June 13th, 2017
Just wanted to be loved
I was with this person for 3 years he said he cared and that he loved me he had me thinking it was going to Be so much more for three years I cared about this person. I took everything from him the hurt,the pain in the abuse that he...
February 6th, 2014
A Fruit, a Holy Building, and a...
There are three things that I’ve been told happens when you lose your virginity: pain, blood, and regret. I experienced none of those things. It was the beginning of my sophomore year and I was fifteen years old. I’d been on and off dating my middle school best friend for...
August 24th, 2009
לא יוצאים מזה…
לינור יקרה- הסיפור שלך השפיע עלי רבות בזמנו (1998) כי ממש באותה תקופה הסיפור עם השכן שפגע בי התפוצץ… אני לא חיה מאז. אני חיה-מתה למען האמת… כל יום הוא מלחמה עבורי… אני נאחזת בשיניים, וזה לא קל. סליחה אם אני נשמעת פסימית (אולי זה בגלל התקופה…), אבל קשה מאוד...
May 16th, 2018
Personal Statement – Written January 2017
Twilight hours of February 25, 2016 are buried in oblivion, bygone, sunk out of my head, perhaps for self-protection. This eclipse of my heart in dead of night. Fraternity boy coolness turns to shadiness at nightfall. His country boy accent is of the coal pitch blackness of the mines, sinking...
July 11th, 2014
Didn’t Know Until Later
I am 25 now, and when I was from the ages of 4 to 13 I was molested by my mother’s half sister. I didn’t realize it was molestation because I found out later on in life that she had been grooming me most of my life. I finally told...
June 13th, 2018
Today, I Let It All Go
My rapist- is what I called him. But I refuse to take ownership of him. I refuse to take the blame for actions. I refuse to hold on to the guilt. Today, I let it all go. My story begins in a high school biology class. A seemingly harmless flirtation,...
August 27th, 2018
Healing and releasing painful memories
I was a fashion designer in the Los Angeles area. I opened up my own business and hired a young man that we knew in the garment business as our shipping manager and coordinator. He was someone my ex-husband, now deceased, knew. We became friends with him and his wife....
July 27th, 2016
My Brothers Two Best Friends
On July 23rd 2016, I went bowling with my brother, his girlfriend Destiny and my brother’s two best friends, Chase and Francisco (Paco). We bowled and had a few drinks at the bowling alley. We even had a funny bet that the loser would have to run down Howard Street...
June 12th, 2016
Not Remembering
When I was 8 years old my 16 year old cousin was my best friend. He would always be there for me and my other cousin. Except one day he took us out to his place while everybody was out. He had me and my cousin give him oral until...
April 11th, 2016
“No” is Universal
Last night I went out to a bar near campus with a few good friends of mine. After a few drinks we ran into some foreign exchange students who bought us shots. An hour or so later I left the bar with one of the french exchange students that I...
July 31st, 2015
Life of Trauma
When I was 5 I was adopted with my brother and sister. That’s when the abuse started. There are a lot of memories that I have blacked out but I can’t get rid of everything. The abuse started with me since I was the oldest. At that time I just...
July 31st, 2018
Supe que fue un abuso cuando ya...
Cuando tenia 5-6 años, no recuerdo la edad exacta, un primo mio de unos 17 años solia sentarme en sus piernas y frotarse sus partes conmigo. Nunca intentó tener relaciones conmigo pero fue algo que me afectó por años. No sabía si debía contarlo o no porque no sabía ni...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
April 16th, 2018
He doesn’t even know he raped me
I was very drunk one night at a party and as I swiped through my tinder I matched with this boy. He messaged me really quickly and told me he was a senior and that he thought I was pretty and that we should hang out. I was really drunk...
May 31st, 2018
Attempted Rape
My mom survived an attempted rape while babysitting! Never got a college degree but badass! She’s the reason I’m a feminist! Thank you Linor for sharing yours!
February 8th, 2016
Step Dad
I was 6 years old when it started.. My mom got together with this guy she went to work with he was honestly the nicest guy ever!!! He spoiled my sister and I and talked about adopting us from our dad. Then he went to prison… The first year he...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
April 6th, 2018
Was it rape if he’s my boyfriend?
In retrospect, we are a happy, normal couple. My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years, what feel like less. I love him and he adores me. He loves me. He respects me. I think? So I may have had too much to drink one night when the...
