’m in his bed, with his clothes on. I turned over and saw him there, staring at me. He climbed on top of...
July 27th, 2014
Happy Survivor
I am 14 years old and was raped over a year ago. It happened about 4-5 times my rapist was my step cousin. When everyone was asleep he would sneak into my room. Seven months is how long I had kept it inside for with out telling anyone until one...
August 6th, 2015
Too Young
I was only 7 years old when it happened. It was the night before my parents were getting married. We were visiting my family in and getting very excited for the big day. My cousins and I were always so close, we did absolutely everything together. You would think our...
April 14th, 2017
4 Years Ago
4 years ago when I was 19, during my first year at University I met a guy through my friend. He seemed nice enough, he was a bartender at one of the local bars that we frequented because my friends liked it. We went out to go dance/drink at the...
December 3rd, 2014
Never Seemed Worth Telling
To begin, when I was young I developed a terrible maladaptive coping skill of cutting my skin to relieve anything that gave me stress or upset. I began in 6th grade and clearly suffered from some sort of mental illness that gave me extremely low self esteem and self worth....
May 9th, 2014
Becoming a Warrior
It all started when I chose to attend Frostburg State University for my undergraduate studies. It was a compromise of sorts; my Father wanted me close to home, while there was enough distance to allow me the chance to flourish and be on my own. I knew the moment I...
July 28th, 2017
Politeness Serves No One
I had just started college; this was about ten years ago. I was leaving a frat party on my own. A male friend of a friend texted me to ask what I was doing and if I needed someone to walk me back to the dorms. I had only met...
January 4th, 2016
Sexually Abuse
I was sexually abused when I was 8 years old. I am 12 now it was my brother and he was 16 years old then and he still lives with the family. I live under the same house so what happened in my house was having construction so we were...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
May 8th, 2019
UNEXPOSED – AFTER 30 YEARS OF EXTREME...
Molestation 4-13, dissociation syndrome started, afraid 24/7, PTSD 10, black outs began & were triggered by the smell of certain foods or a male authorities voice. Attempted Rape 15, Physical Abuse 16-31, all my ex-boyfriends. Rape 18, also attempted suicide & started dancing because I needed extra money & no...
College is about finding yourself, finding your friends and ,finding who you want to become. While there is more freedom that comes with the title of a college student, there is more adulting as well. The movies make college seem like an endless party where all the boys are cute...
January 20th, 2017
16 times
I have been sexually assaulted 16 times. 11 of those are rapes. It started when I was two. The last time I was 23. 3 of those times were by immediate family members, people I loved and relied on to love, protect and take care of me: My father, when...
July 14th, 2016
Don’t Be Me
He was my brother’s best friend. He was about 3 years older than me. When I was alone in my house, he came over. He said he was waiting for my brother to get home, so I let him in. I told him to wait in the living room. But...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
October 7th, 2017
My Husband Set Me Up!
George set up a night out. We left in the evening for a nice date night out at the movies. On the way there, he picked up Pete, for a ride he needed. While we drove, Pete put a gun to my head, and we pulled over. I had no...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
September 9th, 2014
Doctor Nightmares
I was 25 years old, in love with my boyfriend and living with him in an apartment. He was an artist, a sweet and wonderful man. I had moved to this new city with him, thinking that when he finished school we would get married and start a family as...
October 25th, 2014
Date Rape Drug
I am 67 now. In 1984 my younger sister met a man and he drugged her with a date rape drug. Her story was like so many I have heard. She woke up naked and didn’t know how she had gotten there. She was horrified. She knew she had been...
April 14th, 2017
4 Years Ago
4 years ago when I was 19, during my first year at University I met a guy through my friend. He seemed nice enough, he was a bartender at one of the local bars that we frequented because my friends liked it. We went out to go dance/drink at the...
November 7th, 2016
The Girl Who Went To College
It was early into my first year of college in New York City. (I’m from a really small Midwest town and grew up as a painfully awkward band geek and was going through my first ever breakup with my then-long-distance HS boyfriend back home but we were trying to stay...
