Drugged

I was raped 8 months ago…I was 20 years old at the time at my university when it happened. After watching Brave Miss World I felt compelled to share my story.

I went out to the bar one night and got a drink, I set it down for a short while to help a friend and didn’t think anything of it. Soon after I began to feel weird, almost as if my body was beginning to weigh thousands of pounds. I went to the restrooms and realized I was in trouble. I remember leaving the restroom but nothing else, I blacked out and remember very little until I was laying on the steps outside of my apartment. The moments I do remember are of me laying on my stomach feeling the weight of someone on top of me and feeling a sharp pain, i tried to fight but couldn’t and I passed out again. When I awoke I knew something had happened, I could hardly walk everything hurt. I was drugged, raped, and sodomized. I made the decision to report it, and get a rape kit. I only remember moments from the night but not enough to identify who did it. I just know more than one man was involved but not who so I can’t seek justice.

After I reported it I didn’t know what to do, I was terrified that they knew who I was and it was going to happen again. I told my friend and family who have helped push me to see a counselor. I feel like a part of me has been taken from me and the what ifs of that night haunt me all the time. I am recovering from this and find every day I face it easier than the day before. I am going to become stronger from this, and it will not define who I am.