אוף ! ממש קשה לי לספר את זה כי לא מדברים על זה נכון? אבל כל כך רציתי להוציא את זה ממני שחיפשתי לא מעט עד שמצאתי את האתר שלך ששיתפת אותו בסרט. בעידודה של הבחורה שכתה את המדריך לנאנסת…-לא אהבתי את השם אבל זה רעיון נחמד. נשמע מוזר אבל...
August 13th, 2018
Every one ignored me
Two days after Christmas last year 2017, my soon to be ex husband came into my home and raped me. He was furious I had been seeing someone else, tho we had been separated since September of that year, but he spent our entire 8 years seeing other women. We...
May 1st, 2016
Don’t Know What I’m Doing
I think I was 6 or 7 years old when my brother started touching the private parts of my body. There was never actually any penetration. I was kind of forced to touch him too. We played some games. Back then I didn’t think there was something wrong with that....
July 3rd, 2015
Family Rape
One night when I was 12, my cousin came over to spend the night while my parents were out. I kinda was sexually attracted to him so when he was laying down I messed with him and soon he got an erection. I played with it for a little and...
March 23rd, 2016
An Abnormal Reaction
So this entire story starts at the beginning of this summer. Before the summer started I had been dating around and seeing a few guys casually but there was no one I liked. All of these endeavors were super innocent as we would do things like go to the movies...
March 8th, 2015
His Masterpiece
When I was 15 I became very close to my uncle because I felt he was the only one who understood me. I loved him so much. We were best friends and never in a million years did I ever think of him in any other way other than my...
June 27th, 2014
The Monster With The Pretty Smile
I was in grade nine when I lost something that can never be returned. I just want to make it clear that I do not want anyone’s pity, or empathy. I don’t want people to say “that poor girl how could someone do something like that to her?” What’s done...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
January 9th, 2017
Raped and Almost Raped and Harassed
I was raped a week before I was almost raped by my neighbor. I was inebriated and hurt physically. My neighbor who sexually assaulted me is harassing me. It would have been rape had I not had the presence of mind I had. I reported it to the police but...
May 16th, 2018
By my friend
I was hanging with my friend from school. We are both in a mainstream learning disabled program. We were in my room playing a console game. He was excited as he won fight after fight. Without any warning, he threw me down on the rug, and removed my sweat pants....
September 21st, 2015
Raped By a Family Member
I was sexually abused twice by a cousin when I was 8 years, although I do not remember anything from my childhood this painful event has been in my mind since it happened, I can remember everything: colors, smells, ambiances. Years passed by and somehow I got close to this...
June 24th, 2014
Multiple Times
Raped by a caregiver at 6 years old and then again after he was released from captivity. Second rape was also kidnapping and stabbing to punish me for telling the first time. I almost died. I blocked the trauma from my memory. My mother tried to get me help but...
September 11th, 2018
Still Terrified
I was scared to write this. But, since I cannot settle my mind, I thought I would just go ahead and write so that I can clear my head and hopefully ease this pressure off my chest. You should know, if I may say, this is not easy, actually it...
January 17th, 2016
No Justice
I was 15 when I got raped. I consented at first, I mean it was supposed to be a rebound that’s how I got to the guys house. I met him through others. And he lived near a place that I volunteered for. Everyone told me he’s insane, but I...
July 11th, 2017
I Was Prepared
After my divorce, I moved to protect myself. I got a .32 automatic and took NRA lessons to qualify. I clipped a holster to the side of my purse for access. I had a CS(tear gas), military grade(illegal in my state, but who checks?), clipped to my strap. I took...
April 15th, 2018
The children are the priority here
Thank You for Speak Out/Share Your Story, you are an Inspiration! My husband is a trucker and spends days to weeks on the road crossing the country. He feels bad about leaving us for so long, but he does it to be an excellent provider. It was a Sunday night....
September 29th, 2017
Alcohol
I recently went through a very hard time in my life and I turned to alcohol. It was my coping mechanism, it helped me through the darkness. I knew it wasn’t the right thing to do but I continued to do it against everyone’s wishes. I finally started getting better,...
January 4th, 2018
Sexual Assault
I had been off and on with this guy for about a year. He was my best friend, I loved him, and used to be one of the most important people in my life. We had broken up after about a 4 month span of trying to date, but decided...
October 15th, 2018
My message to all
As I heard the news that Kavanaugh made it into the supreme court, my heart sank. My husband, who follows politics relentlessly, was furious but I was silent and went on with my day. Getting angry would mean that I would have to really think about what this event means...
October 2nd, 2017
Everyone loves him
I’ll make this short because he’s still here and I’m not going to escape. Writing this as I’m visiting with a friend because she has access to the internet and usually, I just don’t. The first time I met him I was fifteen, and it was facilitated by my mother....