April 12th, 2016
Embrace It All
Hello fellow survivors. I want to share a key moment in my recovery process after I was raped by a stranger in a hotel because I hope that it will help you with the process of going through all the guilty feelings and the stages of grief (just like when...
January 20th, 2017
Ashly’s story
I found this website, and it has been just so helpful reading other stories I don’t feel so alone. All these survivors so strong. When I was first rapped I didn’t know it was rape I thought it was my fault and I told myself, well you put yourself in...
April 8th, 2018
Coming forward turned into a nightmare
6 months ago I was raped while at college. And I still have no idea who by. I was walking by a lake to get some fresh air and he came from behind. I never even saw his face. It all happened so fast that I completely froze. I didn’t...
July 25th, 2014
Aftermath
I feel that I should be over the trauma, or the distress of being raped so many years ago. However, at times, 1987 seems like yesterday to me and reliving that day happens more often than I care to share. I lived in a very friendly, unpopulated and isolated part...
October 26th, 2015
Drugged After Junior Prom
My junior year of high school, my first serious boyfriend and I had broken up due to my pesky virginity. A few weeks later, me and some classmates, met Catholic school guys at a pool hall. We befriended them since one of them started dating my friend. I became the...
May 28th, 2018
Rape Survivor
August 14th, 2017 August 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with friends and laughter, then ended with fear, pain, and loneliness. I never had guessed it would be a day that I would never forget. The 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with laughter and friends,...
I trusted a lot of people, never in my mind, I thought they will harm me, but I was wrong. I was hurt in a lot of ways. My boyfriend at that moment, he was sweet at first but everything changes the longer we were together. He never likes it...
So this is a bit difficult but I need to be able to express myself and doing that with my family hasn’t been helpful because they don’t understand my pain and what I went through. When I was 13 Years old I was followed grabbed forcibly and thrown into an...
September 5th, 2018
To protect and serve
As a police officer he had taken an oath to Honor the uniform and badge worn by many; and, to Protect and Serve the citizens of the metropolitan city with whom he swore this oath to protect and serve. As a Deacon with a mega-church, also assigned as its’ Inner-city...
September 21st, 2015
The Course of Seven Years
When I was younger I was told that I would have to rely on my brain to get me places because I wasn’t going to meet someone who found me attractive physically. I went through most of my life with an extremely low self esteem and found it odd when...
December 7th, 2015
No Longer Keeping the Peace
I don’t remember when my abuser began touching me; I guess I was too young. When I was 6-years-old my mother asked me if anyone touched me, and I finally admitted it was my teenage cousin. He would bring me into his room, turn off the lights, and turn on...
August 12th, 2014
The Party
I was 14 years old at the time it happened. It was summer the end of august. The year was 2006. I liked football and hang around with hooligans because i thought there were cool people and just wanted to belong something. With my closest girlfriends at that time we...
December 21st, 2015
Not A Trustworthy Man
I always looked up to my uncles as father figures when my father was not around (he worked a lot). I never once thought that an uncle of mine, a father figure to me would do such a thing to me. Two or three summers ago, my aunt and mother...
June 8th, 2018
My Best Friend’s Husband Raped Me
I was raped by my best friend’s husband in their home while I was in the guest bedroom and she was upstairs about 50 ft away. — Alison, age 50
April 16th, 2018
He doesn’t even know he raped me
I was very drunk one night at a party and as I swiped through my tinder I matched with this boy. He messaged me really quickly and told me he was a senior and that he thought I was pretty and that we should hang out. I was really drunk...
December 10th, 2013
יש חיים אחרי אונס
שלום לכולן, אני בחורה חוזרת בתשובה מזה ארבע שנים .. בגיל 15 בערך עברתי אונס ע”י מציל .. שהיה באמצע שנות העשרים שלו.. לא הצלחתי לדבר שלוש עשרה שנים .. לא הצלחתי להגדיר לעצמי .. עברת עכשיו אונס .. אז שתקתי.. אבל הפצע לא מוכן להישאר בנפש ובגוף .. הוא...
November 15th, 2017
I did Not need to know this
Youngest of 3, and I was the most outgoing. I was into sports and clubs, and after school church activities. I came home from field hockey, all sweaty and stinky, and needed a shower like no tomorrow! I went straight in and to my room to get a change of...
