January 22nd, 2015
It’s Been 10 Years
It’s been 10 years since I was raped. I dislike even using the word rape and I have never written about it. I was 13 years old and a virgin when it happened. Me and a friend snuck out late at night and went to a party where I drank...
December 18th, 2016
Graduation Night
I didn’t even know if it was rape, and I still question myself every time the memory Is brought from behind the barred door. It was afer graduation, I was kind of upset that me and my family had went to some restaurant that I hated for my important celebration...
I was 27 years old when it happened. There was this guy I met through a friend of mine named Noah. My friend said he was a great guy. Said he was newly divorced, cute, a Christian and that I would really like him. Noah and I had talked on...
June 26th, 2014
Raped at 16
I was sixteen taken to a party by a girlfriend that I trusted. When we showed up there were on 2 men there that I never met. We drank and got drunk, I fell asleep and woke up in the middle of the night and one of the guys were...
August 27th, 2018
I now know
When I was 6 I went over to my grandmother’s house and her neighbors kid was over as well. He was 16. He saw me and took me to the room to ‘play’. He sat me on the bed and asked if we wanted to ‘kiss’ I didn’t know what...
October 13th, 2016
I Didn’t See It In Time
I’m just some normal person. That’s what I always think of myself. I have a guy who loves me, and has never hurt me. My best friend, on the other hand, didn’t get the best experience with her boyfriend. Everything went pretty ok with them at first, but I didn’t...
December 7th, 2015
Twenty Years of Hell
I was twelve. I hadn’t become a woman yet as mother nature was not ready, I was not ready. My family needed a horse trainer for our paso fino horses. We met a man, age 26, that was working at another farm a about two hours away. He began training...
August 9th, 2015
Locked Up
My story is too long to share here, so I ask you to view my page www.thecasestudytas.com. My daughters and I were drugged with over the counter insomnia aides, and raped repeatedly by my then fiancรฉ. โInadvertent” errors made by the police led doctors to diagnose me as delusional. My...
March 7th, 2018
I’m Only Stronger
Wednesday night of November 1, 2017 I was beaten half to death by my ex boyfriend. He kicked me, punched me, pistol whipped me and took the battery out of my phone therefore, making it impossible for me to call anyone or for me to leave. I never thought that...
February 13th, 2016
Touched by a Man I Didn’t Know
So I was around 9-10 when this happened. I had just moved with my dad to another state, and since my mother was doing a nursing course, I had to live with him for a year. The neighborhood I lived in was really nice and there were lots of kids...
March 23rd, 2016
An Abnormal Reaction
So this entire story starts at the beginning of this summer. Before the summer started I had been dating around and seeing a few guys casually but there was no one I liked. All of these endeavors were super innocent as we would do things like go to the movies...
July 17th, 2015
Date Rape
It happened about a month ago now. This guy, whose name I will not state, added me on my Facebook and messaged me. We started talking for about 2 weeks and I was really into him, he invited me to his friends house for a few drinks one night and...
December 4th, 2017
Touched by my cousin
I was ten years old, my cousin was fourteen. I remember I was sleeping in his younger sisters room when he came in to see me. I remember waking up with his hand on my vagina and his tongue in my mouth. As soon as I woke up he had...
October 2nd, 2017
He ruined my life
My mum and dad separated when I was 12. After that she began to hate me and my sister (who was 7 at the time) because we were her ex-boyfriend’s daughters. A few months later she brought in one of her old school friends to live with us. Although we...
August 7th, 2015
Gang Rape
I was 14 when I was raped. I went out with my friends to a party where i met these guys there were 3 or 4 of them. They looked at me and complimented on my beauty. Saying “You are a really pretty girl” and “what’s your secret?” I said...
October 9th, 2016
Never Thought It Would Happen To Me
I am a rape survivor. I was in a relationship with this guy for about a year and 3 months in total. I thought we would be together for a long time. I thought he would never hurt me. I thought he would never do what he did. But yet,...
I was 17 years old i was a virgin I had this boyfriend for a couple of weeks and then he went to university in another city, i went to visit him and lied to my parents telling them i was going to visit a friend on The same city...
March 14th, 2017
Surviving, Kinda
Help. God help me write this, but I think its time I let it out. This is my story about how a man who completely destroyed me within a matter of minuets, three times. At first I didn’t know it was rape. After years of abuse I just thought it...
May 8th, 2019
UNEXPOSED – AFTER 30 YEARS OF EXTREME...
Molestation 4-13, dissociation syndrome started, afraid 24/7, PTSD 10, black outs began & were triggered by the smell of certain foods or a male authorities voice. Attempted Rape 15, Physical Abuse 16-31, all my ex-boyfriends. Rape 18, also attempted suicide & started dancing because I needed extra money & no...
April 7th, 2016
Knowledge is Power
Summer of 2015 my cousin brought his best friend to our family’s 4th of July celebration. His friend had always been flirty with me, but I had a boyfriend before this summer and he had a girlfriend. After he found out I was single on 4th of July, he started...
I just finished watching Brave Miss World and it inspired me to share for the first time my experiences. Between the age of 6 and 8, the older son (he was 16) of a family friend sexually abused me. He always said not to tell. I felt so ashamed that...
May 2nd, 2018
Finally Sharing
My story is old nearly two decades and yet it as if my rape was yesterday. I have done a lot of healing absolutely but this type of trauma never leaves you – it shapes you. I feel sad about the circumstances around my rape and as others have experienced...
July 10th, 2016
What Is Success?
I’m not a doctor or a lawyer, a CEO, athlete nor a celebrity of any kind. I don’t own a boat of any sort or make six-figures. But I am a success. Here’s how… The first time it happened, I knew what it was, I said no. I was 18...
March 24th, 2016
More Than Once
I would like to share my story with you. It all started around age two when my grandfather started molesting me, then taught my uncle to do the same The whole time growing up, I really thought it.was all a dream, till one night when I was 18 I heard...
April 11th, 2017
Years later… meeting my rapist again
I was abducted when I was nineteen by an acquaintance who stalked me. I tried to report it to the campus police, but they just humiliated me. Also, It was an ordeal that I don’t really remember because he drugged me. But many years later, I moved to a new...
June 23rd, 2014
Marital Rape
I myself experienced rape but it is a very different type and a very unique situation that made it hard for me to really know how to handle it at first. I was raped by my husband. It is one of those subjects that is a gray area where the...
January 19th, 2015
Marital Rape
As a 6 year old child, I was molested by an older cousin. I did not say a word about this for a few years. I accidentally spilled the beans one night to my mom. I was placed in counseling to deal with the trauma, and the person there to...
November 30th, 2014
Ex-Boyfriend
I dated my boyfriend for 4 years on and off. He was extremely emotionally and physically abusive. He isolated me from everyone I knew, including my parents and made me feel like he was everything. He was the first guy I slept with, and even the first time with him...
September 26th, 2016
Feeling Alone
This last February/March I was raped by someone I formally call my friend. After drinking too much one Friday night our friend group was hanging out, we all got up to walk down the hall to another room in our dorm when he grabbed my breast and pulled me into...
November 5th, 2014
Six Years of Denial
After six years, I am finally allowing myself to acknowledge that I was raped. The rapist was someone who I had recently became close friends with. It happened after a dinner party at his apartment, after everyone left. I was so shocked and confused I didn’t even realize what was...
January 14th, 2015
My Stepbrother
From the ages of 14-16, Ii lived with my father in Malaysia. At first, I was happy and thought I could take a year in school down there to learn about the culture and meet other people. I lived with my father, stepmum and stepbrother. Everything was like normal in...
April 15th, 2017
Exposing Rapists – A Poem
You will never be free Dark is your secret Whatever you do Whoever you become However you dress That secret will turn acidy Drown it with beer Bury it in anger Throw yourself into work Grow your beard Marry the best Protect your daughters Still it will eat your insides...
October 24th, 2014
Don’t Want to Admit It
I meet him online. I built a friendship with him. Kind of a match thing except for younger people. The connection was great. I said let’s meet at a coffee shop. He picked the place. He was late to give me the address and I waited for him. Meet him...
Hi guys, I’m currently 16 years old, and I am a victim of 2 sexual assaults, and one rape. Sexual assault #1: I was in grade 8, going to school in a small town, which meant I knew everyone. I was dedicated to my agricultural subjects and I tried to...