I was really tired one night. I fell asleep and woke up later in the night. I walked downstairs to get a drink. When I walked in the kitchen, my assistant principal was standing there. I was really scared. I tried to run, but he was right behind me. He...
August 6th, 2015
I Don’t Even Know
I started counseling December 3, 2014. I’ve know since the 6th grade that I was sexually assaulted as a young girl. But It was fuzzy. I couldn’t remember much of anything. I told my guidance counselor, who then brought in my mother. She cried. A lot. Then she called my...
August 24th, 2009
חיה בשני עולמות מקבילים
מאיפה בכלל מתחילים לרשום את הסיפור שלי כשמרגישה שלא משנה כמה אני ירשום- זה פשוט לא יהיה מספיק. אני חיה בתוך הסוד הזה כבר שנים רבות- רבות מדי. אני בת 25, לאחרונה סיימתי את התואר הראשון שלי. למרות הכאב שאני חייה בחיי- לאורך השנים תמיד וידאתי שאת כל הכוחות שלי...
November 15th, 2017
Ride from the Concert
I had tickets to a concert, and took a good girl friend. While there, we hooked up with 2 guy friends. We did a few recreational pharmaceuticals, more than a few. They offered to ride us home, and we went, why not? Well, they pulled into a park, and the...
March 23rd, 2016
A Lifetime
My unfortunate store started when i was 8 yrs old. My mother had just married a man she had only known a very short time (5 months). He started molesting me within days of the wedding and slowly progressed to rape. I was to scared to tell anyone until i...
August 8th, 2018
sexual assault
I was twelve years old and in 7th grade.. My mom was involved with a man who we used to call uncle… I thought he was a great man.. I always asked for money and he will give it to me.. I did not know that he was planning something...
January 5th, 2017
Out of Control
I’m a 19 y/o freshman in college, and this was the first New Years Eve that I haven’t spent with my parents. I went with two of my friends to a frat party at our state college. I told my parents I was staying at a girl friends dorm afterwards,...
June 9th, 2015
It’s A Long Story
The first time I was raped I was 7, it was my next door neighbor. I trusted him naively. I trusted him like I trusted everyone I met. I didn’t know what some people were capable of, I didn’t understand. I went next door, I wanted to see his sister,...
September 9th, 2015
He Was a Cop
Just writing this brings tears to my eyes. It’s still so raw to me even if it was two years ago. I was 18 and I started dating this cop I had make at my gas station job after he’d contacted me on Facebook. I’d liked him for so long...
July 29th, 2016
Once When I Was 6, Once When...
I am a 19 year old girl. I am a lot of things. I am kind. I am honest. I am respectful. I am caring. I am loyal. I am smart. I am everybody’s rock to lean on. I am an athlete. I am a scholar. I am a future...
March 15th, 2017
It’s still happening
This past December I was raped by a guy from my school. I went to his place and he raped me on his couch 4 separate times. I didn’t know where I was and neither was I able to use my phone because it had died. 2 months later, my...
March 12th, 2016
Siblings
I was 10 when my mom got married her and my dad were together for 15 years then all of a sudden broke up when I was about 6. I was there only child and my mom was pregnant by my step dad who had an older son that came...
January 20th, 2017
Ready to Share
I was 18 years old. As with many of these stories, I was a freshman in college. I was drunk. It is embarrassing to admit that I was so drunk that I fell off of a 5′ loft bed into a mini fridge, resulting in a moderate to severe concussion...
September 7th, 2009
הסיפור שלי…
במשך 3 שנים עברתי התעללות מינית מצד בן דוד, הוא היה נוגע בי ואונס אותי יום אחרי יום ואני לא התנגדתי ולא אמרתי כלום… פשוט נתתי לי לו לעשות הכל… אף אחד לא ראה.. הוא איים עליי לא לספר ותמיד אמר שהוא אוהב אותי ושזה משחק רק של שנינו… כל...
June 9th, 2016
Just Another Night
On September 31st I was raped. Very few people know this about me. I’m too scared to tell anyone. How do I even tell someone? How do I handle the way my parents would look at me knowing? My friends? How could I go to the police? Tell my story...
November 7th, 2017
Sexual Assault in my own bed
I was messing around with my ex. I know I shouldn’t have but my friends told me to have fun be a teenager. So I was doing just that. We were friends with benefits. Most of it was just kissing and touching. It was the day that my parents were...
June 17th, 2014
Seis Años
A los seis años fui a la fiesta de una tia buela una de las tantas reuniones que hacen en mi familia y cuando fui al baño el hijo de esa tia me llevo a su cuarto y abuso de mi yo trate de llamar a mi mama pero tenian...