October 11th, 2016
Literal Hell
Last November I was In a back field that was surrounded by woodland.one minute I was tending to the horses and then suddenly I had a hand over my mouth and eyes. I was dragged round the corner, so that there was no way anyone could see. They tied something...
May 9th, 2016
Three Times in a Row
Hi, .y name is Jet. I was 13 at the time, and it was a bit after my birthday. I was with my boyfriend at the time, and he was acting normal the first few month. I remember Halloween came along and I went with him and a friend I...
March 21st, 2017
Aftermath
I’m not gonna tell the story of what he did here, just the aftermath. In october I was raped by a boy I’ve been friends with for a couple years, and he forced my boyfriend and friends to watch. Yesterday I posted his name and the full story on my...
October 9th, 2015
I Thought He Loved Me
I was sixteen and in a relationship with my ex boyfriend. We were only dating for a couple months at the time but I loved him already. We had many mutual friends and we lived in the same city. He treated me like a princess. He would buy me nice...
September 6th, 2017
Worthless
I was sexually abused as a child by my teenage uncle when I was six. My mother told me it’s not his fault he was young and didn’t know what he was doing, then it was he’s was on drugs and didn’t know what he was doing. So I was...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
October 12th, 2015
4 Days Before 16th Birthday
Similar to you Linor, I am a Sabbath keeper. I was looking for something spiritual to watch tonight and I came across your story on Netflix (they have a religious section.) My rape happened 36 years ago. I am a young 52. I have acquired a doctorate in Education, but...
December 6th, 2015
Cruel Kids
I was 14 and in my last year of Jr. High. A lot of girls didn’t like me so I just wanted friends I had a friend invite me to a party for senior ditch day and I went got there and everyone who hated me was there I felt...
March 21st, 2014
I Was Raped By My Dad
WHEN I WAS 7 YEARS OLD MY FATHER COME TO VISIT ME AND PSYCHICALLY HARASSED ME IN FRONT OF ALL THE NEIGHBORS AND MY MOTHER HE TOOK HIS 2 FINGERS AND PUT THEM INTO MY UNDERPANTS. I WAS STANDING WITH MY BECK TO HIM AND DIDNT UNDERSTAND what was happening...
October 1st, 2015
I Barely Knew Them
When I was 15, I went to the parade for my local fire department with my best friend. I was in good spirits, and the day seemed to be going well. As it was getting dark, my friend and I met this group of 4 guys in the park, and...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
December 14th, 2015
Rape is Real
My family has always been very dysfunctional and I grew up with a lot of abuse, my father was a heavy drinker and was often very violent towards my stepmother, my sisters, and I. I never grew up knowing love and affection and I still blame myself most days for...
January 23rd, 2015
Your First
It was two weeks before my 15th birthday. I was on a vacation with my father and I was out with kids my age and 3-4years older. I had meet a few of them before. We were all drinking and it was my first time with alcohol. After awhile, we...
January 27th, 2018
Finally facing it
I’m 32 years old and married now. When I was 15 years old I was dating a 16 year old. I was a virgin with no intentions of having sex anytime soon. I was very naive about sex and also insecure about my body. I went to the homecoming dance...
March 14th, 2016
Ex Best Friend
I was at high school a week before my 18th birthday, we have a late class cancelled that week and as my bestfriend was texting as I have not seen him in so long he asked me to come over to play grand theft auto. I was so excited as...
November 26th, 2014
My Own Street
When I was 17, in my final year of high school, I went out to dinner with a couple of friends on a Saturday night. I left to walk home afterwards, and I was unaware that there was a car was following me as I did. I was almost home...
October 26th, 2017
Keep it to myself
One afternoon I walked home from the bus, to find my brother and 2 of his friends watching a porn. They made rude comments about I’d look good like that. I tried to go to my room, but they tackled me. They all raped me, but technically, my own brother...
April 16th, 2015
Wanted Love But Got Rape
Everyone thought that I was going through a bad breakup. And for a long time, I made myself believe it too. It was like losing a piece of my voice, my life, my skin, my heart, my soul. My mind became a place of torment that I could never escape....