February 19th, 2018
I was 4 yrs old
And the rape affects me every day. Now I am 55 yrs old. My heart breaks for people who have lost their lives or their loved ones to violent or other types of crimes. I know their struggle is probably worse than mine. But I am in pain. I have...
July 19th, 2018
Young and dumb?
Now that I am a mother of a teenage daughter I realize that my assault wasn’t just because I was young and dumb. For years I blamed myself for drinking with those guys I hardly knew, and when it happened to my daughter I caught myself thinking “How dumb of...
July 24th, 2018
I Am A Survivor
It’s been 7 months since you raped me. 7 months since you took something so valuable to me. I still feel your hands around my neck and your breath down my neck. I was so scared to tell my own parents because you threatened me you would hurt me if...
April 6th, 2016
Holding It In
When I was in 5th or 6 the grade, I can’t remember exactly when it started, I began to have dreams that someone was coming into my room at night. I didn’t recall much of what they were doing. A few months after it began I realized they were not...
May 16th, 2016
Six Years Old
I know that this is a site for women who were raped. I would like to share my story if it helps too. I was 6 or 7 years old when my cousin (between 15-18 years old) moved to our department. He was living in the country side and he...
March 25th, 2016
Tormented
I lost my virginity when I was 14, I was with my best friend at the time, we met up with one of her friends who was 21. he had problems I even think he was on drugs I’m not entirely sure. Anyways they both decided that it was my...
March 22nd, 2018
It was just a friend date
I wasn’t planning on cheating. I was in a committed monogamous relationship, and we were both quite happy! I was with B for over 3 years, and I know he was trying to do it all right and save that 3 month wages! I had a lot of friends online,...
August 24th, 2009
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ืืืืคื ืืืื ืืชืืืืื ืืจืฉืื ืืช ืืกืืคืืจ ืฉืื ืืฉืืจืืืฉื ืฉืื ืืฉื ื ืืื ืื ื ืืจืฉืื- ืื ืคืฉืื ืื ืืืื ืืกืคืืง. ืื ื ืืื ืืชืื ืืกืื ืืื ืืืจ ืฉื ืื ืจืืืช- ืจืืืช ืืื. ืื ื ืืช 25, ืืืืจืื ื ืกืืืืชื ืืช ืืชืืืจ ืืจืืฉืื ืฉืื. ืืืจืืช ืืืื ืฉืื ื ืืืื ืืืื- ืืืืจื ืืฉื ืื ืชืืื ืืืืืชื ืฉืืช ืื ืืืืืืช ืฉืื...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
March 23rd, 2016
I Was 10
Me, my mom, dad and little brother moved into a new house and right away became friends with my next-door neighbor. He had a daughter around my age at the time and we became best friends. Both our families were so close that we were always at each other’s houses....
June 17th, 2014
Still Carry the Anger
AFTER 15 YEARS I STILL CARRY AROUND THE ANGER OF WHAT MY FATHER AND NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR DID TO ME. BOTH OF THESE MEN WERE OLDER AND I WAS ABUSED FROM THE AGES OF 12-18. 7 YEARS OF MY LIFE LIVING IN FEAR, 7 YEARS OF MY LIFE SLEEPING WITH...
November 7th, 2016
First Time Sharing
This is the first time I ever talk about this. I never told anyone, not my parents or a friend. This happened when I was 15, I’ve always been really quiet and shy, the stereotypical lonely kid. There was a guy in my class who would always try to argue...
May 29th, 2017
The Friendship I Always Never Wanted
Denny* and I had a turbulent relationship. We had fun, so much fun โ until 2009 began to unfold. Surviving Black Saturday traumatized Denny. His uncle had committed suicide a month earlier. He was experiencing his first hardships as an adult, and I was too young and naรฏve to see...
August 24th, 2009
ืืืื ื ืืืื
ืืืืงืช ืืช ืืืื. ืืืื ื ืืืื, ืืื ืื ืืืืจืืช ืฉืื, ืืื ืืืฉื ืืืฉืจืื ืฉืื ืขืืจื ืืืจืื ืืื ืืช / ืชืงืืคื ืืื ืืช / ืืื ืก ืื ืืืืื ืขืจืืืช.
August 19th, 2017
A sociopath in disguise
It was a coworker. I was 23. It started almost a year ago. We were both in relationships, there was flirting but what I felt to be harmless. It became a friendship, an odd bond with an odd guy, something was off but I assumed it was his rough child...
February 22nd, 2017
I think my “boyfriend” raped me
I’m 16. I’ve been basically dating this guy for a few months.. we just haven’t made things official. Almost every time were alone we end up having sex. On Valentine’s Day he invited me to go out to east with him so after school he picked me up and we...
November 15th, 2017
Raped Multiple Times
I am an Indonesian, and I was in my third year of college when I was raped, by a good friend who had been a my friend for around 3 years. We hung out a lot back then, mainly because both of us needed some companies while doing our final...
December 18th, 2015
Growing Past Just Surviving
I grew up in an abusive household with an alcoholic father. Our daytime seemed the perfect middle class, church going family where all was polite, well and peaceful. Our night times where a living nightmare. My father became a different man drunk. I grew up physically and sexually abused, although...
May 25th, 2018
Twice a pattern?
If something bad happens once, people usually say it’s bad luck. But to happen twice, just seems stupid. Growing up in a restricted family, I had never been exposed to the sexually explicit content that is out in the world. However, when I turned 17 that all changed for me....
March 30th, 2016
Day at the Lake
It was mid August of 2015. I grew up in a small town feeling very comfortable with everyone. I knew about Sexual Assault and how to prevent it because my older sister had been raped at a college party when I was 14. But I never thought it would happen...
August 25th, 2015
2 Years Ago
It happened two years ago. I went out in manhattan with some friends. I was already drunk by the time we got to the third bar. I remember taking a drink from someone and then absolute darkness. I have one faint memory of standing outside the bar alone and the...
June 6th, 2017
I Didn’t Choose This Life
My mom met a guy after my dad moved away. She took me to his house to meet his family and children. A few months his sons became my step brothers. There was the oldest which was the nice one and the youngest at the time about 14-15 while I...
June 9th, 2016
The First Time
I was 14 years old the very first time. It was almost summer in 2010, I was walking home from school and it was the second time one of my best friends wasn’t walking home with me. I stopped at the toilets in the local botanical gardens. As I left...
January 20th, 2017
16 times
I have been sexually assaulted 16 times. 11 of those are rapes. It started when I was two. The last time I was 23. 3 of those times were by immediate family members, people I loved and relied on to love, protect and take care of me: My father, when...
August 24th, 2016
Always the Girls Fault
He was my best friend. I had known him nearly a couple months then he started flirting with me. By that stage we were inseparable best friends. It started with asking for pictures which i gave into 3 times, hoping he’d stop. He did. The first time he asked me...
November 22nd, 2014
I Thought He Loved Me
I don’t know how to start this… Well, I had a horrible teenage life getting bullied…and all I ever wanted was love and to be wanted. I would try to fit in, but I would attract the people that would see me as an easy target. I got raped by...
January 23rd, 2015
Your First
It was two weeks before my 15th birthday. I was on a vacation with my father and I was out with kids my age and 3-4years older. I had meet a few of them before. We were all drinking and it was my first time with alcohol. After awhile, we...
November 27th, 2017
My husband was molested as a child
This is my husband’s story. He recently confided to me about how terrible of a person his great uncle is. He was molested multiple times by him whom I’ve met a few times in the past. Let’s call him Guu. It started when he was very young (6 or 7)...
Born A Girl When I was 10, I noticed men looking at me differently When I was 10 to 12 men and boys of all ages honked their horns, whistled and yelled profanities at me When I was 13 my friend and I were walking home in the daylight, when...
January 6th, 2017
Friends??
I’m so nervous to tell my story. I’ve been raped 3 x’s by guys I thought were my friends and I trusted. One used to be a cop. Sorry this is so long. The 1st time I was raped I was at my 1st party. I was 21, just moved...
June 26th, 2014
My Story of a Gang Rape
I was 18 years old and away at college. I was with my boyfriend and just had sex for the first time. Afterwards he was unable to start his car and 3 men pulled up and offered to help. They got out of their car with a gun. My boyfriend...
January 20th, 2014
ืืืจืืืื ืืื ืงืฉื ืืืื
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November 14th, 2017
#MeToo I am 1
Entertainment has no monopoly on the casting couch. I was at an upper class party, selling a new company division, rather than just 1 product. I had a dress I couldn’t afford, and borrowed jewelry. A new agency engaged to sit my daughter, and I stopped to pray at my...
