October 28th, 2016
What I Now Feel, Because of Him
I’m in a dark place, a very dark and empty room. I sit in the furthest corner away from the door, trapped inside my own thoughts. Im away from the world, trapped in a dark room with pain, violence and torture keeping me company. I can’t move or speak, Im...
June 20th, 2014
Life Spiraled
When i was 14 i had a boyfriend who i only knew via phone calls. We made plans to see each other for a night so i lied to my parents and went to meet him at the mall. When he showed up he was with his entire family. Parents...
Before reading: English is not my first language. Be aware before you Judge me. Thank you. I can’t explain how it felt. The hardest part of my story is, that not only did he take away my trust, he took away a part of my memory, a crucial part, that...
September 14th, 2015
Rape In a Rural Town
I was 17 years old at one of my best friend’s family homes. We were laughing and drinking and having a great time as we usually do on the weekend. This time we were joined by my best friends brother and his friends. They usually go to the night club...
July 3rd, 2014
3 Days After Arriving at College
I was 18 years old, I thought he was cute, he was big football player I was meeting people in the first week. He seemed nice he invited me to a party in his dorm. I went there were people there and drinking, we flirted, then he signaled to his...
I met my boyfriend online 3 years ago, I was 17 at that time. I week after I went into college. One day his friend invited us to his home we were just few, my boyfriend, his friends, some other guys like 5 of them and girls like 6 of...
It happened two weeks ago in school I went to the bathroom and then there were two men. It happened, but they didn’t cut me or bruise me. They didn’t want anyone to notice after I ran from school and walked home and started cutting myself. I still don’t know...
November 15th, 2015
Grandpa
I was 2 months old when I was adopted by my grandparents. My mother did this for money. I have 3 sisters. Two of which I know something similar happened to them. The oldest one is deceased. I remember being very young. Around four or five when I could remember...
I trusted a lot of people, never in my mind, I thought they will harm me, but I was wrong. I was hurt in a lot of ways. My boyfriend at that moment, he was sweet at first but everything changes the longer we were together. He never likes it...
August 23rd, 2015
Way Back in 1973
I was young and rebellious, and trying to find my way in a world where men didn’t love you. My father had left the family, but dutifully picked up my sisters and me every Saturday for 1.5 hours, as per the divorce court order. AT age 13 he beat me...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
May 25th, 2018
Twice a pattern?
If something bad happens once, people usually say it’s bad luck. But to happen twice, just seems stupid. Growing up in a restricted family, I had never been exposed to the sexually explicit content that is out in the world. However, when I turned 17 that all changed for me....
August 24th, 2009
My Story.
I’m Chanel, I’m 12 years old young right? Well here’s my heartbreaking story.. I was hmm.. About 10 or so when it all began. Now MOST people, their stepdads sexualy abuse them, well no. This guy. He was my older brother.. he was about ehh. 14, he KNEW rigt from...
March 23rd, 2016
I Was 10
Me, my mom, dad and little brother moved into a new house and right away became friends with my next-door neighbor. He had a daughter around my age at the time and we became best friends. Both our families were so close that we were always at each other’s houses....
July 25th, 2020
Manipulation
At the beginning of my sophomore year, I was at a new school, and this guy started talking to me very early on. People at the school don’t like him, at all, but I didn’t know that, I was new, and he always pulled the new girls who wouldn’t have...
September 25th, 2016
Wrong Choice
This happened like 6 years ago…it was when i was young and stupid, going on drinking binges with my close friends. There was normally 5 of us, this night one of my girl friends left to go pass out, so it was just me and the guys. I thought it...
July 23rd, 2018
I forgot, but then I remembered
He hit me in the back of the skull with a beer bottle. I didn’t have much time to prepare–we had gotten into a drunken argument and he lunged towards me. The last thing I remembered was the cold, hard glass snuffing out my consciousness. Everything remained dark for four...
May 31st, 2018
He turned me into a damn monster
When i was 4 or 5my mom had a boyfriend that would touch me while i slept and i could never understand why, id had never remembered until i turned 7 when i, the once victim started to develop feelings that a young boy should not have, and, eventually started...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
August 13th, 2015
Deja Vu
When it happened, I didn’t want to believe it. I tried to convince myself it just had to be a nightmare. It couldn’t possibly be happening. Not again. Not by him. He was my best friend. When I was raped the first time around, roughly four years ago, he was...
February 23rd, 2018
I was raped by an ex boyfriend
I was a student nurse in 1975, I was 23, when I met this guy in the local choir that I was singing in. It was love at first sight and we had a fantastic time at first. After about a year or so later he became very possessive and...
October 26th, 2016
Once, Twice, Three Times A Victim
When I was 12 years old, my 18 year old cousin lived with us for a while. For months he would sneak into my room in the middle of the night or just get me alone for a few minutes to do whatever he felt like. He would force himself...
March 3rd, 2016
I Saved Myself
I felt lonely and isolated in my new job. I knew no one well and i didn’t fit in. It was posh, my management was very strict. One night I came into work and everybody was talking about a staff party which was being held that night. Nobody had told...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
December 3rd, 2013
Multiple Rape
I was raped on the evening of the 23 of December 2004. I was raped by three black men that ambushed me and then raped me. They pretended to help me on the side of the road where I was stuck. It was raining badly. I shouted and fought and...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
I was 3 or 4 at the time. This boy was about fifth grade age. He would unzip my pants and point with his friend. I was at daycare and only my mom and dad know. I am ten and just recently told my parents. Nothing is worse than this....
June 13th, 2016
Brock and Will
With the whole Brock Turner trial coming to light and the arguments and letters surrounding it, it only felt fitting that I right a response to this situation. Therefore, I must start from the beginning, my history and understanding of rape. What is rape? Rape is non-consensual sex. But what...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
October 15th, 2018
My message to all
As I heard the news that Kavanaugh made it into the supreme court, my heart sank. My husband, who follows politics relentlessly, was furious but I was silent and went on with my day. Getting angry would mean that I would have to really think about what this event means...
November 13th, 2017
Believe Her
About a month ago, my live in girlfriend didn’t come home. As it got later, I called and texted her about every 15 minutes. I called everyone I knew to find her. By half way through the night, my friends were trying to be honest: If she didn’t come home,...
September 13th, 2016
I’m Not Sure
I’ve been broken up with my ex boyfriend for about a month, so I’ve been reflecting on our relationship a lot and I notice how a lot of the sex we had made me uncomfortable. During the relationship I feel as if I was in a daze and never actually...
March 8th, 2016
Girl Raped By a Girl
Hi Linor, hi everybody, I was looking for a movie to watch tonight on Netflix and I found Linor’s documentary by coincidence (does coincidence exist? Linor would say that’s it’s God path, she is maybe right). I have been very touched by her project, her story, what she made with...