May 11th, 2017
When It’s Personal
Rape awareness is at an all time high in this country. But most people only see half the story. There is a lot more to rape than most think about. Or even know about. Or can even understand. But I can. I do. I’ve seen it. I felt it….. Hollywood...
October 26th, 2017
Dee Bhagwanji
When we lived in Tooting, England we were all happy. I was such a nerd because I hated weekends because that meant no school!! Everything was good until one day something changed. I just remember one of the people I called uncle, pulled out his thing and asked me if...
Hi, my name is Vetty and this is my story. It was hard to share this story but Brave Miss World inspired me a lot. Thank you. So I’m 16 now and this happen to me when I was 15. So I when to a party and my parent told...
August 1st, 2017
Do you remember your first time?
Do you remember your “first time”? That special moment you shared with someone who loved you. Did you feel safe? Comfortable? Was it his first time too? Did it come natural to you, or was it as awkward as people say it can be? These are all questions I will...
July 27th, 2016
Lightening Does Strike Twice
I’ve been raped twice. One left left me bruised, one didn’t leave a mark. Both hurt the same. When I was 16 I got a boyfriend. He was older, and cool, and in a band. He took me to parties, and gave me weed, and made me feel cool, too....
14/01/2016 I was walking home from work at 4am I heard footsteps behind me and then someone grabbed me from behind and pushed me against the wall, pulled my trouser down and then raped I was crying and screaming but no one could hear me. I was so scared to...
May 21st, 2015
My Ex-Boyfriend and Rapist
When I was 19, I had the world in the palm of my hand. I had just graduated high school and community college, both with advanced honors. In the fall, I transferred to university and was looking forward to all that college life had to offer; I was excited for...
November 17th, 2014
My “Uncle” Raped Me
I was molested and raped by my mothers brother. Mom was adopted so he wasn’t a real brother. I am pretty sure he raped my mother too.. He started with me when I was 5 years old and kept it up until I was 11. That’s when I had the...
March 30th, 2010
He Never Apologized
Most recently was when I lived with my ex-fiance. I was the first girl he’d slept with and I naturally had a much lower libido than him, but usually went with it anyway. One day he wanted sex when I was feeling really unwell. I told him I felt crappy...
June 4th, 2014
About Being Raped
When I was a full time student at the University of Durban Westville I had a gap in my time table that allowed me to have a nice long swim once a week. The walk from the swimming pool back to main campus was a lot of uphill so I...
July 31st, 2015
Life of Trauma
When I was 5 I was adopted with my brother and sister. That’s when the abuse started. There are a lot of memories that I have blacked out but I can’t get rid of everything. The abuse started with me since I was the oldest. At that time I just...
February 2nd, 2018
Rape on a Foreign Exchange Trip
When I was 16, I had the opportunity to study abroad in Spain on a full scholarship for a year to further my Spanish-language abilities. I was so excited because I had dedicated my whole life to the language and would finally be living it. My foreign exchange included staying...
The most horrible thing is not what has happened, but what it does to you. It can take hours, some people have to suffer through it for years. For some of us it has just been a moment. It only takes one moment and everything you are, everything you have...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
August 25th, 2015
2 Years Ago
It happened two years ago. I went out in manhattan with some friends. I was already drunk by the time we got to the third bar. I remember taking a drink from someone and then absolute darkness. I have one faint memory of standing outside the bar alone and the...
When I was 7 I moved to a new state. I lived with my grandparents but stayed with my aunty, uncle and younger cousins. My aunty and uncle use to have a lot of parties, I don’t really remember them, just that they had a lot, and then they stopped....
December 28th, 2015
Help…
I live in an area where there aren’t a lot of people to talk to. There’s no support groups and there aren’t many counsellors that aren’t men. (‘m afraid of men, since what happened to me, and there’s one girl-counsellor but she doesn’t understand at all. It’s a very small...
July 9th, 2014
Something I’ve Never Shared
My story isn’t something I’ve ever talked about, so this feels very strange to me, but I just watched Brave Miss World and I was completely moved. I was 16 when I was raped. I shudder to even say that’s what happened to me. For a very long time I’ve...