So this is a bit difficult but I need to be able to express myself and doing that with my family hasn’t been helpful because they don’t understand my pain and what I went through. When I was 13 Years old I was followed grabbed forcibly and thrown into an...
August 18th, 2014
Ignored For a Lifetime
I was sexually abused repeatedly at the hands of an uncle when I was nine years old. My entire family has always chosen to ignore that ever happened, to this day. The ghosts of this traumatic series of events have haunted me for the next 41 years of my life....
December 4th, 2017
I’m so sorry
I’ve never told anyone my story- I brushed it to the side, hoping I’d find strength in myself to forget. I have a little sister, she needs someone to look up to- It can’t be me when I’m suffering. This exact day a year ago, my life changed forever- I...
March 21st, 2016
Freshman on Campus
It was my freshman year on campus. I was always shy and quiet but I always attracted guys. The wrong guys. I wanted that fairytale love. After my first big rivalry game on campus I said goodnight to my friends and started my walk back to my dorm. I met...
August 4th, 2016
A Zillion Baths But Still Feel Dirty
Don’t you hate when bad memories sneak out in what is supposed to be your happiest time? I do. I was raped by my uncle when I was 10, every time we were left home together he never missed out on an opportunity to abuse and when all that was...
It was 1:00 in the morning I snuck out to meet a boy they meet at the skatepark I got in his car an he drove us back to his house. He took me to the bathroom. He started to get undressed an than he took my clothes off an...
June 26th, 2014
I Was Manipulated
3 weeks before I left my first year of college, (I had just turned 19) I met a boy through a school event and a few mutual friends. I talked to him first, and he felt that my initiation meant that “I wanted it”. I had recently been through a...
August 25th, 2016
The Night I Wished Never Happened!!
was 22 yr old Virgin(indian) when this occurred…. I’m a doctor was doing my internship at bangalore medical college… I was so fed up with studies I wanted to have fun i made new friends and one among that was a girl named kritta .. she was living the life...
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August 7th, 2018
I will never forget
All this start when i meet a boy when i was 16 he was my dream man who later will be my nightmare,i remember like today the day u do that too me,i was young and silly i believe in this world everybody is like me,naive as i was,i could...
November 22nd, 2014
End of Innocence
I had just turned 18. I knew everything or thought I did and my father’s temper was as bad as mine. We got into a fight and he told me to leave and to spite him I did. I went to my best friends house with the intent to stay...
February 19th, 2018
I’ve survived sexual abuse
As a kid I was a molested from the time I was 5 until 15. I married to leave my house. Got pregnant and divorced soon after. Then I found myself in a very controlling relationship. Found myself pregnant again which are lost that child due to a DUI driver...
November 21st, 2015
I Trusted Him
When I was a teenager, I would stay out past curfew a lot. My mother was at her wits end with me. She constantly expressed her disappointment. At one point she said to me “you are going to end up pregnant.” When I turned 18, I signed up for the...
July 21st, 2014
ืืืื ืืจ ืืืงืจื
ืืื ืืื ืืจ, ืงืืจืืื ืื ืืืจืืื ืื ื ืืช 16 ืืชื ืืืื. ืื ื ืืืชืืช ืื ืืืชื ืื ืื ืื ื ืืขืจืืื ืืืชื ืืจืืื ืื ืืืื ืืืืงืื. ืืืืืฅ ืฉืื,ืืืกืจืืืืืืช,ืืืื ืจืฆืื,ืืืืืง ืฉืืฉ ืื ื ืืชื ืื ืื ืืื ืืจืฆืื ืืืืฉืื ืืืื. ืืช ืืืฉื ืืืืืื ืืืื ืจ, ืืช ืืงืืช ืืช ืืืื ืฉืืฉ ืื ืืืืจืื ืืืืื,ืืขืืจื ืืืืืช,ืืื ื ืืชืืืื ืช ืืื ืฉืืฉืืืืช...
October 4th, 2015
My Own Brother
A year ago, I was 34 at the time. I woke up to my brother on top of me with his penis in my vagina. As soon as I woke up, I jumped and tried to push him off of me. My 7 year old son was laying right next...
March 19th, 2017
Party Time
When I was fifteen I went to my first college party. My friend Katie who was a senior and eighteen at the time had been invited by an older boy and I insisted that we go. She was hesitant but I pushed and she relented. So we got all dolled...
I live in a developed country, it’s pretty bad everywhere but i figure I have significantly poor look here. Spanning many Years, several occasions, several men, different in nature, same result, collectively took away pieces of me, pieces that I’m not sure what they are anymore. You people are the...
November 3rd, 2014
My Life History
I’m a girl of 22 years from Norway …. Sorry my bad english, but hope you understand what I want to share with you. I grew up with my mother until I was 10 years, when I was placed in foster care. My mother was mentally ill. Since I was...
February 22nd, 2018
April 8th, 2016
This date changed my life. This was the date that lifted the rug, and uncovered all of the ill, suppressed memories and emotions that I had brushed under it. This was the date that opened my eyes to the exact number of times that I had been sexually assaulted: 6....
September 26th, 2016
Feeling Alone
This last February/March I was raped by someone I formally call my friend. After drinking too much one Friday night our friend group was hanging out, we all got up to walk down the hall to another room in our dorm when he grabbed my breast and pulled me into...
May 28th, 2015
The First Time
I don’t remember being a virgin, that was stolen from me before I knew what it was or meant. My first experience with sexual violence was at the age of four, by the son of the Minister of our Church. When I appeared sobbing and screaming in front of my...
November 14th, 2016
You’re a Rapist
I didn’t want to go to the homecoming dance my junior year, but the majority of my friends were seniors and wanted me to go with them for their last year. I agreed and got ready with a group of girlfriends, and we all stayed for the duration of the...
March 6th, 2014
In Denial of My Rape
When I was fifteen and sixteen, I was in an abusive relationship. He raped me four times, and had me convinced that it wasn’t rape because we were together. He would tell me things like, “I love you so much. I just couldn’t help it.” and “Don’t you love me?...
October 23rd, 2016
I Remember Being Happy
I remember being happy to bump into you and smiling as I spoke to you. I remember feeling good that u invited me in and were not mad at me for staying away. Then I remember thinking that I must have given you the wrong vibe when u wanted to...
August 22nd, 2018
PART 1: My True, Horrid, and Concluded...
โAll parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.โ—Mitch Albom. Being born second eldest, with my fatherโs child (my half sister) being born a...
September 27th, 2017
Stress
I have a peculiar form of anxiety paralysis. This started shortly after I started school, as I would stress over an upcoming placement test, I froze in place, unable to move or speak, though fully aware. It ends in about 20 minutes, and I am fine. I was transferred to...
January 5th, 2017
Goodbye Virginity
On December 31, 2016/January 1st 2017… two days from now, my life took a 180 & made me hit rock bottom. I am 22 years old. I am in the Army & still enrolled in college. Last year, I went back home to celebrate the holidays… for the first time...
April 21st, 2016
I Didn’t Even Know Him
A couple of years ago back when I was in my senior year of high school some of my friends convinced me to go to this party. It was the last and first party I will ever go to. I didn’t plan to have any drinks at this party. All...
March 25th, 2016
Tormented
I lost my virginity when I was 14, I was with my best friend at the time, we met up with one of her friends who was 21. he had problems I even think he was on drugs I’m not entirely sure. Anyways they both decided that it was my...
June 23rd, 2014
When I Was 8 Years Old
It is a miracle I am alive. I come from a family in which my step mother and father molested, raped and raised me behind closed doors with the secret of rape… Among the dinner parties with friends and family around.. my brother and I suffered in silence. We had...
January 23rd, 2015
So Now What?
Upon finding this site, all I have to say is I believe that in this world there is only one solution to rape, pedophiles, and all that nasty shit that goes on, and that is death. Those filthy rats that are human cannot be forgiven, and for those who oppose...
October 25th, 2014
I Dated My Rapists
I was raped three times in my life. After seeing the documentary Brave Miss World and hearing Joan Collins, from the film, who married her rapist, it resonated a lot with me. I was first raped when I was 16 years old by my boyfriend. I was a virgin waiting...