January 20th, 2014
הטראומה הכי קשה בחיי
הייתי בת 19 באתי מבית דתי הכרתי אותו מבוגר ממני ב20 שנה הכיר לי את העולם החילוני , הכל אצלו היה מתוכנן הכניס אותי להריון והתחתנו עוד לא עיקלתי מה קרה לי אני כבר אמא כל הנישואים לא הבנתי למה הוא מכה וצועק ומתעלל פיזית ומינית תמיד אמר לי “את...
January 29th, 2017
The Night That Changed Me
I apologize for this being a tad on the long side, it is the first time I am sharing my full story with anyone and it was very therapeutic to write out every detail. I thank everyone for taking the time to read my story, and sharing in my healing….....
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
August 28th, 2015
I Think I Was Raped
I was raped when I was 17 years old. I was dating this guy i went to high school with. We had been dating for a few months and I was at his house one night. We were drinking (alcohol) and talking while watching TV. All of a sudden there’s...
July 5th, 2014
Forgiving My Rapist
I was raped two years ago at a high school party when I was 16. A lot of factors made the experience traumatic for me, but I think the most disturbing and upsetting of those was the fact that I was unconscious for most of it. I had passed out,...
I was 20, he is a very wealthy man, I still see him often times, he didn’t rape me he sexually assaulted me, I said NO! he didn’t care, he showered me afterward, I wish I could punish him, I wish I could forgive him, I also wish I could...
April 4th, 2016
A Life of Pain
My twin brother Levi and I were adopted when we were two months old by a woman who wanted children so bad and a husband who didn’t. We had a happy childhood though. When we were four our parents got a divorce and we spent every other weekend driving from...
March 4th, 2015
Raped By 6 Policemen
Thirty years ago this March, my entire world was completely shattered after being befriended by a Snr Constable of the N.S.W Police Force & he invited me to his unit to watch a VHS Video of the 1984 Movie “Police Academy”. He knew I was an absolute movie nutter. He...
June 18th, 2018
Camp rape
I wasn’t old. Maybe… 14-16? I remember I went to a camp. A school one, other schools were there too, it’s was an end of the year thing. On the first night I needed to use the restroom, so I left the cabin and walked towards the restrooms. I was...
May 8th, 2019
UNEXPOSED – AFTER 30 YEARS OF EXTREME...
Molestation 4-13, dissociation syndrome started, afraid 24/7, PTSD 10, black outs began & were triggered by the smell of certain foods or a male authorities voice. Attempted Rape 15, Physical Abuse 16-31, all my ex-boyfriends. Rape 18, also attempted suicide & started dancing because I needed extra money & no...
November 14th, 2017
#MeToo I am 1
Entertainment has no monopoly on the casting couch. I was at an upper class party, selling a new company division, rather than just 1 product. I had a dress I couldn’t afford, and borrowed jewelry. A new agency engaged to sit my daughter, and I stopped to pray at my...
December 19th, 2015
Since Age 6?
I have early memories from about age six. When i was about six years old, I fondly have flash backs of being touched by my younger brother’s father. I’m not completely sure what he exactly did to me but I sometimes have weird “dreams” and I’m not sure if there...
August 14th, 2016
You Were My Friend
Only 15 and happy to be seeing you after I had been on vacation for awhile. You and another friend of mine who was a girl. I was tired for I had not slept well the night before. We were all in your room eating nachos and watching tv just...
November 15th, 2015
Holiday Rape
So I went on holiday with my best friend. I’d just come out of a long term relationship and she thought a girls holiday would cheer me up. I was 20 at the time, I’m now 21. On the second night we got ready to go out, and a group...
September 18th, 2016
Abused By My Cousin and Uncle
I think growing up, I was sexually assaulted by my my cousin as well as my uncle, but sometimes I often ask myself if it was really sexual abuse OR not. When I was younger, about 7-8 I lived in a house with my mom, aunt, uncle, and cousins. I...
February 20th, 2017
Being Raped
With the help of God, I can finally write this down. I watched Brave Miss World the same year I confronted on of the men who raped me. This site has allowed me to find strength and solidarity among the words, the deeply respected and haunting stories of others who...
October 22nd, 2016
Two Friends and Two Boys
I’m the friend that everyone talks about. The one that always needs someone to listen to her problems and never really listens back. The one that expects you to be there the moment I need you, but when you need me I may or may not be there. I never...
March 23rd, 2016
Sexual Assault
Oh goodness this is hard. I was 13 years old at the time, my “best-friend” was spending the night at my house. She convinced me that we should sneak out of the house to meet her boyfriend at his house (right up the street- he was considerably older than us)....
November 25th, 2017
Sexually assaulted as a young girl
I was about 6 or 7 yrs old when I was first sexually assaulted by one of my relatives close friends, my mom was away for the night and I had to spend the night with my older cousin and in the middle of the night I woke up to...
October 28th, 2016
What I Now Feel, Because of Him
I’m in a dark place, a very dark and empty room. I sit in the furthest corner away from the door, trapped inside my own thoughts. Im away from the world, trapped in a dark room with pain, violence and torture keeping me company. I can’t move or speak, Im...
July 2nd, 2014
Rapist Turned Murderer
I’m in my 30’s now and am not all there any more but I try to be a good and happy person. The thing is I don’t remember much of what happened to me. People exclaim that if you go through trauma you’ll remember every detail but that isn’t true....
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
May 21st, 2016
Assaulted on a Holiday
When I was 18 (I am over a decade older now) I drove to a party with two of my friends, about an hour and a half away. I was going to see a guy I had known for a few years and knew everyone else at the party. We...
October 5th, 2017
Broken to Bold
I’ve never been the type to trust easily. I come from a family riddled with dishonesty, so I have an inability to trust as tall and wide as the Berlin Wall. My mom says that I’ve had this distrust in people from birth. She always tells a story of how...
April 13th, 2018
A young mother
I came to college a year early, I was seventeen and so naive. I had taken summer school 2 years so I could get out of that small town Kentucky high school. I was so ready to have a fresh start. My first semester was awesome. I joined a sorority...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
November 9th, 2015
In My Home
It’s the summer 2015, I just moved to Copenhagen, from a small near by city. I love Copenhagen, and I know the city. but living here, getting a social life is hard. one day I said yes to go to the beach, he´s here to. right in front of me....
July 10th, 2016
Rape Shaming
5 Years ago I attended Boarding School in the UK. I was a good student. Sociable. I was having the time of my life. After breaking up with my boyfriend, who had moved to a different continent, at the beginning of my last semester I fell into depression. It was...
July 29th, 2016
Once When I Was 6, Once When...
I am a 19 year old girl. I am a lot of things. I am kind. I am honest. I am respectful. I am caring. I am loyal. I am smart. I am everybody’s rock to lean on. I am an athlete. I am a scholar. I am a future...