June 27th, 2015
Betrayed By My Own Mind
I had a shower, and sat on the floor with my legs crossed and my head resting on the glass, for maybe a good 45 minutes trying to meditate or at least practice some mindfulness breathing that our marriage counsellor suggest I try. I can’t. I can’t for more than...
November 8th, 2016
Rape Victim
When I was 21 years old (in a few weeks I’ll be 40) I was raped by a man I didn’t know. At that time I was a flight attendant and came home from a long flight. At the parking lot (it was night, the parking lot was empty), he...
October 16th, 2015
My Story
I was 9 so I will not sugar coat the truth. I will share with you how I was forced to do, well what you wouldn’t have wanted to do. I will share with why I had teary eyes as he separated my thighs. But then again you might only...
June 26th, 2015
My Modeling Experience
I am an Irish woman. A single mother to 3 amazing boys. I was 17 when I was raped. I had just started my modeling career in an agency here in Ireland. An aunt of mine was also in the agency at the time. I won a big competition here...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
August 24th, 2016
Always the Girls Fault
He was my best friend. I had known him nearly a couple months then he started flirting with me. By that stage we were inseparable best friends. It started with asking for pictures which i gave into 3 times, hoping he’d stop. He did. The first time he asked me...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
July 11th, 2015
Domestic Rape
My high school boyfriend lured me in from the start. Being young and insecure, it was easy to fall for every lie. After only a month into our relationship, he went to jail. He lied to my family and I, saying it was wrongful driving related charges. My sweet mother...
May 25th, 2018
I was raped last summer
Last summer I meet this guy he was so nice to he asked me out and I said yes then things started to get bad the littlest things would make him mad and he would hit and punch me at this time i had not had sex yet. Everything started...
October 24th, 2018
Believe it or Not, It happened to...
was raped 29 years ago. I was Party Raped, Gang Raped, whatever you want to call it. 1989 I was 14, and raped by my ex boyfriend and 2 of his friends (who I had never spoke to). I will save all the details. I was Drunk, beyond drunk, and...
February 20th, 2018
My Story
I was 16 when I had my first kiss, 17 when I met my first boyfriend and lost my virginity. I was a shy girl, the one who blended into the background amongst her more attractive friends. Dennis was tall, blonde and exotic- All of us were drawn to him....
April 15th, 2016
Too Close for Comfort
I was only 7/8 when I was first touched sexually. I didn’t understand what was going on so I just kept it to myself. I faked smiling after that day. I tried to be happy for the rest of my family but I could never be. I started messing up...
February 6th, 2017
I Said No
They made me do a module on sexual assault and harassment. I listened. I did it. I read 1 in 5 women will be sexually assaulted. I told myself it would never be me. I would never put myself in that situation. And then the storm came. I liked you...
June 14th, 2017
November ’08
Hi, my name is Erica. On November 4th, 2008, the day the results of the presidential election were announced, I was sexually assaulted. It was a Tuesday night. Myself and a couple of friends were at a bar across from Union Station, having drinks while waiting to find out the...
November 19th, 2013
Keeping Faith
I was recently kidnapped and kept in a room where a man repeatedly drugged and raped me. He told me to do everything he said and he would let me go. Blindfolded, with my hands tied behind my back, I did. I prayed so hard and asked God not to...
July 3rd, 2015
Family Rape
One night when I was 12, my cousin came over to spend the night while my parents were out. I kinda was sexually attracted to him so when he was laying down I messed with him and soon he got an erection. I played with it for a little and...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
Although I was not raped until the age of 23 I need to start my story much earlier. When I was about 7 or 8, my older cousin, who was only one year older than me began touching me. At that age I don’t think I really understood what was...
November 28th, 2014
Naive and Vulnerable
I was working in a hotel in a remote holiday village where he was the bouncer on the nights that the night club attached to the hotel was open. He was not the stereotypical bouncer. He was relatively small, average build and not threatening-looking. It was obvious he was there...
August 29th, 2020
Why you should talk to your daughters...
At 16 I began dating my first serious boyfriend. I kept it a secret from my mom since she made it feel like I couldn’t talk to her about anything, love, sex, school, nothing. I had recently turned 16 and he was 17 at the time. We went to the...