I was 13 when my life changed. My dads best friend had always made me feel uneasy but I never thought anything of it at the time but now looking back the winks, the slapping my bum as he passed was not normal behavior. One night he went out with...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeรฑo,yo tenรญa 7, 8, 9 aรฑos de edad,le decรญa a mis padres y no me hacรญan caso,decรญan que era para llamar la atenciรณn, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era asรญ, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
September 5th, 2015
What’s Done Is Done
I have had few sexual experiences but none of them have been entirely consensual. My first experience was when I was 14, I was playing truth or dare with what had been my two closest friends, a brother and a sister. I was dared to have sex with the brother...
December 20th, 2017
Date rape
The beginning of my last relationship was amazingโฆ It all started when we first meet my freshman yearโฆ I really liked him and we have known each other our whole lives. One day, we were hanging out and heโs like, โWould you like to go on a date with me?โ...
April 4th, 2016
A Life of Pain
My twin brother Levi and I were adopted when we were two months old by a woman who wanted children so bad and a husband who didn’t. We had a happy childhood though. When we were four our parents got a divorce and we spent every other weekend driving from...
July 28th, 2014
ืืืจืืื ืืืชื
ืืื ืืื ืืจ ืงืืื ืื ืื ื ืืืืืช ืืืืื ืฉืจืืืชื ืืช ืืกืจื ืฉืื ืืืื ืืืืช ืคืขืืื ืืื ืคืขื ืื ื ืืชืจืืฉืช ืืืืฉ. ืื ื ืืช 13 ืืืคื ื ืืื ืืืื ืืืจืืื ืืืชื ืืื ืื ืืืฆื ืื ืืืจืืฉ ืื ืืื ืืื ืืืืชื ืขื ืืืจื ืฉืื ืืงื ืืื ืืื ืืืฉ ืืืืืจ ืคื ื ืืื ืืืืจ ืื ืฉืืฉ ืื ืืืคื...
July 2nd, 2014
Rapist Turned Murderer
I’m in my 30’s now and am not all there any more but I try to be a good and happy person. The thing is I don’t remember much of what happened to me. People exclaim that if you go through trauma you’ll remember every detail but that isn’t true....
July 29th, 2015
Find Your Strength
I was 15, had only had sex twice before with my boyfriend at the time and was in a happy place. After being raped by a drunk stranger on a night out with my sister, I was depressed, since have had broken relationship with my sister, lost trust in men...
November 15th, 2016
Victim No More
As a child i grew up in an abusive household. My mother and father were both heavy substance users and I was exposed to a lot of violence ever since birth. Quite frankly, my rape was inevitable. I was only just 12 at the time, first year of high school....
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
November 7th, 2016
The Girl Who Went To College
It was early into my first year of college in New York City. (I’m from a really small Midwest town and grew up as a painfully awkward band geek and was going through my first ever breakup with my then-long-distance HS boyfriend back home but we were trying to stay...
December 1st, 2017
Remember as a victim you have done...
There are so many opinions. She wore a short skirt. She didn’t say no. She wanted it. Yep… I believe it can be complicated unless you are in the middle of the situation. Then it is very clear. You have said yes or no, or your body has indicated yes...
Cuando tenรญa 23 aรฑos de edad empecรฉ a trabajar con el ejรฉrcito de mi paรญs por 6 meses. Allรญ conocรญ a un teniente que al principio nos llevรกbamos bien, conversรกbamos, etc. Tenรญamos las habitaciones continuas. Un dรญa, รฉl me llamรณ y รฉl estaba dentro de su habitaciรณn, yo no pensรฉ...
May 28th, 2018
Rape Survivor
August 14th, 2017 August 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with friends and laughter, then ended with fear, pain, and loneliness. I never had guessed it would be a day that I would never forget. The 14th started off as an ordinary evening filled with laughter and friends,...
April 20th, 2009
Thank you for speaking out…
I would like to first of all, praise all the women who’ve shared their stories on this website. It is a brave thing to discuss a topic so horrific and traumatizing. Speaking from personal experience, I know what kind of strength and courage that is needed to do such a...
July 3rd, 2016
My Best Friend & His Friend Raped...
It was 5 years ago when it all happened (17 at the time). I had a very good friend who I had met through a house mate. We all use to hang out together and party occasionally at our house and invite our friends over. I wasn’t really a big...
January 2nd, 2015
Spring Break
My story takes place almost 20 years ago when I was just about 17. Although in some ways it feels like a life time ago my story is still a part of me. After it happened I did not tell anyone. Not my friends who were at the party that...
January 5th, 2014
Sexually Assaulted in Cuba
I visited Cuba with my husband and came down with a severe case of food poisoning. While my husband was at the pool, I was recuperating in my room. I was startled awake when I felt something ‘fluffy’ in the palm of my hand. Before I opened my eyes, I...
January 3rd, 2014
Drugged and Raped at Age 14
I was something of a “wild child” in my teenage years. I grew up in the Los Angeles area and fell in love with live music at a very young age. My mom wouldn’t allow me to go out to any concerts, and we had a venue with lots of...
February 14th, 2018
A Close Call With Family
This is a poem to my demon Thank you for causing my depression Thank you for attempting to do something I thought would never happen to me Thank you for letting me see how life really is (I now know that I can trust no one) You took a 13...
August 20th, 2009
my story
ืื ื ืืช 28, ื ืฉืืื ืืื ืืืื. ืขืืจืชื ืคืืืขื ืืื ืืช ืืชืืฉืืช, ืืืื 9, ืืขื ืืื 13.5, ืืืื ืืืื ืฉื ืืืจื ืื ื ืื ืืืืืช ืืงืจืื ืืขืฆืื “ืฉืืจืืช” ืื ืืืืื ืืฉ ืืจืื ืืืชืจ ืืื ืืืื, ืืขืืฆืืื ืฉื ืชืืืื ืืืืื ืืฉืืงืื, ืื ื ืคืขืืื ืืืจืืื ื ื ืฉืื ืฉืื ืื, ืืื ืืื ืืจืื ืืกืืืข ืื ืคืืขืืช ืชืงืืคื ืืื ืืช ืืืฉืจืื ืชืืื...
July 21st, 2014
In the Hospital
I was a medical student, and he was a resident in a surgical specialty. We were dating, and he had been respectful of my boundaries. As a Catholic, I intended to remain a virgin until I was married. We were both on call at the same hospital, and there weren’t...
June 24th, 2015
It Was My Fault
I’m going to say everything honestly right now… I’m a teenager, and last summer I got into the habit of smoking weed because I was really stressed out. All my parents did was argue and my brother was really abusive to. I also was self harming and smoking lessened the...
March 1st, 2018
Someday Soon
Sometimes the people you should trust are the ones to fear. I grew up in a family full of emotional and physical abuse. As a child I would be stripped naked in winter to lay on tiled floors, have wooden spoons and hair brushes broken through beatings, be tied in...
May 21st, 2015
My Ex-Boyfriend and Rapist
When I was 19, I had the world in the palm of my hand. I had just graduated high school and community college, both with advanced honors. In the fall, I transferred to university and was looking forward to all that college life had to offer; I was excited for...
February 19th, 2018
I’ve survived sexual abuse
As a kid I was a molested from the time I was 5 until 15. I married to leave my house. Got pregnant and divorced soon after. Then I found myself in a very controlling relationship. Found myself pregnant again which are lost that child due to a DUI driver...
September 4th, 2018
Extremely Terrified
So, I donโt know if this will help but I was thinking I should give this writing thing a try because… well I just donโt know what else to do. To start, I do have a great therapist… she has been so good and supportive of me… but the thing...
May 20th, 2016
Am I Wrong?
Today was a regular day. I went to school and came home. My best friend came over after school and then we were going to head back to school to go to our after school club, however it was canceled . So we went to the footfall field instead, and...
January 5th, 2015
Stolen Innocence
My mother and father got divorced when I was two years old. My mother was a single mom with two kids so she was always working trying to make ends meet and making sure we had food in our tummies. I admire my mother for this. My father remarried, had...
February 13th, 2018
My first boyfriend in the US
It was 2010, and I had just moved from my birth country without a clue about where I was standing. I was hopeful because it was an opportunity that made me think I was blessed. it was my freshmen year in high school, and on my first day at lunch...
May 4th, 2017
Childhood Horror
Many people think that rape consists of a man putting their private parts into a woman. It is more than that, rape can be by an object. I remember I was four when it happened to me. The person who did was probably in their late twenties. When she came...