September 29th, 2017
Alcohol
I recently went through a very hard time in my life and I turned to alcohol. It was my coping mechanism, it helped me through the darkness. I knew it wasn’t the right thing to do but I continued to do it against everyone’s wishes. I finally started getting better,...
March 21st, 2017
Aftermath
I’m not gonna tell the story of what he did here, just the aftermath. In october I was raped by a boy I’ve been friends with for a couple years, and he forced my boyfriend and friends to watch. Yesterday I posted his name and the full story on my...
May 31st, 2017
What am I doing wrong
My first experience with sexual abuse was at age 3 or 4, I don’t remember but my mother told me in an almost joking matter about what the 14 year old girl next door made me do. Again almost everyday in the 7th and 8th grade. The school bus was...
June 29th, 2017
Broken Girl
It all started when I was nine years old and I was sent to foster care. My foster mom had two older sons and they would each take turns touching on me and making me touch them. My foster mom would make me sleep in the same bed with them...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
I am an asian woman, well educated, coming from a middle class family. After graduating from college, I joined an organisation that brought me to US to work for 4 months. Having friends in America, I was excited to meet up with them. I contacted an old high school friend...
December 4th, 2015
Family
For years my uncle called me names that were sexual. He’d make sexual jokes towards me and I didn’t think much of them. May 8th he took something that was special to me and its something that I’ve never been able to get over. I was scared and didn’t want...
September 3rd, 2015
Six Year Sentencing Anniversary
59 years to life. All the girls sitting in the jury box waiting to hear what the judge would sentence the criminal who harmed us all in one way or another as we held hands and cried forced to look at the man who changed our lives forever. It has...
January 17th, 2022
You had no rights
“Meet me after school, today. I wanted to tell you something,” a boy from my class said, “…in private,” he added, looking at my friend, whom I was talking to. My friend raised an eyebrow at me and I shrugged. “Where?” I asked. “Uhh… At the back of the school.”...
I am a 23 y/o male. For the longest time, the memory of my rape remained untouched in the corners of my mind. I can’t quite remember the age that I was, but based on the context clues of my memory I would put myself around age 10. I had...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
April 24th, 2018
Charity is it’s own reward
I was talked into taking the cousin of a friend to a school dance. He was short, homely, awkward, and basically the stereotype nerd out of all the B teen movies. In those, it always turns out she loves him by the end, but this wasn’t a movie. Counting the...
March 28th, 2018
Ex-boyfriend rape
I had just turned 17 when I met him. We talked nonstop. Over the phone, at school, after school. Always. We were unofficially dating over the summer. Then he randomly decided to drop me. Well, maybe it wasn’t random- he had a girlfriend of 2 months that I had no...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
March 16th, 2018
I lost myself before I even knew...
I was six years old the first time I ever felt as if my body was no longer mine. Six years old, I lost the pure innocence you often see in young children playing in playgrounds. At six years old, you don’t understand what this means or what he’s doing....
October 27th, 2017
Time To Tell
February 21st, 2017 . I (15) got into a friends car(17) . he was high as a kite. we drove through my town just fooling around like teens do. we went down this road i asked him to turn around and take me home because i had a strange feeling....
April 8th, 2018
I thought he liked me
We had gone on dates, I thought he liked me, I liked him. I was 18, he had met my family and made me feel special. I said no and he did it anyway, I laid there looking away, I didn’t fight, I should have fought. I cried after it...
May 13th, 2016
Blamed Myself
It was a year ago, I was out with my friend and when I drink vodka I tend to blackout, I don’t drink it anymore. So anyway I think I got kicked out of the club for being too intoxicated and I lost my friend and I remember seeing this...
March 1st, 2018
Someday Soon
Sometimes the people you should trust are the ones to fear. I grew up in a family full of emotional and physical abuse. As a child I would be stripped naked in winter to lay on tiled floors, have wooden spoons and hair brushes broken through beatings, be tied in...
March 13th, 2015
Raped By My Brother’s Friend
I was 11 at the time. I went over to swim with some friends at my neighbor’s house. He was always touching me in places that he should not have. That day it started raining, my friends and I were going to leave because of the rain, but he didn’t...
December 10th, 2016
Roommates
He was my roommate. Someone I barely knew, an acquaintance. I had moved back to campus after living about a year 20 minutes out from school. I was desperate to be around people my own age again and get out of my current living situation. I took on random roommates...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
August 3rd, 2014
Repressed Memories
Like another recent poster, I also feel shame about my repressed memories and like my story will never really be received by victims who remember their trauma. However, the film made me feel like we all have a voice and this seems like an encouraging place to speak up. I’ve...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
December 20th, 2017
Date rape
The beginning of my last relationship was amazing… It all started when we first meet my freshman year… I really liked him and we have known each other our whole lives. One day, we were hanging out and he’s like, “Would you like to go on a date with me?”...
May 16th, 2016
Six Years Old
I know that this is a site for women who were raped. I would like to share my story if it helps too. I was 6 or 7 years old when my cousin (between 15-18 years old) moved to our department. He was living in the country side and he...
September 28th, 2015
Continue to Survive
I was molested at 2, I remember waking and going to sleep with older boy on top of me, but I was also molested by my father until I was 6, I Kept That From happening to my sister. If you knew back than the highlight of my life was...
January 4th, 2014
I Am Still Standing
Being taken advantage of isn’t particularly new to me. From the ages of four to eighteen I was neglected and abused by both of my parents in many ways. When I left for college in August of 2010 I fully planned to leave my old life behind and fight to...
March 1st, 2018
Someday Soon
Sometimes the people you should trust are the ones to fear. I grew up in a family full of emotional and physical abuse. As a child I would be stripped naked in winter to lay on tiled floors, have wooden spoons and hair brushes broken through beatings, be tied in...
September 26th, 2014
My Friend’s House
I am 43 years old and I know that the effects if my rape have cut deep. I have never said it before, “my rape” until I am typing it now. It’s been 25 years…I saw your documentary last night so now it’s time. I was 18. It was the...
December 22nd, 2014
Such Shame
As I lay here writing this, tears are are rolling down my cheeks, this is the first time I have disclosed this information. It all happened over 33 years ago I’m now aged 43. I almost feel untrue to myself even writing this down. I promised to take this to...
June 11th, 2016
A Letter to My Rapist
Yesterday I sent this letter to the guy who raped me 33 years ago. —, I never imagined writing this letter. I am sure it will surprise you to receive it. It is a letter long overdue. Maybe you already know this, but in the past few years, more and...
January 11th, 2018
My Fears Do Not Define Me
I stumbled on this site via Google last night while trying to find a place i could talk without been judged. I must say this place is full of strong women and men , reading their stories all night made my heart break countless number of time. I hope to...