May 4th, 2015
No Wasn’t Good Enough
I was enlisted in the United States Army. I believed it was my chance to find my self and be courageous and to leave the sheltered area from where I was raised, to be a voice. After a deployment with my unit I came home, I was tired and worn...
August 17th, 2015
I Was 3 Years Old
He was 12, my father’s younger brother. He was my friend, my playmate, my love. It was very traumatic. Still is, more than 60 years later. I finally told my parents a few years before they died. He was at their funeral. I’m still unable to talk about it with...
September 22nd, 2017
Repeat Offender
I had my Tuesday night shift, and it was a cold, wet and still a misty rain, and I just got off the #113 bus as it turned at Fernwood Cemetery, and it goes left to the terminal, and I go right to my apartment and walk home. I was...
November 9th, 2017
Tulane Law
I was a Junior. I lived in school housing and went to a party at a house 2 blocks from my room. I arrived and one of the guys who lived there asked me to come check out his CD collection. He got aggressive, pushed me against a wall, and...
October 7th, 2017
My Husband Set Me Up!
George set up a night out. We left in the evening for a nice date night out at the movies. On the way there, he picked up Pete, for a ride he needed. While we drove, Pete put a gun to my head, and we pulled over. I had no...
April 15th, 2014
A Journal of a Wayward Child
I have a long history of abuse and rape in my family and myself (44 years for me) and would like to have the opportunity to share my story with women around the world. Forgiveness has been the first step in healing and am now in a woman’s shelter beginning...
March 6th, 2018
Marital Rape and the abuser in my...
I’m not sure where to start. Years ago I met a much younger man who would not leave my side. He is not in the U.S. legally. Now it’s clear that back then, he was looking for protection, and security, and he found that in me. He was subtle in...
April 11th, 2016
“No” is Universal
Last night I went out to a bar near campus with a few good friends of mine. After a few drinks we ran into some foreign exchange students who bought us shots. An hour or so later I left the bar with one of the french exchange students that I...
December 19th, 2015
I still feel “crazy”
It’s 1:11am, and I feel the crazies coming that I never understood until 2 years ago after I heard Barry Lopez tell his story to Terry Gross on NPR (Sliver of Sky), where he said, “Certainly innocence is gone and sexual gender confusion is introduced, but you can actually talk...
April 2nd, 2017
Rape Under Intoxication
Last summer, I went on a date with my male friend. He openly liked me but, few days earlier, I had told him that being alone with him in a private room made me uncomfortable, and that I did not want a sexual relationship with him. At dinner, we drank...
March 24th, 2015
Bus Ride Of Missing Hope
When Ii finally told someone, no one believed me. He was the good kid in class. They said he not like that. It was after school in 5th grade we had a sub bus driver because ours just had surgery. I was sitting in my set when I felt someone...
August 24th, 2009
My Story.
I’m Chanel, I’m 12 years old young right? Well here’s my heartbreaking story.. I was hmm.. About 10 or so when it all began. Now MOST people, their stepdads sexualy abuse them, well no. This guy. He was my older brother.. he was about ehh. 14, he KNEW rigt from...
January 25th, 2017
He was jealous of my new friend
So April/May 2016, thanks to a newspaper article I get back in touch with an old friend. He asks me if I’m happy in the relationship I am currently in with my partner, I admit to him I’m not and I want out. Two months after this my partner goes...
August 27th, 2018
Healing and releasing painful memories
I was a fashion designer in the Los Angeles area. I opened up my own business and hired a young man that we knew in the garment business as our shipping manager and coordinator. He was someone my ex-husband, now deceased, knew. We became friends with him and his wife....
January 21st, 2018
Be Aware
A girl I date recently came forward to me about 2 occurrences. I really don’t know how to feel about it all because she is a victim of rape but she also put herself in each situation it occurred. The summer after her freshman year of college she went to...
October 20th, 2017
A Lifetime of #MeToo – How Sexual...
I was eleven when I lost my virginity. It happened under an old pine tree in an overgrown backyard of an old lady’s house a block away from my childhood home. The boys were older. They were rough and cruel. They laughed the whole time like it was some hysterical...
