When I was 13 years old, I was raped for the first time. I was walking home, and suddenly this guy grabbed me from behind and pulled me into the bushes. He tied my hands to a tree and he blindfolded me. I didn’t see his face, or hear his voice. I had no idea what was happening, I was terrified. Then he started to undress me.
After he raped me, he just left me there. I managed to break free and I put my clothes back on, I was shaking, and I couldn’t stop crying. I started to run, and I was so relieved that my mom wasn’t home. I took a shower and cried myself to sleep.
Two months ago, it happened again. This time, he had a knife. He also started to hit me when I resisted. I had seven cuts, all over my body. And again, I kept it for myself. I was so afraid what people would think of me.
Yesterday, it happened for the third time. I feel so hopeless, and I feel like this isn’t my body anymore.
I know right now it feels hopeless, but I promise you that in time and with help, healing is possible. Nobody deserves to experience what you’ve been through. What happened to you is not your shame, it is part of your story. I hope that you will seek out resources to help you when you are ready. A good place to start is RAINN.org. I will keep you in my thoughts as you work through this. Remember that you are stronger than you know and braver than you realize.
Salute the courage you have shown to share this story. It really takes a lot of courage to get over it and come out of it and do remember you are not a victim you are a hero. Don’t loose hope. You are not weak. The persons who do these activities are weak and don’t deserve a place in the society. They don’t understand that a pleasure to them for few minutes is a trauma to the women which she has to live with her entire life.
I too am a survivor of multiple rapes. I know it doesn’t seem like it but one day you will get past it and become a stronger woman. Please don’t give up hope. Shell
I know it’s hard but you have to tell someone like the police about this. you have to speak up or this will never stop.
I am so sorry this happened to you . I was sexually abused for 4 years by my cousin …It started when I was 5 . I thought it would never end but I prayed and prayed and one day God answered me and took him out of my life . I know how hard it is and believe me you will get past it and be able to live normally …the memories will always be there but you will be able to cope and not be afraid anymore. Have hope and tell someone about this . I did , I told my parents and they made sure that he would never be near me again. God Bless you
you are a strong and courageous young woman just for speaking up and saying your story out in the public.
Don’t be scared of the consequences ..this guy doing all this to you one day will suffer ..he is not a real man ..he is not even a man ..and i’m sorry that beautiful young women like you have to bear consequences because of the existence of such sick bastards..
Go and complain
by doing this you are not just helping yourself ..you are saving other young women like that could be possibly victims of this sick bastard.
I feel shame because this kind people are free in socity who doesn’t care anybody emotion and play with the life of people this is so painful for us also we assured that we are with you