September 12th, 2016
Disappointed
I’m not entirely sure what guys want. If I text my boyfriend good morning and appreciate him when he does something kind, I can put a smile on his face. If I study hard and be respectful and loving, I can make my dad light up. If I work out...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
October 25th, 2014
I Dated My Rapists
I was raped three times in my life. After seeing the documentary Brave Miss World and hearing Joan Collins, from the film, who married her rapist, it resonated a lot with me. I was first raped when I was 16 years old by my boyfriend. I was a virgin waiting...
December 28th, 2015
Help…
I live in an area where there aren’t a lot of people to talk to. There’s no support groups and there aren’t many counsellors that aren’t men. (‘m afraid of men, since what happened to me, and there’s one girl-counsellor but she doesn’t understand at all. It’s a very small...
February 28th, 2018
I was raped
I am a freshman at Upper Darby High School. I was raped while walking home from school. I don’t want to go into a lot of details, except that I was a virgin before it. He is a member of my class, and I see him every school day. I...
January 12th, 2018
The Night That Changed My Life
How nice to know that within the next 7-10 years you will never have touched me. How devastating to know that 5 of you drugged then raped me after mixing something into my drink while I was using the bathroom. How horrible is it that my best friend, someone I...
February 8th, 2018
But what really happened?
Last week I had decided to go on a night out with a few of my friends. Being 19, clubbing and alcohol is a hobby of mine, I did what I usually do and just go with the flow of the night. We had started off at the pub, I...
July 7th, 2014
I Too Was Raped
I was raised in a very strict and religious household. In high school I would come to my mother and we would pray over the girls in my school that would have sex. I have always believed that sex is for marriage and marriage only. outside of marriage it is...
When I was 9 my favorite holiday was always Halloween, going out at night scaring and getting scared but it was more of a joke scare. But, Halloween 2010 was not a “joke scare.” My mum was sick and couldn’t take me trick or treating so my neighbor took me....
March 20th, 2016
Started With My Father
I apologize for how long this is and how graphic if graphic descriptions are going to be hard for you consider this your warning to stop now. However, I wanted to be frank about what I’ve done and what’s happened to me. I don’t want to pretend things weren’t the...
April 13th, 2018
A young mother
I came to college a year early, I was seventeen and so naive. I had taken summer school 2 years so I could get out of that small town Kentucky high school. I was so ready to have a fresh start. My first semester was awesome. I joined a sorority...
July 4th, 2016
Raped By Family
I wasn’t high, I wasn’t drunk, I wasn’t under the influence of any drugs. But I was raped. I was forced to have sex with a man I knew my whole life. A man I thought was my second dad. When I went for help I couldn’t get it. I...
February 15th, 2018
I’m tired of hiding what you did
The basics: I had fallen asleep on the basement rec room sofa watching movies. I woke up to a man in a ninja outfit on top of me with a knife to my throat, removing my panties. He was inside me before my head had cleared. Apparently, this was not...
March 25th, 2016
Still Need Help
I was dating this guy that my family had a lot of connections with. He came over to my house one day. I was 20 years old and I am now 26. It started out as just kissing but he went to far and the next thing I know he...
March 30th, 2016
From Scared Girl to Strong Mother
Though I’m sure I experienced some type of sexual abuse as a child younger than 6, I cannot recount those memories. I do recall being overly sexual by the time I was 6 years old. I do, also, recall hating being around my aunts boyfriend (who I later found out...
May 4th, 2015
No Wasn’t Good Enough
I was enlisted in the United States Army. I believed it was my chance to find my self and be courageous and to leave the sheltered area from where I was raised, to be a voice. After a deployment with my unit I came home, I was tired and worn...
September 26th, 2016
Unhealthy Relationship
I already knew this guy, he was a friend of my friends. One day we all hung out and he said he had feelings for me, and that those feelings have been there for quite a while. I thought he was the mos amazing guy ever by the way people...
August 19th, 2014
Hundreds of Times
I don’t remember exactly when it started. I know it started when I was very small, still in diapers. The beginning memories are all light, color, sound, smell-no words, no names or descriptions attached. Then they get more visual, more defined, more acute and sharp and poignantly terrifying. Then they...
November 14th, 2010
Erase and Rewind
גדלתי מילדה ונערה לאישה – אבל בתור אחת שהיו לה קצת רגשי נחיתות וכזו שהסתובבה בעיקר עם חברים בנים ושלושת אחיי הגדולים – הייתי טיפה רחוקה מהנשיות שלי- היה בי משהו מעורב בין נסיכה ביישנית לבין טום בוי חוצפנית- וכך יצא שעד גיל 21 עוד הייתי בתולה -מחוסר בחיבור לגוף...
November 13th, 2015
More Than Once
I just finished watching this beautiful film. For the first time in 37 years I don’t feel alone and I do have a voice, and what happened to me matters. It changed who I was suppose to be. I have never told anyone that I was raped twice in two...
August 7th, 2015
Gang Rape
I was 14 when I was raped. I went out with my friends to a party where i met these guys there were 3 or 4 of them. They looked at me and complimented on my beauty. Saying “You are a really pretty girl” and “what’s your secret?” I said...
July 1st, 2014
I’m Doing You a Favor
I was 7 years old when we moved into my step-father’s house. Around that time he pulled me into his dark bedroom and whispered that there was something very important he wanted to show me. My mom had just left the room to go downstairs and make dinner for us....
April 9th, 2018
Rape survivor
I was 14 years old when i was raped. It was my boyfriend at the time and i was still a virgin. We had sexual contact at the time but i did not want to have sex. I felt that i was not ready to lose my virginity yet. He...
December 6th, 2015
Two times. One year.
I had just gotten out of a relationship with someone I was crazy about when a guy I graduated with the year before texted me wanting to go swimming. I had a crush on him through out school so, why not? We went swimming with some of his friends down...
August 15th, 2015
Scared and Confused
Two years ago I was a sophomore in high school. It was the last day of school and some guy I saw of as my brother asked me if I was going to go to the same class we have. I said yes. On my way to class I decided...
August 7th, 2018
I wish I never knew
I don’t remember it or how old I was but in fact I try and block it from my memorise, desperately trying to forget that it ever occured. All I remember was my mum telling me a couple years later a small detail from an incident that happened to me...
When my siblings and I were little, we were molested by a man that forced himself into our lives. My oldest brother was 9, other brother was 5 my sister was 3 and I was two. This man was a guy my mom knew from the bar down the street...
April 4th, 2017
Was It My Fault?
Seven months ago, I was raped. I had just gone through a breakup of a 1 year relationship; I was having a hard time getting back out with my friends and returning to any normal things I did before my boyfriend and I broke up. My best friend and her...