February 16th, 2015
Sleepraping
6 years have passed and I think about this everyday. Everyday. An inner tug of war turning the events over in my head. My boyfriend is an ‘upstanding citizen’, joined the army for the forces of good and would walk old ladies across the road. He started by the end...
July 21st, 2015
Was It Real or Not
It always seemed like a joke to me, rape. Having a lot of guys as friends I felt so close to guys and felt I could trust then more, until one came along he was like a brother to me but he always told me he loved me and I...
May 18th, 2015
Rape or Not?
I just saw Brave Miss World, and it made me think of my past. It was year 2011 when this happened. I was going to have sex with a boy that I didn’t know so well. We were at the party. At first, I wanted it myself too. Then I...
July 2nd, 2014
Rapist Turned Murderer
I’m in my 30’s now and am not all there any more but I try to be a good and happy person. The thing is I don’t remember much of what happened to me. People exclaim that if you go through trauma you’ll remember every detail but that isn’t true....
September 30th, 2016
Still Confused
am eight years younger than my brother. When we were growing up he would often invite me to fight and play with him, in bed, on weekend mornings. When I was sixteen I had to leave the family home with mother and we moved into my brothers short term. I...
January 25th, 2018
Too drunk to respond
I was living in a university dorm. I was 18. I had had too much to drink and my older next door neighbor had said that he would help me as I had cut my hand on glass. He took me into his room. He started to kiss me and...
September 19th, 2014
Rape and the Aftermath
My story happened 20 years ago, but I do not talk about it and only my friends that new me back then know my story. I met my first husband when I was 18 years old. Shortly after that I got pregnant and we married. The abuse started while I...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
October 4th, 2016
It Happened More Than Once
I was a rape victim for 4 years for two different people, here is my story. When I was 10 years old my mom had a good friend named Pearl, was like an aunt to my younger sister and I and like a sister to my mom so we called...
January 7th, 2018
11 Years to Justice
Thank you for letting me share because I hope I can bring some hope and encouragement for those still waiting for Justice. First I want to say how brave and strong everyone here is. Never forget that. If you weren’t, you wouldn’t be here. In 1999 after a 8 year...
October 29th, 2015
Nobody Knows
Nobody knows this because I have always kept this to myself. This is the first time someone will hear not only one but two of my stories. My boyfriend doesn’t know how horrible it actually was but he knows I had past abusive relationships. First time it happened was when...
September 4th, 2015
It Started With Rape
For sometime I have befriended this guy thru text , he is a cousin of my high school classmate. After two years of exchanging messages we finally met-up and he formally courted me. I thought I already know him with the two years exchange of messages. He seemed gentle and...
September 27th, 2017
Stress
I have a peculiar form of anxiety paralysis. This started shortly after I started school, as I would stress over an upcoming placement test, I froze in place, unable to move or speak, though fully aware. It ends in about 20 minutes, and I am fine. I was transferred to...
October 25th, 2018
The Boys Club Continues
I decided to share my story after reading another woman’s story on this site…she was brutally gang raped by police and contemplating suicide. Please “don’t let them win” by Suicide. I know it’s your choice to take your life or survive…. I know the helplessness against the Blue Wall. I...
March 22nd, 2016
New Years Eve Party
It happened on mew years eve and i went to a party with my cousin chris and his girlfriend vanda. So when i got to the party there was so many liquor and then vanda asked me if i wanted any. i said no because i’m 16 then i said...
February 7th, 2014
Date Rape
I was dating a man I actually liked. Our families were friends. He represented everything I wasn’t. He told me one night that he had bought a building to convert into a store so we could have a future, HE asked me if I wanted to see it. I followed...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
February 25th, 2015
Respect
First of all, I’m sorry if my English isn’t fluent, I’m Dutch. I have never been raped or anything that comes close to that. I just watched Brave Miss World this afternoon and it really touched me and I just felt like I had to show my respect to all...
July 25th, 2020
Manipulation
At the beginning of my sophomore year, I was at a new school, and this guy started talking to me very early on. People at the school don’t like him, at all, but I didn’t know that, I was new, and he always pulled the new girls who wouldn’t have...