November 5th, 2016
Love of My Life?
I was 17 years old. My senior year of high school was complete. My boyfriend at the time came down from Stanford to see me graduate. He was caring, supportive, kind, you know, a great boyfriend. He was a sophomore, grade A student, football player, and community activist. Two weeks...
April 6th, 2016
Holding It In
When I was in 5th or 6 the grade, I can’t remember exactly when it started, I began to have dreams that someone was coming into my room at night. I didn’t recall much of what they were doing. A few months after it began I realized they were not...
February 23rd, 2018
My abuse
y name is Norm I am 56 yrs old. From the ages of 8 to 10 I was sexually abused by my church priest. I never told a single soul, I buried it so deep that to me it never happened. I grew up a troubled child and later fell...
March 21st, 2014
I Was Raped By My Dad
WHEN I WAS 7 YEARS OLD MY FATHER COME TO VISIT ME AND PSYCHICALLY HARASSED ME IN FRONT OF ALL THE NEIGHBORS AND MY MOTHER HE TOOK HIS 2 FINGERS AND PUT THEM INTO MY UNDERPANTS. I WAS STANDING WITH MY BECK TO HIM AND DIDNT UNDERSTAND what was happening...
May 7th, 2018
Surviving sexual assault trauma
Tonight, I was reading a book called full frontal feminism. I felt empowered and strong until I reached a certain chapter. The chapter was about sexual assault and domestic violence. I could feel a ping in my heart as I began reading because I knew it would bring back up...
April 8th, 2018
Coming forward turned into a nightmare
6 months ago I was raped while at college. And I still have no idea who by. I was walking by a lake to get some fresh air and he came from behind. I never even saw his face. It all happened so fast that I completely froze. I didnโt...
October 30th, 2016
My Boss Raped Me
I was raped a year ago by my boss at the time. I never told anyone we had consensual sex before or at least I thought it was consensual. I always had a vague memory of it and was always heavily intoxicated. One night we were drinking at a friends...
January 12th, 2015
New Years
On New Year’s Eve, 2011, I was raped by a person I trusted. I had just turned sixteen and had only had one physical relationship before, that has ended a few weeks prior. That night I had gone to my close friends apartment for a New Year’s party and had...
September 7th, 2009
ืืืืจ, ืืืืื, ืื ืฆื
ืืื ืืจ ืืงืจื, ืืื ืฉืชืืขื ืืืืืช ืืืชื ืืฉื ืื ืืงืฉืืช ืฉืื. ื ืื ืกืชื ืืืฉื ืฉื ืื ืืืฉืืช ืกืืคืจืช ืืช ืืกืืคืืจ ืฉืื ืื ื ืืืืชื ืืช 13. ื ืชืช ืื ืืช ืืืื ืืกืคืจ ืืช ืืกืืคืืจ ืฉืื ืืืืงืฉ ืขืืจื. ืืืื- ืืืชืจ ืืขืฉืืจ ืืืจื… ืืืืจื ืืืคืื ืืจืื ืฉื ืื ืืืื ืืืฃ ืขืืืืช ืืืจืืืืช ืื ื ืืื ืืืืจ- ื ืืฆืืชื. ืื ื ืืื. ื ืื ืช...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Despertรฉ con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendรญ nada, quedรฉ paralizada, tenรญa apenas 6 aรฑitos y lo querรญa y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, llorรฉ desconsolada pues competรญamos mis hermanos...
April 21st, 2017
A Year After
My journal entry on April 18, 2017 -About a year after submitting my “first story” on this site I just made a beautiful, clean cut, with a blade I took from my Momโs drawer, right below the most prominent, bulging stretch mark on my right hip. I did it to...
August 21st, 2017
He said he’d never do it again
First of all..I’m not a native speaker. I’m from Switzerland and somehow feel more comfortable with writing my story in English because..it feels like it didn’t happen to ME but to someone else. It started when I was 13…my family and my uncle’s family organize a meeting every 2-4 months....
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 aรฑos mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 aรฑos mi padre muriรณ y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivรญamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
May 4th, 2015
No Wasn’t Good Enough
I was enlisted in the United States Army. I believed it was my chance to find my self and be courageous and to leave the sheltered area from where I was raised, to be a voice. After a deployment with my unit I came home, I was tired and worn...
August 27th, 2014
Teen-ager Trauma
I was raped when I was 15. 25 years later, I still feel sick. I can’t forget. I can’t forgive. I hate making love, and I’ve never found the courage to expect a baby even if I love children. I’m fighting every day against myself. Hopefully, one day, I’ll have...
One day I was walking down the street at about 5 P.M., 15 days after my 15th birthday. At the time, I was in Mexico. A man rushed down the street, looked at me frantically, and said, “You’re in danger. Please come with me.” I followed him and eventually we...
It was my first year of college and I was struggling with depression. I didn’t like my college and I felt out of place. I wasn’t ok. But it was suddenly so much worse. I was a freshman, he was a senior. We were both sociology majors and had a...
September 17th, 2016
Victim Impact Statement
I’ve posted here before, about the struggle and about how I had court soon. Court is over with. But I had to read my impact statement. Something I worked on for 3 months every night. I had to read it out loud so it had to be perfect. The entire...
December 6th, 2015
Two times. One year.
I had just gotten out of a relationship with someone I was crazy about when a guy I graduated with the year before texted me wanting to go swimming. I had a crush on him through out school so, why not? We went swimming with some of his friends down...
November 28th, 2015
Not Really Family
I was in a relationship for two years. At first, my boyfriend was the best anyone could ever ask for. But after 6 months, he changed starting to slap me and choke me. It’s been getting worse and worse until a point her would rape me. I have passed out...
September 26th, 2016
Unhealthy Relationship
I already knew this guy, he was a friend of my friends. One day we all hung out and he said he had feelings for me, and that those feelings have been there for quite a while. I thought he was the mos amazing guy ever by the way people...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdonรฉ pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
July 2nd, 2018
I’m Confused
just wanted to post this because I don’t know what to think or why I’m even still thinking about this. And I guess I just wanted someone to tell me what I’m supposed to think about this situation. I invited someone over to my house to hang out. We had...
March 24th, 2015
75 Percent Humidity
You never want to be the person who admits to being raped twice, but I’m that woman. It was at college and I was a virgin. The assailant’s family had a lot of money and were well connected. He was never prosecuted. The second time, I blamed myself because who...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de รฉsto, el รบnico que llego a saberlo ya estรก en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucediรณ cuando era una niรฑa, al comienzo no entendรญa que habรญa ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendรญ y ahora creo que muchas...
August 15th, 2015
Scared and Confused
Two years ago I was a sophomore in high school. It was the last day of school and some guy I saw of as my brother asked me if I was going to go to the same class we have. I said yes. On my way to class I decided...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada dรญa. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaรฑa hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
February 11th, 2016
Longest Prayers of My Life
I was like 9 or 10 years old. A friend of mine was moving to Nogales Sonora so she invited another friend and me to the city. two adult uncles of my friend were staying in her house, and one night her uncles slept in the room where we were...
March 4th, 2017
Forgiving The Rapist
My wife was date raped 10 years ago. We have been together for 7 years, so it was 3 years before I met her. She was at a bar with some friends, she met a guy. She had just gone through a bad breakup and was in a bad spot....
July 23rd, 2018
I forgot, but then I remembered
He hit me in the back of the skull with a beer bottle. I didnโt have much time to prepare–we had gotten into a drunken argument and he lunged towards me. The last thing I remembered was the cold, hard glass snuffing out my consciousness. Everything remained dark for four...
October 21st, 2017
Was it Really Rape
I still hear the little voice in my head questioning it. He was a good guy and just as drunk as I was. He probably didn’t notice that I blacked out. I was angry. He apologized. It’s ok. I’m just as much to blame. We were in college. We dated....
I am nearing 32 years of age and I was sexually abused from the age of 7-12 by two seperate family members. They just so happened to have a father that had fame attached to his name. I think this may have contributed to the fact that nobody in my...
June 3rd, 2014
My Boyfriend Raped Me
My story I think is quite long, this is the first time I am writing it. I was raped, many times I do not know the number exactly, by my boyfriend of two years. I only realized it was rape after months in therapy trying to come to terms with...
October 4th, 2015
My Own Brother
A year ago, I was 34 at the time. I woke up to my brother on top of me with his penis in my vagina. As soon as I woke up, I jumped and tried to push him off of me. My 7 year old son was laying right next...