March 29th, 2016
Fost or Fight
I was a foster child. From the Age of 6 to thirteen I never had a place. My dad left when I was 2 so my mom moved out to California. She worked everyday to provide for the two of us, but she became mixed up in drugs and when...
I was only 5 years old when these malicious things had happened to me. Things no child should ever have to experience. I am now 18 years old, an older sister, a mother, a daughter, an aunt, a wife, and yet still a human being. I say “human being” because,...
December 19th, 2017
Realization of Rape
I am a 20 year old female. This year I realized I was raped. One day I was reading an open letter a survivor wrote to her abuser. As I was reading, it hit me: that’s what happened to me. I didn’t want to believe it, but I knew. I...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
August 12th, 2014
A Childhood of Sexual Trauma
My father began sexually abusing me before I started school. I remember him telling me to touch his penis as he was lying on the bed and I was sitting beside him. He told me it was ‘sex education.’ I have only that one flashback from the early years. Years...
November 5th, 2016
Love of My Life?
I was 17 years old. My senior year of high school was complete. My boyfriend at the time came down from Stanford to see me graduate. He was caring, supportive, kind, you know, a great boyfriend. He was a sophomore, grade A student, football player, and community activist. Two weeks...
March 11th, 2016
A Big Man
I was walking home from school one afternoon when two guys stopped a car and forced me in. They drove me to a wooded area then started flipping a quarter to see which one got to go first. I kept trying to get away, but they would not let me....
January 7th, 2017
Black and Blue
My story is a little different than the ones Ive read. And for a long time I didn’t see it as rape because of what I was reading. I now realize that I was raped an I need to go forward. The first step is to share my story. I...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
December 15th, 2014
A Child
I was abused as a 7 year old child by my uncle. It has taken me a along time to get where I am today. He made me touch him, and he touched me. I am now in the process of sending him to prison for what he has done....
February 19th, 2015
The Setup
Growing up I was always a good church girl. Never cursed,n ever had sex, never did a lot of things. Until I turned 16, and began experimenting with opiates. I became an addict. To this day, my mouth still waters when thinking about a day in bed with a nice...
February 20th, 2018
My Story
I was 16 when I had my first kiss, 17 when I met my first boyfriend and lost my virginity. I was a shy girl, the one who blended into the background amongst her more attractive friends. Dennis was tall, blonde and exotic- All of us were drawn to him....
November 15th, 2017
I did Not need to know this
Youngest of 3, and I was the most outgoing. I was into sports and clubs, and after school church activities. I came home from field hockey, all sweaty and stinky, and needed a shower like no tomorrow! I went straight in and to my room to get a change of...
March 9th, 2018
Night of Psychedelic Horror
I was just 12 and my family had just moved into a new house in Beverly Hills. I didn’t like it there at first because I didn’t know anyone and my friends were from our old neighborhood, so I rarely saw them anymore. I made a new group of friends...
July 6th, 2014
Breaking the Trust
I was raped for the first time when I was 18 by an undercover cop. I had dissed him at a college party, I was followed by cop, ambushed from behind and was raped in a back alley and left me handcuffed to a pole naked for friends to find...
August 18th, 2015
How I Was Raped
The man who did this to me was my boyfriend. His name is Brandon Cleine. We were both 17 at the time. Before it happened, I think to scare me he told me how he had raped another young girl before me when he was a young boy. He had...
April 20th, 2019
At 17yr old was raped by my...
I became pregnant at age 16, forced to marry months later at 17, I went through domestic violence, physical abuse, mental abuse, sexual abuse by him, my husband and my family did nothing to help me out of the nightmare! After 2 yrs I got out with the help of...
June 19th, 2014
The First Man In My Life
Was my father. He was a religious zealot. x 3 every Sunday, morning evening services and Sunday school in between. He helped build a new church roof over many weekends, leaving me with negligent babysitters, some cruel. All Church people. He had my mother committed to a psychiatric hospital 12 years before I...
March 15th, 2016
Ashamed Afraid Angry Grey
When I was 19 years old, I got my first job working in a fast food restaurant. I was so happy to have gotten the job. I was so proud to surprise my father with this news as he’d helped me in the past with work and this time I’d...
December 12th, 2015
Raped After Work
I wasn’t feeling well and left work about 2am. I worked in a hospital at that time. I was running a fever, nauseous and it was so very cold. I was bundled up in my coat and was hurrying across the street to parking garage. I wasn’t paying attention to...
February 19th, 2016
Moving on Alone from Rape
I am a 26 old women. When I was 25, I was raped by someone I never knew. I was on a dating site. A guy started talking to me we exchanged numbers. He sounded nice we started messaging each other. Good few hours later, he wanted meet in the...
July 10th, 2016
Rape Shaming
5 Years ago I attended Boarding School in the UK. I was a good student. Sociable. I was having the time of my life. After breaking up with my boyfriend, who had moved to a different continent, at the beginning of my last semester I fell into depression. It was...
I was raped the first time when I was 2. It began a lifetime of torture and abuse at the hands of several perpetrators. I am now 34 and the last time I was raped by one of these men was in 2016. I am trying to speak out but...
June 17th, 2014
Teenage Victim
I am a 26 year old, female to male transgender, who was raped, I was raped twice when I was younger. Once by my ex boyfriend during my sophomore year of high school and once when I was about 14 years old by a stranger. When I was 14, I...
December 4th, 2017
Rape by Boyfriend
I never really told anyone the full extent of mine. I was in my first year of college and had severe body issues. I hated myself and was amazed when a couple of guys asked me out. I clicked with one guy and we started hanging out all the time....
February 7th, 2017
Too Young
I was about 8 years old and I was at a festival with my dad. He laid the blanket on the grass before the show started. My dad kept moving his hands towards my shirt. I kept pushing his hand away. We sat on a hill with people there. But...
January 7th, 2015
3 Generations
My mother grew up in a house hold with 10 older siblings. One of them is a half sister who was raped by her father and became pregnant with my mother’s brother/nephew. Everyone knew it was happening but instead kept quite. My grandmother was jealous of her own daughter one...
November 23rd, 2014
In The Past
I started dating my boyfriend when I was 18 years old. He seemed really nice, caring and I loved him the way you do as a fresh 18 year old. He quickly started to change and began showing controlling traits. I thought this was normal as this was my first...
September 8th, 2016
Can Anyone Help?
Hi fellow survivors. I’ve written on this forum a few times before trying to be encouraging to those who are struggling with post rape trauma and all the crap that comes with it, but I’m reaching out to you for support now. It’s been about 9 months since a stranger...
March 15th, 2017
I Blame Myself
I’ve never really came around to tell many people about my story, only because I’m always too embarrassed to repeat the horrid things that happened this night, but I think it’s time to finally share it. A couple of years ago, it was my senior year in high school. Everything...