April 6th, 2016
Holding It In
When I was in 5th or 6 the grade, I can’t remember exactly when it started, I began to have dreams that someone was coming into my room at night. I didn’t recall much of what they were doing. A few months after it began I realized they were not...
March 31st, 2016
Shout Out
I was sexually abused by my own father throughout my childhood until I was 13. He did stuff to me and groomed me to do more and more sexual things to him. As I got older he told me that ‘we’ would be in trouble if anyone found out, that...
September 29th, 2014
Camilla’s Story
My story begins with me very young living with my Aunt and Uncle and their two sons. I had been removed from my mother’s custody at the age of 18 months old because of her drug use. Around the time I was 5 or 6 was the first time I...
January 12th, 2018
Spring Break
Spring Break in Ft. Lauderdale. I was gang raped by 3 guys in my own room. My friends were my support, but I had to call it short and go home, and 1 friend did also to travel with me. I am one of the Too Many. — Jane, age...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
I was at a fraternity party with a date in February 1989 at Marquette University, Milwaukee, Wisconsin. It was a beach theme, so we were all wearing bathing suits. I distinctly remember choosing a one-piece because I thought that a bikini would cause problems. I was wearing denim shorts as...
April 21st, 2017
A Year After
My journal entry on April 18, 2017 -About a year after submitting my “first story” on this site I just made a beautiful, clean cut, with a blade I took from my Mom’s drawer, right below the most prominent, bulging stretch mark on my right hip. I did it to...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
March 16th, 2018
I lost myself before I even knew...
I was six years old the first time I ever felt as if my body was no longer mine. Six years old, I lost the pure innocence you often see in young children playing in playgrounds. At six years old, you don’t understand what this means or what he’s doing....
August 1st, 2015
April 2015
I just turned 13,and I was a virgin.I planned to go my boyfriends house with my best friend to drink and a few of his friends were there too and before I got inside one of the guys there texted my friend saying that her boyfriend is “trynna fuck” but...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
February 10th, 2016
Family Ties
When I was 17, I was on holiday with my dad, step mum and step brother. Everything was going great until one night when my dad and his wife went to bed early leaving me and Stephen alone. At first everything was normal, I was on one side of the...
October 4th, 2017
My best friend
Senior year of college, I was extremely drunk at a house party. My best friend, who I had hooked up with a few times was there with me, at a certain point I blacked out. I woke up in the morning in his bed with no clothes on, and I...
September 18th, 2016
Abused By My Cousin and Uncle
I think growing up, I was sexually assaulted by my my cousin as well as my uncle, but sometimes I often ask myself if it was really sexual abuse OR not. When I was younger, about 7-8 I lived in a house with my mom, aunt, uncle, and cousins. I...
March 8th, 2017
I Repressed Everything… Until Now
I was fourteen and had already lost my virginity to a guy I barely knew, liked, or cared about. I was never one of those girls who saw themselves saving it until marriage. Knowing what I know now, I believe my first sexual assault happened much earlier in my life...
November 28th, 2017
It’s my fault
I’m a small town girl living on her own for the first time in a really big city going to college. I’ve been dating my boyfriend (who lives 5 hours away) for almost 5 years and one night I went out with some friends and ended up getting really wasted...
October 28th, 2016
What I Now Feel, Because of Him
I’m in a dark place, a very dark and empty room. I sit in the furthest corner away from the door, trapped inside my own thoughts. Im away from the world, trapped in a dark room with pain, violence and torture keeping me company. I can’t move or speak, Im...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
May 22nd, 2018
After Wedding
I had attended a friend’s wedding, and with an open bar, I was thoroughly drunk. It was fortunate that they provided a van service home, because I was in no shape to drive! I got home, changed, and blissfully went to bed. I awoke to my pajama top open, and...
November 21st, 2013
I want my innocence back
I often feel as if I’m overreacting, that it wasn’t all that bad. Maybe I have even imagined or misremembered it, as I was drunk at the time; but the months leading up to it and my friend’s (drunken) memories should be enough as proof, seeing that the police takes...