December 13th, 2017
was raped and I donโt remember it
I hung out with some people one knew and two that were strangers just to get liqour for me and my boyfriend can drink it when he got back from a month of us apart. I had a couple sips of it and before I knew it I had blacked...
October 7th, 2017
My Husband Set Me Up!
George set up a night out. We left in the evening for a nice date night out at the movies. On the way there, he picked up Pete, for a ride he needed. While we drove, Pete put a gun to my head, and we pulled over. I had no...
January 9th, 2018
I got away
Recently I went on a date with someone I met online. He was charming, cute, funny and I thought he was kind. He invited me over for some drinks and dinner. We were having a good time and he decided to kiss me. I was excited and enjoyed our kiss...
September 7th, 2009
ืขืืืื ืืฆืืง
ืืืื ืื ื ืื ืืืืขืช ืืืืคื ืืืชืืื ืขืืจืชื 3 ืืงืจืื ืืื ืขืืืื ืืฆืืง ืื ื ืืช 31 ืืื ื2 ืืืื ืืงืกืืืื ืืฉืืืืชื ืืช ืืขืจื 15 ืืืืืืชื ืืช ืืืจื ืฉืื ืืืืืชื ืืจื ืืืื ืกืืืื ืืืืจืช ืืคืชืข ืฉืืขื ื ืฉืืืฉืื ืืืื ืืืจืื ื ืืืืจื ื ืืช ืงืฆื ืืืืืื ืืื ืืื ืืืืืจ ืืืืืืื ืฉืื ื ืืืืชื ืืื ืงืจืืื ืืืื...
November 9th, 2013
Nirbhaya โ fearlessโ: Justice for the Brutal...
Have no fear, justice is near, the verdict is clear. Donโt sentence the six men to death An act of freedom in a world gone mad. Sentence the six men to life And daily torture and pain Until they go insane. Castrate them Starve them and make them eat their...
June 24th, 2015
It Was My Fault
I’m going to say everything honestly right now… I’m a teenager, and last summer I got into the habit of smoking weed because I was really stressed out. All my parents did was argue and my brother was really abusive to. I also was self harming and smoking lessened the...
March 19th, 2018
Quarterly Review
As my 1st job, I was working at a chain store while going to school, and supporting my Mother through her cancer treatments. We had some assistance, but not enough to cover bills and food, much less rent. I needed the job. The manager TJ knew I was hard up...
June 26th, 2014
My Best Friend
When I was 15 my best friend was kidnapped and rapped by multiple men. I got a phone call from the police at my Moms home and we were asked multiple questions. My best friend had been kidnapped, walking down the street in Palmdale, Cal. She was with a 15...
August 8th, 2018
When will it be enough?
Why is it not enough? Why is my reluctance not enough to make you stop? Why is my “no” not enough? Why is my “no no no” not enough? Why are my clawing, shoving, desperately-trying-to-pull-my-pants-up hands not enough? Why is my cry of “oh god make it stop, please make...
November 27th, 2017
Party Accident
I was in the second trimester of school and the pressure was beginning to psych myself out. My friends told me about a party, knowing I would more than likely, not go. I bombed my trig test and was disappointed and angry. That night, I snuck out of my house...
June 24th, 2014
Paris Nightmare
19, first night in Paris, met a handsome guy my age. Kissed at a nightclub, he gave me his number as I was traveling around France for the rest of the summer but would be passing through Paris on the way back. Ring me, he said. I was flattered. Also...
April 20th, 2015
Catching Up With Me
I was twelve years old when I vividly recall my grandfather walking towards me and for the first time placing his hands on me. I was stunned and paralyzed. Each time that we would visit him (or have a sleepover) and when we were alone he would touch me, kiss...
October 24th, 2017
Happy Birthday
I just turned 21 and i had my cousins car and my best friend was my D.D. we had lunch and i had my first legal drink and i also got a free drink from starbucks what a great start right. Im in college away from home so i kinda...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenรญa 7 u 8 aรฑos, cuando รฉl me llamรณ a su habitaciรณn y me preguntรณ que si yo sabรญa besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahรญ empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
January 6th, 2017
I Had No Idea…
Well my story is like any other story I guess. Well it all started when I was 14 and my brother was 16 years old. Since my parents divorced I stayed with my mom and my brother went to live with my dad in Florida. And for the summer my...
November 8th, 2018
Losing my virginity
I was on my first ever night out when I got speaking to a group of boys who then took me back to their house. I do not remember willingly making the decision to go back to the house. When we arrived one boy took me to this room and...
March 26th, 2014
Sexual Assault at 11
I was sexually assaulted when I was eleven years old. It was the summer and my friend had wanted me to go over to her place. While walking to her house there were three boys from school outside and her. She wanted me to go with her to their place...
July 23rd, 2018
How Many Times?
I have been raped, I don’t know anymore whether I admit, or declare it. My first time, also my first time, was on a date with my boyfriend. We were making out, and he went up my shirt, and I stopped him with a no. He kept trying until he...
March 24th, 2015
75 Percent Humidity
You never want to be the person who admits to being raped twice, but I’m that woman. It was at college and I was a virgin. The assailant’s family had a lot of money and were well connected. He was never prosecuted. The second time, I blamed myself because who...
September 8th, 2015
The Day I Was Raped and Abandoned
1.9.07 It is the same every year. Every year the leaves turn, and there is that slight twinge in my leg, a hesitant reminder of times past. Every year as the winds change, there is that slight catch when you take a deep breath. A catch not from the cold...
November 12th, 2014
Is It Really Rape?
One week ago at a Halloween party, I blacked out and woke up with a woman from the party. I was with her for eight hours, but remember less than 10 seconds. The last thing I remember is feeling somewhat drunk, but still alert and having fun with a big...
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 aรฑos. Vivรญ una situaciรณn muy confusa cuando era niรฑa casi 9 o 10 aรฑos. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentรญan con golosinas, ver televisiรณn y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
June 26th, 2014
Childhood Rape
At the age of 7, I was raped by a neighbor boy. I was in the barn that was on the property of this boy and his sister who was my friend. His sister, my sister, and myself were up in the upper loft playing hopscotch. My sister and my...
September 15th, 2017
Online dating
I have been raped three times in my life. Once was with a boyfriend in high school when I was 17. His sexual preferences changed as ours all do, but mine stayed the same and we didn’t like the same things anymore. But that didn’t stop him from getting what...
December 20th, 2017
You are going to show me how...
Picture it, Missouri, 2013….wow, to finally announce a time it sounds like such a long time ago, but in my mind it feels like yesterday. I was 16 years old. He was “19” so I thought. I gave this man my virginity. Part of me spent such a long time...
August 5th, 2015
A Victim No Longer
I am a survivor of sexual abuse. I am 19 years old. When I was 4 till I was in fourth grade my step father molested me. I loved him like he was my father for so many years. He took so much of my innocence from me. I remember...
April 18th, 2015
Stranger Rape
Hi, I’m Nye-Emah and it was kinda weird how it happened 5 months ago. It was my birthday i turned 12. So. I went to my BFF. We was going to hang at the park. While we were there were strange men was there too. So we payed no attention...
June 27th, 2014
The Monster With The Pretty Smile
I was in grade nine when I lost something that can never be returned. I just want to make it clear that I do not want anyone’s pity, or empathy. I don’t want people to say “that poor girl how could someone do something like that to her?” What’s done...
October 19th, 2017
I Shouldnโt Have Drank
My friend was throwing a party for me and two other friends. We all shared birthdays around the same time, so we celebrated them together. A lot of people I didnโt even speak to showed up. I was turning 15 and it was my first time drinking. Apparently I drank...
April 23rd, 2014
ืืืฃืฃืฃืฃ
ืืืฃ ! ืืืฉ ืงืฉื ืื ืืกืคืจ ืืช ืื ืื ืื ืืืืจืื ืขื ืื ื ืืื? ืืื ืื ืื ืจืฆืืชื ืืืืฆืื ืืช ืื ืืื ื ืฉืืืคืฉืชื ืื ืืขื ืขื ืฉืืฆืืชื ืืช ืืืชืจ ืฉืื ืฉืฉืืชืคืช ืืืชื ืืกืจื. ืืขืืืืื ืฉื ืืืืืจื ืฉืืชื ืืช ืืืืจืื ืื ืื ืกืช…-ืื ืืืืชื ืืช ืืฉื ืืื ืื ืจืขืืื ื ืืื. ื ืฉืืข ืืืืจ ืืื...