September 4th, 2018
I don’t Know, but I Know
We gathered on a Saturday at my BFFs pool. It went from 4 of us to a couple of dozen! I had some beers, not a lot really, but I fell asleep on a deck chair. I woke up in someone’s room. I was still in my swimsuit, but my...
I was 20 just before my 21st birthday. I was in college, out at a party with some friends. We’d been drinking and having a good time. A friend came over to me and said that this guy she’d been interested in had invited her to come over to his...
April 28th, 2015
My Story, My Nightmare
iI was sexually assaulted and can’t remember if I was raped (but feel I was) over 10 years ago in Barcelona a city I had been living in for over a year. I still find it difficult to say out loud what happened to me, when I talk to my...
December 17th, 2014
What If I Make You?
There is no short way to tell this story. There is no condensed version of the pain I’ve felt every day since 10:26pm, October 10th, 2011. I know very few will read this, but I also know that I wouldn’t be able to stand telling my story one more time,...
I’m scared to write this here, but I need to open up. When I was 6 years old, I lived with my mum in really quiet and nice neighborhood. It was summer, I went to my friends place and he lived like 10 minutes away from home. It was around...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
August 28th, 2018
More Witness than I Care to Live...
My name is Katherine, and my sex ed started when I went to a playground after a softball game. I was 9, and a man joined me. He intimidated me into masturbating him. I only had my mother and 2 sisters with my father out of the house, so I...
December 22nd, 2015
2 Strangers
I was 7. My father had taken my sister and I to the city to see a movie. Afterward we went to a restaurant to eat. My sister, who was 5 at the time, and I went to the bathroom. There were two men in the ladies washroom, one younger...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
July 29th, 2016
Brother & Sister
My story starts at the age of 6. The worst part about it is not my age but the fact that I remember everything, every word and every moment of each attack is on replay in my mind driving me insane. So today I’m going to share every single detail...
August 29th, 2018
Males can be victims too
I’m a male in the north east of England. It’s difficult to talk about but I was raped. I’ve waited over 3 years to finally admit that to myself. Since I am a male, many people dismissed me. The first person I told was my sister who helped me get...
November 24th, 2014
I Will Never Forget
Three and a half years ago, at 3 o’clock in the morning, I sat at a worn table in a domestic violence shelter. I was preparing for the most important battle of my life: custody of my daughters. My daughters slept, upstairs in one of the shelter’s tiny bedrooms as...
February 26th, 2018
Innocence Taken
My story begins when I was 6 years old. My babysitter had a brother who was in high school and my babysitter left me with him for long periods of time. He would take me for bike rides and we would end up in a barn. To this day I...
February 26th, 2018
Leaving the party
I was taken to only the second formal party I was ever, the first being the Prom. It was a charity affair for education. I didn’t even have an appropriate dress, and rented one, and borrowed shoes, and a clutch. I looked great, but felt bought. My good friend Jim...
September 6th, 2015
Gang Rape At 15 Years Old
My name is Patricia. I’m 18 years old and when I was 15, I was stranger raped. I had gone out to a party with my friends at a club, it was her birthday. There were other people there I didn’t know. But I didn’t mind, first thing we did...
October 31st, 2018
Raped by My Ex
I loss my first virginity back in April 22, 2018 from my ex boyfriend. When I first loss my virginity I felt mad, sad, depressed, stupid, and confused. The next day when I woke up around 7 o’clock in a morning he raped me again I still felt confused, tired,...
December 10th, 2013
יש חיים אחרי אונס
שלום לכולן, אני בחורה חוזרת בתשובה מזה ארבע שנים .. בגיל 15 בערך עברתי אונס ע”י מציל .. שהיה באמצע שנות העשרים שלו.. לא הצלחתי לדבר שלוש עשרה שנים .. לא הצלחתי להגדיר לעצמי .. עברת עכשיו אונס .. אז שתקתי.. אבל הפצע לא מוכן להישאר בנפש ובגוף .. הוא...
February 12th, 2016
The Guy I Trusted
At the age of 13 years old, I was rape. After spending half of the day in the pool with my team mates( due to an international competition), I started feeling uncomfortable. By the swim pool, the guy kept placing his hands around my waist. -I always say I am...
April 14th, 2017
4 Years Ago
4 years ago when I was 19, during my first year at University I met a guy through my friend. He seemed nice enough, he was a bartender at one of the local bars that we frequented because my friends liked it. We went out to go dance/drink at the...
April 6th, 2016
Holding It In
When I was in 5th or 6 the grade, I can’t remember exactly when it started, I began to have dreams that someone was coming into my room at night. I didn’t recall much of what they were doing. A few months after it began I realized they were not...
October 22nd, 2017
3rd Grade Boys
I was in the third grade when a classmate ran up behind me, put his hand down the front of my shirt and squeezed my chest and shoulders and yelled, “Nice shoulders BABE!” I yelled at him to stop, but he and his friend had already ran off, giggling as...
October 23rd, 2018
I Didn’t Know I Was Raped
Upon the eve of my 21st birthday my boyfriend of the time (who was everything to not date in a man) raped me. We went to a bar and were drinking. I am not even a fan of bars. I wanted to go camping, but he insisted. (Side Note: After...
September 8th, 2015
The Day I Was Raped and Abandoned
1.9.07 It is the same every year. Every year the leaves turn, and there is that slight twinge in my leg, a hesitant reminder of times past. Every year as the winds change, there is that slight catch when you take a deep breath. A catch not from the cold...
August 22nd, 2018
PART 1: My True, Horrid, and Concluded...
“All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.”—Mitch Albom. Being born second eldest, with my father’s child (my half sister) being born a...
February 17th, 2017
Hated Myself
I was 15 years old when I came from school waiting for a taxi to go home. Normally that taxi spot is always busy but that specific day there was a witness with no one in site when suddenly 3 guys came from across the road making as if they...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
October 24th, 2017
Nothing for Nothing
My mother remarried. I never liked him. He installed new security systems, smoke alarms, carbon monoxide alarms, clocks, and thermostats, in every room, including the bathrooms and garage. I felt like he was watching 24/7. I started making some money, babysitting and cleaning, and sometimes I needed a ride to...
June 27th, 2014
Lasting Effects
I just watched the Brave Miss World on Netflix. I was raped four times by four different men when I was between the ages of 16 and 22. I am now 44. I thought I was over all of it. The documentary showed me just how NOT over it I am....
July 29th, 2016
I Just Started High School
When I started high school I was very quiet and shy, I went into high school with an on again off again boyfriend from 8th grade but it was never anything serious since we got together at 13 and I never kissed a guy (never kissed him) or even had...
November 28th, 2017
Surpris à la Maison
A week after my marriage, I had moved into Pantin, outside Paris, with his mother and son. I had my premier day at new occupation. I remove my stockings, and wanted food. My stepson grappled me to my knees. After a fight, I felt him enter inside me. He only...
February 20th, 2017
Being Raped
With the help of God, I can finally write this down. I watched Brave Miss World the same year I confronted on of the men who raped me. This site has allowed me to find strength and solidarity among the words, the deeply respected and haunting stories of others who...
December 12th, 2016
Prisoner of Love
I was married to a monster, but no one knew. Everyone thought we had the perfect marriage and were the perfect couple. Sex was used as a tool to control me. Sodomy, especially, was used to dehumanize me. I found a way out of my many years of the hell...
August 6th, 2014
Football Player
he guy who raped me was a 17 year football player & I was a 15 year virgin. I newly had been dating another boy but had kissed this football player a few times in the previous months at parties. On this night, he led me to his truck during...
December 10th, 2015
Friends?
The first occurrence of sexual assault happened to me when I was 6 years old, at the hands of my sister. She continued to sexually assault me until she met her boyfriend 3 years later. The second time, in 2002, I was drugged and raped by two college acquaintances. I...
June 3rd, 2021
he made me loose hope in love…
I met this boy soon after leaving a long term relationship.. I was heartbroken and had my guard down when we began dating. Our relationship started as innocent “hookups” and turned into more. But he quickly became abusive. In my words i would say, he treated me like a piece...
When I was 13 years old I went to stay with a cousin and her husband. After being there a few weeks off and on the husband started getting close to me and i didnt understand why. One night he came into the room where I was sleeping acting like...
November 21st, 2017
Short Story
Skipping the details, my first High School boyfriend got tired of going slow, and forced himself on me during a date. I told most of my friends that it happened. Forewarned, on dates, two of my close friends were wary of him, and avoided the same fate. At least, breaking...
August 14th, 2015
My Rape
It was 1 week before my 20th birthday, and I went to a bar after hearing that my grandparents had been in a car accident. I knew I was strong, and that I could handle myself, and I went without fear. A man kept buying me drinks, and I kept...
April 12th, 2018
Bartender Lies
I was 21, a young ballet dancer studying in NYC. My roommate and I went to visit the bar of the restaurant I was a hostess. The bartenders were always revered, put on a pedestal. I thought the attention from him was good, a positive thing. How wrong I was....
November 21st, 2013
Through the Window
I was working hard as an undergraduate and I guess not getting enough sleep, because I slept through the man coming into my apartment and climbing on top of me and holding his hand over my mouth. Then I woke up. And realized my best bet was to comply and...
December 1st, 2017
Home from School
I got home from school, and mom was working. I was 12, and a latchkey kid. I surprised a classmate of mine, who had broken into our home while I was at school. He started it on the couch, and rapidly went for sex. I was a virgin until then....
January 25th, 2018
Was it rape?
I used to never understand the word rape. I used to never think it could happen to me. Too be honest, I still don’t understand it all I know is what happened was wrong. It was six years ago. It was a warm night in may I was at my...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
December 13th, 2015
Second Night of College
I was raised in a Christian family to believe that I should never have sex before marriage, and I always planned to have sex only with my husband. When I was about 6 or 7, I was molested by my older cousin for about 2 years. I was very confused...
I was raped the first time when I was 2. It began a lifetime of torture and abuse at the hands of several perpetrators. I am now 34 and the last time I was raped by one of these men was in 2016. I am trying to speak out but...
December 5th, 2014
First Friend at University
I went to university in Newcastle, UK. It was my fourth day of university and i was just getting used to meeting new people and getting to grips with being on my own and away from home. I had met some people during this time but the first person I...
March 7th, 2018
I’m Only Stronger
Wednesday night of November 1, 2017 I was beaten half to death by my ex boyfriend. He kicked me, punched me, pistol whipped me and took the battery out of my phone therefore, making it impossible for me to call anyone or for me to leave. I never thought that...
August 18th, 2015
How I Was Raped
The man who did this to me was my boyfriend. His name is Brandon Cleine. We were both 17 at the time. Before it happened, I think to scare me he told me how he had raped another young girl before me when he was a young boy. He had...
October 26th, 2017
Dee Bhagwanji
When we lived in Tooting, England we were all happy. I was such a nerd because I hated weekends because that meant no school!! Everything was good until one day something changed. I just remember one of the people I called uncle, pulled out his thing and asked me if...
August 2nd, 2015
From Grief to Trauma
I started having sex when I was 18 years old. About 3 years ago, I lost my best friend in a car accident, and I stopped having sex. On Nov. 27, 2014, it was a party only for my classmates and the class above mine. A guy from the other...
January 31st, 2017
CPS Let My Rapist Walk Free
Three years ago, I was a happy excited 20 year old looking forwards to an evening with her life long best mate. If only I knew less than 12 hours later my world would be turned completely upside down. We were getting ready for an evening in the local town,...
I just saw the documentary and can’t stop crying… I was molested as a child by a driver who worked for my family. He would run errands for my grandmother and I would come along (I was 6 or 7) because I loved the car ride. One night he parked...
August 24th, 2009
חיה בשני עולמות מקבילים
מאיפה בכלל מתחילים לרשום את הסיפור שלי כשמרגישה שלא משנה כמה אני ירשום- זה פשוט לא יהיה מספיק. אני חיה בתוך הסוד הזה כבר שנים רבות- רבות מדי. אני בת 25, לאחרונה סיימתי את התואר הראשון שלי. למרות הכאב שאני חייה בחיי- לאורך השנים תמיד וידאתי שאת כל הכוחות שלי...
February 7th, 2015
Returning to Mexico
First of all, I am very proud of any rape survivor. I’m proud of how strong we all are and how much stronger we become through this experience, even though the healing process is so hard and takes very long. But we can do it, and in the end we...
January 7th, 2015
3 Generations
My mother grew up in a house hold with 10 older siblings. One of them is a half sister who was raped by her father and became pregnant with my mother’s brother/nephew. Everyone knew it was happening but instead kept quite. My grandmother was jealous of her own daughter one...
January 3rd, 2014
Raped Twice and Attempted Rape Once No...
At 19, a young innocent, never even had a first date. I naively went to the motel room of a road construction worker I had gotten to know while working in the store in my tiny town. He would NOT take NO for answer – raped and lost my virginity...
May 21st, 2015
My Ex-Boyfriend and Rapist
When I was 19, I had the world in the palm of my hand. I had just graduated high school and community college, both with advanced honors. In the fall, I transferred to university and was looking forward to all that college life had to offer; I was excited for...
May 9th, 2018
Why does this keep happening to me?
I was about…6 I think. The first time it happened. My uncle was living with us after he came back from the islands. The first time he molested me was in our living room. It was in the middle of the night and I was watching a show, everyone were...