August 22nd, 2018
PART 4: My True, Horrid, and Concluded...
โTo be, or not to be: that is the question: /Whether โtis nobler in the mind to suffer /The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, /Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, /And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep; /No more; and, by a sleep to...
August 31st, 2016
Raped in College
I was 20 when I moved into my first apartment in college, I was date raped by my down stairs neighbor. I went to better myself with big thoughts of changing the world. I was drugged and raped by my down stairs neighbor. I tried to tell my best friend...
June 2nd, 2015
My Army Fiance
I was 18. He was 21. He had been back from a deployment over in the middle east for 2 and a half. We started dating after spending time on the phone and in person. We were great, no problems at all. Except I refused to have sex. I am...
July 14th, 2015
Safe Isn’t Always What We Believe
April 13th 2014. That’s the date that I was raped. I’m not sure if you would classify it as acquaintance rape or stranger rape but it was rape none the less. I’m able to admit it was rape, and I’m able to tell my story. I’m not sure it makes...
April 23rd, 2017
Sexual Abuse in a Relationship
I’ve never told a single soul about the things that happened to me, while I was in this relationship. I’m not sure exactly why I’ve just randomly decided to share this, but maybe someone who was going through similar things as I was will read this and realize they are...
December 6th, 2017
Unknown Abuse by Biological Father
I was 3, and the abuse went on for a few months. I’m 16 now and the only details I know are from papers that were used in court. My mom protected me, and got a restraining order. He was mine and my brother’s biological father, not my sister’s. He...
June 13th, 2016
Violent Rape
am 20 years old. This year, 8 February 2016, I walked out my back door to check on my washing. An African male smashed a beer bottle over my head and another one caught me as I lost my balance and ushered me inside. They shuffled me through to the...
January 1st, 2017
Out For A Walk
I went out with my dog on Christmas day and three men with a dog I saw out of the corner of me eye. I turned to look to cross the road and saw one of them staring. I heard shouting and went to go a different way home and...
January 26th, 2018
I like to think I wonโt feel...
At some point during childhood most of us find ourselves afraid of monsters. We fear the horned creatures snarling in our closets, the rows of teeth hiding under our beds, but the scariest thing of all is that, in reality, monsters donโt look like โmonstersโ. They donโt have fangs and...
February 3rd, 2018
Memory or a dream?
Like many people that wrote here I too had kept this for years. I’m not sure if this is a memory or a dream but it always haunts me. I had never shared this to anyone.. And I mean not a single one. I hope this would make me feel...
October 22nd, 2016
Two Friends and Two Boys
I’m the friend that everyone talks about. The one that always needs someone to listen to her problems and never really listens back. The one that expects you to be there the moment I need you, but when you need me I may or may not be there. I never...
August 13th, 2018
Why me?
I was 13 when I met my first boyfriend, he was 2 nearly 3 years older than me so at the time he was 15 soon to be turning 16. After about a month of being together he started to try and pressure me into doing sexual things with him....
I met him on the job and he asked me out. After two dates he was pressing me for sex. I didn’t enjoy it at all. He was rough with me. I didn’t understand at the time what I was suppose to feel like during sex since I didn’t have...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
September 6th, 2015
Gang Rape At 15 Years Old
My name is Patricia. I’m 18 years old and when I was 15, I was stranger raped. I had gone out to a party with my friends at a club, it was her birthday. There were other people there I didn’t know. But I didn’t mind, first thing we did...
May 16th, 2016
Don’t Know
I was 17 and he was 20 we were dating for 4 months he was lovely. He moved to London and I stayed at his for the weekend but it wasn’t the 1st time. Everything was normal. He put my phone on charge for me as we were watching Mean...
September 7th, 2009
ืืกืืคืืจ ืฉืื…
ืืืฉื 3 ืฉื ืื ืขืืจืชื ืืชืขืืืืช ืืื ืืช ืืฆื ืื ืืื, ืืื ืืื ื ืืืข ืื ืืืื ืก ืืืชื ืืื ืืืจื ืืื ืืื ื ืื ืืชื ืืืชื ืืื ืืืจืชื ืืืื… ืคืฉืื ื ืชืชื ืื ืื ืืขืฉืืช ืืื… ืืฃ ืืื ืื ืจืื.. ืืื ืืืื ืขืืื ืื ืืกืคืจ ืืชืืื ืืืจ ืฉืืื ืืืื ืืืชื ืืฉืื ืืฉืืง ืจืง ืฉื ืฉื ืื ื… ืื...
April 6th, 2018
Molested By My Uncle
When I was 5 years old I lived in a house that shared property with my grandparents. My house was walking distance from theirs and I went over there often. My uncle had recently been released from prison. He was 28 years old. He was in prison for theft. He...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
ืืืืชื ืืืืื ืื ืขืจื ืืืืฉื – ืืื ืืชืืจ ืืืช ืฉืืื ืื ืงืฆืช ืจืืฉื ื ืืืชืืช ืืืื ืฉืืกืชืืืื ืืขืืงืจ ืขื ืืืจืื ืื ืื ืืฉืืืฉืช ืืืื ืืืืืืื – ืืืืชื ืืืคื ืจืืืงื ืืื ืฉืืืช ืฉืื- ืืื ืื ืืฉืื ืืขืืจื ืืื ื ืกืืื ืืืืฉื ืืช ืืืื ืืื ืืื ืืืฆืคื ืืช- ืืื ืืฆื ืฉืขื ืืื 21 ืขืื ืืืืชื ืืชืืื -ืืืืกืจ ืืืืืืจ ืืืืฃ...
July 7th, 2014
Raped Husband
I was married when I wasn’t a Christian. I was pregnant when I was 21 and my husband 24. I had a difficult marriage because my husband loved to get drunk. But, one time he told me he was rapped when he was a child by a 15 year old...
June 26th, 2014
Afraid of Being Judged
When I was 18 years old I was like a lot of young women-dating, trying out relationships, making mistakes. My biggest mistake was to trust a “friend.”. We had a passionate relationship at the start. We were both college freshman, I had a long-distance boyfriend that wasn’t working out-and we...
August 19th, 2014
Raped by Brother
I was about 12/13 years old when I was raped by my brother. In my memory it happened often during approx. 1 year. He warned me not to talk about it with my mom. When we went on a family holiday, my eldest brother did not come. Usually they would...
December 5th, 2016
Life Was Ruined
I should’ve saw the warning signs, I should’ve told someone when he was doing everything that was leading up to rape (grabbing me inappropriately & whispering how I should “give him some”) I didn’t want to tell him on him because he was my uncle and I would’ve been known...
August 24th, 2009
ืื ืืืฆืืื ืืื…
ืืื ืืจ ืืงืจื- ืืกืืคืืจ ืฉืื ืืฉืคืืข ืขืื ืจืืืช ืืืื ื (1998) ืื ืืืฉ ืืืืชื ืชืงืืคื ืืกืืคืืจ ืขื ืืฉืื ืฉืคืืข ืื ืืชืคืืฆืฅ… ืื ื ืื ืืื ืืื. ืื ื ืืื-ืืชื ืืืขื ืืืืช… ืื ืืื ืืื ืืืืื ืขืืืจื… ืื ื ื ืืืืช ืืฉืื ืืื, ืืื ืื ืงื. ืกืืืื ืื ืื ื ื ืฉืืขืช ืคืกืืืืช (ืืืื ืื ืืืื ืืชืงืืคื…), ืืื ืงืฉื ืืืื...
April 6th, 2015
Confused and Angry
I’m currently enrolled in a Philosophy of Love and Sex class at university and we were discussing sexual assault. The lecture really opened my eyes to something that had happened me earlier in the year and I’m pretty pissed and confused about it now. Friends from my previous university were...
January 20th, 2014
ืืื
ืืจืืืฉ ืืื ื ื ืืฉื ืืกืืคืืจ: ืืืกืืคืืจ: ืืืื ืืฉืืจ ืื ืืฉื ืืืื ืืืจืื ืื ื ืฉืื ื ืฉืื ืืืฉ ืืืฉื ืืจืืื ืืกืืื 96 ืจืืช ืคืืื ืืขืื ืขืื ืขื ืืืจ ืฉืื ืฉืื ืื ืืช ืืงืคื ืงืคื ืืืื ืื ืืชืืจ 6 (ืฉื ืืื ืฉืื) ืืกืืคืืจ ืฉืื ืืื ืืืืชื ืืืื ืฉืืื ืืืื ืืื ืื ืืคืกืืง ืคืขื ืืืช ืงืฆืจื ,ืืื ืืืื...