July 22nd, 2016
Kidnapped and Raped
I was 12, walking home from school. It was a sunny day, everything was fine, and my house wasn’t too far away. A man drove up to me, asking for directions. Being the kind girl I was, I pointed him in the direction he needed to go. I didn’t notice...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
July 17th, 2016
I Want to Live
When I was 5 years old I slept over my cousins house. She wanted to play doctor. I never played before. Her mom walked in and sent me and my sister home. We never saw her again until we were older. Her mom blamed us but it was her idea....
September 28th, 2016
An Unknown Face & Hands
I was almost killed. I never thought I would utter those words let alone write them on a public website like this. I’ve written here before but that was a while ago, about a rape that happened almost 3 years ago. It’s happened countless times in my life already, I’ve...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
October 9th, 2016
Never Thought It Would Happen To Me
I am a rape survivor. I was in a relationship with this guy for about a year and 3 months in total. I thought we would be together for a long time. I thought he would never hurt me. I thought he would never do what he did. But yet,...
After seven years and two children together, I broke up with my boyfriend. I had never really loved him and felt that I had stayed with him because I was weak and on some level I knew that getting away wouldn’t be easy. He harassed me and stalked me after...
February 9th, 2016
I Was Just a Dancer
I got kicked out when I was 17. My mother and I didn’t get along. My mother has some mental problems. I still love her though… Since I got kicked out and I was still in high school, I started to be a stripper because it got the bills paid....
April 6th, 2018
Was it rape if he’s my boyfriend?
In retrospect, we are a happy, normal couple. My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years, what feel like less. I love him and he adores me. He loves me. He respects me. I think? So I may have had too much to drink one night when the...
Hola, no comprendo muy bien el idioma ingles por eso escribo esta corta historia en español, la persona que fue abusa es mi esposa cuan ella tenia 11 años por el esposo de una tía de ella y el esposo de una prima de ella. Al contarme esto sentí demasiada...
July 22nd, 2015
An Amazing Woman
I watched a Brave Miss World yesterday. I think Linor is an incredibly strong and inspirational woman who on her own journey of understanding the most terrible thing that happened to her, has wanted to help others on the way. I think that all the women who took part in...
November 27th, 2017
My husband was molested as a child
This is my husband’s story. He recently confided to me about how terrible of a person his great uncle is. He was molested multiple times by him whom I’ve met a few times in the past. Let’s call him Guu. It started when he was very young (6 or 7)...
January 26th, 2014
Looking for a lawyer & advocate
My name is Schlomit. I was Raped at 3.5 yrs by an 18 year old who was on some kind of drugs. He tied me up and blindfolded me and after all the pain of what he put me through I was lucky to convince him to let me go...
March 4th, 2015
He Took My Virginity
It is really hard for me to write this but I feel empowered by this website and All the stories I have read here. It took me a while to realize what happened but I think I was raped when I was 17. I met Jon and he was a...
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 años. Viví una situación muy confusa cuando era niña casi 9 o 10 años. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentían con golosinas, ver televisión y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
February 22nd, 2018
I’m Sorry if Assaulting Me Hurt You
My Side of the Story: I’m Sorry If Assaulting Me Hurt You 2/5/18 I was trying to find someone special. And as much as I wanted you to be it, I knew you weren’t. And I tried to tell you that. I thought I had. But I don’t think you...
July 8th, 2014
Never Be the Same Again
On 03/02/11 my world changed forever I knew this guy he was acquaintance we decided to hangout I made it very clear to him I didn’t want to do anything sexual and he agreed and he told me he wouldn’t do anything that I didn’t want to do. So I...
April 3rd, 2015
Uncomfortable
I don’t want to sound weak but this really scared and I wouldn’t classify it as rape, but I want to talk it out. I love this game online but also has a chatting room which you think would be good but it wasn’t. Some boys started targeting me with...
October 23rd, 2016
I Remember Being Happy
I remember being happy to bump into you and smiling as I spoke to you. I remember feeling good that u invited me in and were not mad at me for staying away. Then I remember thinking that I must have given you the wrong vibe when u wanted to...
August 24th, 2016
Our Corrupted Country
I woke up from my bed. I could remember someone mixed dugs in my orange juice last night. I slept on my friend’s bed. I went to take a shower when I noticed nail marks on my (o)(o). I was horrified when I saw my hand. It was written. I...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
December 31st, 2015
Sexual Assault
My first take on “sex” was misunderstanding. I didn’t know what it was, and my mother told me that I didn’t need to worry about it yet. My father and mother had always stressed being responsible, and learning to defend yourself. I chose “Start By Believing” to tell my story,...
August 28th, 2014
Rape at 15
I was raped back in 2007 on Halloween. Since that day I’m scared of Halloween and I don’t wanna dress up or celebrate. It was my favorite holiday until I was 15. I was raped by 2 boys who were my age in an alley, which to this day makes...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
August 8th, 2018
When will it be enough?
Why is it not enough? Why is my reluctance not enough to make you stop? Why is my “no” not enough? Why is my “no no no” not enough? Why are my clawing, shoving, desperately-trying-to-pull-my-pants-up hands not enough? Why is my cry of “oh god make it stop, please make...
February 22nd, 2018
April 8th, 2016
This date changed my life. This was the date that lifted the rug, and uncovered all of the ill, suppressed memories and emotions that I had brushed under it. This was the date that opened my eyes to the exact number of times that I had been sexually assaulted: 6....
March 28th, 2018
Ex-boyfriend rape
I had just turned 17 when I met him. We talked nonstop. Over the phone, at school, after school. Always. We were unofficially dating over the summer. Then he randomly decided to drop me. Well, maybe it wasn’t random- he had a girlfriend of 2 months that I had no...
November 13th, 2015
More Than Once
I just finished watching this beautiful film. For the first time in 37 years I don’t feel alone and I do have a voice, and what happened to me matters. It changed who I was suppose to be. I have never told anyone that I was raped twice in two...
August 4th, 2016
A Zillion Baths But Still Feel Dirty
Don’t you hate when bad memories sneak out in what is supposed to be your happiest time? I do. I was raped by my uncle when I was 10, every time we were left home together he never missed out on an opportunity to abuse and when all that was...
February 20th, 2018
Childhood of assault
“Do you want to do it?” My 8 year old stepbrother asked my 8 year old self. “Do what?” I asked. He instructed me to lay down and he took out his penis and started rubbing it on my stomach. I had no idea what was happening. I had just...
August 12th, 2016
Young and Unaware
I’m 19 now and it took 4 years for me to process what had happened. I really only became aware of it 1 year ago. But when I was 14, I was dating a boy who was 17. I had lied about my age and he thought I was 15,...
October 31st, 2014
Bringing the Stories to Light
I am so grateful for the bravery and commitment to change that Linor has demonstrated. When watching Brave Miss World I was moved by her courage. I have been in contact with Linor and the Brave Miss World team because I am also working toward ending the silence of rape...