December 2nd, 2014
Freshman Year
I think the hardest part is the amount of friends I lost after being raped. Maybe they don’t realize that they’re treating you differently, but as the one affected, it’s pretty obvious. Friends don’t know how to deal with you. Family doesn’t know how to deal with you. If something...
August 3rd, 2014
A Self Destructive Life
I was sexually abused by my stepfather from age 5 until age 13. My mom knew and did nothing. Actually she told me when I was 10 that… ” everyone has hardships and this was mine so shut up and deal with it.” I was also abused by 2 of...
August 5th, 2015
A Victim No Longer
I am a survivor of sexual abuse. I am 19 years old. When I was 4 till I was in fourth grade my step father molested me. I loved him like he was my father for so many years. He took so much of my innocence from me. I remember...
October 20th, 2017
A Lifetime of #MeToo – How Sexual...
I was eleven when I lost my virginity. It happened under an old pine tree in an overgrown backyard of an old ladyโs house a block away from my childhood home. The boys were older. They were rough and cruel. They laughed the whole time like it was some hysterical...
January 17th, 2016
No Justice
I was 15 when I got raped. I consented at first, I mean it was supposed to be a rebound that’s how I got to the guys house. I met him through others. And he lived near a place that I volunteered for. Everyone told me he’s insane, but I...
July 6th, 2014
Raped by Abusive Husband
I am now 52 years old and was raped the first time at 15 and then again at 27 this time by my extremely abusive husband…..there is so much more to this story. I suffered many years of abuse both physically, mentally and sexual. I have only one good thing...
This is very hard story for me to tell but after finding this site and reading the other stories I’ve built up the courage to tell my story. I didn’t start dating until I was 17 and this was my first boyfriend, he seemed sweet at first always able to...
April 25th, 2017
Because of You
Because of you, I lost who I was. I lost everything that made me feel who I am as a person. You made me feel ashamed, scared, and disgusted all at the same time. You made me feel ashamed and disgusted because you have made me blame myself for what...
November 14th, 2017
Liar, Liar
8 year old is not the time to have this. I was sent to the store, and on the way home, a guy jumped me, lifted my skirt and raped me. I didn’t have words for it then. He stole the change, and I had words for that too. My...
October 24th, 2017
Nothing for Nothing
My mother remarried. I never liked him. He installed new security systems, smoke alarms, carbon monoxide alarms, clocks, and thermostats, in every room, including the bathrooms and garage. I felt like he was watching 24/7. I started making some money, babysitting and cleaning, and sometimes I needed a ride to...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
December 10th, 2013
ืืฉ ืืืื ืืืจื ืืื ืก
ืฉืืื ืืืืื, ืื ื ืืืืจื ืืืืจืช ืืชืฉืืื ืืื ืืจืืข ืฉื ืื .. ืืืื 15 ืืขืจื ืขืืจืชื ืืื ืก ืข”ื ืืฆืื .. ืฉืืื ืืืืฆืข ืฉื ืืช ืืขืฉืจืื ืฉืื.. ืื ืืฆืืืชื ืืืืจ ืฉืืืฉ ืขืฉืจื ืฉื ืื .. ืื ืืฆืืืชื ืืืืืืจ ืืขืฆืื .. ืขืืจืช ืขืืฉืื ืืื ืก .. ืื ืฉืชืงืชื.. ืืื ืืคืฆืข ืื ืืืื ืืืืฉืืจ ืื ืคืฉ ืืืืืฃ .. ืืื...
August 14th, 2018
Raped by jail guard
I was arrested for intoxication in public and apparently led to assault on an officer. I think I may have been drugged at the bar. I have fragmented memories of being raped at the jail by a male deputy and and female deputy restraining my hands. I passed out once...
April 6th, 2014
I WAS RAPED BY SEVERAL
WHEN I WAS ONLY 2 YEARS OLD MY FATHER RAPED ME IN THE NIGHT. HE WAS A BASTARD. THEN WHEN I GROW OLDER DAY BY DAY HE RAPED ME TWICE … THRICE AND SEVERAL TIMES IN THOSE YEARS TILL NOW. I HATE HIM. I AM VERY GOOD LOOKING SO MANY...
March 6th, 2018
Sexual Abuse
Every Saturday most kids spend their time playing outside with friends, watching TV, or just playing with games and toys. However, every Saturday my step father would sexually abuse me. This happened every week and sometimes more than once during the week. My mom would leave for work at about...
November 8th, 2017
I still donโt know
I still donโt know if I was anally raped by a former gang member 7 years ago. I think about it more and more as I get older. I was drinking, he was the neighbour of a boy I had just met who I went on to date for quite...
November 18th, 2015
Didn’t Think it Could Happen to ME
I first met my ex boyfriend in elementary school in a “special” class when I was in 1st grade and he was in 2nd. We lost contact until I was a sophomore and he was a junior. We were pretty good friends for a while and he had a girlfriend...
November 14th, 2018
Six months in the making..
I visited this website one week after I was raped in search of story like mine to convince myself what happened to me was rape. Six months ago I went out for the last weekend at college with my friends for a โgirls nightโ. I was drugged at a local...
August 19th, 2009
ืืื ืืื ืืจ
ืืื ืื ื ืืงืืื ืฉืืื ืชืงืจืื ืืืชื. ืื ืื ื ืขืืจืชื ืืืืืืช ืืืืืช, ืืืื ืืืืจืืช ืืืื ื 8 ืื ืฉืื ืืืืฉืคืื. ืื ืืืืื ืฉืื ืื ืชืจืฆื ืืขืืื http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes ืืฉืื ืื ืชืฆืจื ืืืชื ืงืฉืจ ืืืืื ืืช ืืืงื! ืื ืืืืื ืื *ืืืืืง*
October 6th, 2018
Sexually assaulted at 4
I was born in Bogota, Colombia. I am now 64. When I was 4, me and my same-age friend passed by a nearby carpentry shop that was around the corner. We knew this guy. Everybody called him “Mr. Morris”. He enticed us to go into the shop, and then he...
September 3rd, 2014
ืืคื ื 14 ืฉื ืื
ืืืกืืคืืจ ืืขืืจืืช ืื ืื ื ืื ืืืื ืืืชืื ืืื ืืืืช!! ืืืจ ืืฉืื ืฉืืฉ ืื ืืฆืืื ืืคื ื ืฉืื ื ืืชืืืื ืืืชืื ืื ื ืื ืืืืขืช ืื ืืืืช ืืื ืื ื ืืืืขืช ืจืง ืขืืจืืช ืื ืืงืืื ืฉืืชืืื ื ืชืชืจืื ื ืืื. ืฉืืื ืจืืืชื ืืช ืืกืจื ืฉืื ืืืจืืฉืชื ืฆืืจื ืืืชืื ืื ืืช ืืกืืคืืจ ืฉืื. ืืืื ืื ื ืืช 16… ืื ืงืจื ืืคื ื...
Growing up, I had a wonderful mother who was always around, and I had a father, who was never around but still visited twice a month. This father I had, he loved my little sister, he loved our whole family… except me. I don’t know what I did but, he...
October 20th, 2015
Made in America
My name is Ciaran. I was raped when I was 16 while at the concert made in america, a boy who was friends with my ex boyfriend took advantage of me. I was upset since me and my boyfriend had just broken up that day so I took to the...
August 28th, 2018
More Witness than I Care to Live...
My name is Katherine, and my sex ed started when I went to a playground after a softball game. I was 9, and a man joined me. He intimidated me into masturbating him. I only had my mother and 2 sisters with my father out of the house, so I...
August 5th, 2014
Sexual Assualt Overseas
My boyfriend and I were in the beautiful Italian island of Sicily, traveling around, having the time of our lives. The nature and the ocean were just breathtakingly beautiful and our romance was beyond words. One night, after missing the last train to our next destination, we ended up stranded...
July 20th, 2015
Acquaintance Rape
My friend started bringing this guy around. He was good looking and seemed to be into me. He would flirt, I would blushโฆnothing seemed out of the ordinary. One day we were at a party and he needed a ride home. I drove him home multiple times before he invited...