July 1st, 2016
The Cliche
Rape is an ugly word. Short, finite, guttural. The word reflects its own nature, the lasting impact a few moments can have on your life. And yet often so many of us refuse to use it. For so many years I did. Because I thought of rape as an extreme...
September 7th, 2015
University Bar
I was in my university student bar with a friend visiting from home- we had decided to let loose one final time before exams and got incredibly drunk. Upon arriving at the ‘Club Night’ in my SU we were waiting at the bar and met some guys. From what I...
You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
October 22nd, 2017
I can’t remember if I said yes...
I feel really embarrassed posting this, because this story is different than a lot of stories on here. But I had been going on dates with this guy and staying at his parents house and solely just falling asleep together, nothing sexual. I told him I only sleep with someone...
March 27th, 2018
“I’m not gonna have sex with you”
I think about it all the time. The feeling of my legs shaking afterwards and the rest of the night. The mark that was left on my neck. The wave of confusion that I was left with. The feeling of shame and disappointment I had in myself for letting him...
August 19th, 2017
A sociopath in disguise
It was a coworker. I was 23. It started almost a year ago. We were both in relationships, there was flirting but what I felt to be harmless. It became a friendship, an odd bond with an odd guy, something was off but I assumed it was his rough child...
August 20th, 2009
my story
אני בת 28, נשואה ואם לילד. עברתי פגיעה מינית מתמשכת, מגיל 9, ועד גיל 13.5, מאדם בגיל של הורי אני לא אוהבת לקרוא לעצמי “שורדת” כי בחיים יש הרבה יותר מזה כיום, בעיצומו של תהליך החלמה ושיקום, אני פעילה בארגוני נשים שונים, ביניהם מרכז הסיוע לנפגעות תקיפה מינית בישראל תודה...
May 19th, 2015
BFF’s Husband
Sometime during the night of November 20, 2010, I was raped. Not by a stranger or an evil villain hiding in some dark alley that caught me off guard and raped then beat me and left me for dead. No, I was raped by someone I knew, and not just...
January 5th, 2015
Stolen Innocence
My mother and father got divorced when I was two years old. My mother was a single mom with two kids so she was always working trying to make ends meet and making sure we had food in our tummies. I admire my mother for this. My father remarried, had...
May 30th, 2014
Sexual Abuse
Hola. Tengo 25. La primera vez que fue abusada sexualmente fue por mi abuelo, yo tenía 7 u 8 años, cuando él me llamó a su habitación y me preguntó que si yo sabía besar, y yo le dije que no. Desde ahí empezaron una serie de actos desagradables. Cada...
February 10th, 2016
Family Ties
When I was 17, I was on holiday with my dad, step mum and step brother. Everything was going great until one night when my dad and his wife went to bed early leaving me and Stephen alone. At first everything was normal, I was on one side of the...
September 27th, 2016
Multiple Times
I have been raped more than once. And unfortunately, some people start blaming the victim after the first time it happens. And unfortunately I rarely talk about this because it takes a piece of me every time I talk about what has happened. The first time I was raped, I...
July 1st, 2014
I’m Doing You a Favor
I was 7 years old when we moved into my step-father’s house. Around that time he pulled me into his dark bedroom and whispered that there was something very important he wanted to show me. My mom had just left the room to go downstairs and make dinner for us....
October 13th, 2014
Kept From Us
My mom’s side of the family is my family through and through. There’s about 60 of us that get together every major holiday since before I was born. We call each other of the phone and talk on Facebook. We are all really close. We all love each other and...
January 27th, 2017
The Man Who Never Was
I would like to go back to December 19th of 2016, the charming man I met all in black, his hair down and his fedora hat, the man who has this smile, this look in his eyes, who danced with me, and said hurry up guys this girl and I...
March 8th, 2017
Childhood trauma
I’m french so I’m sorry if my english is not good. I was undergo sexual assault by my father when I was about 6 years old. Between 11 and 13 years old, I was undergo sexual harassment and abuse every day at school. I tried to kill my self at...
June 13th, 2014
He Was My Family
I was molested by my cousin when I was 10. We all lived in the same home. I was staying up late to watch tv and he was in the family room. He asked me to sit on his lap and watch a show. I didn’t think anything of it....
April 12th, 2016
Embrace It All
Hello fellow survivors. I want to share a key moment in my recovery process after I was raped by a stranger in a hotel because I hope that it will help you with the process of going through all the guilty feelings and the stages of grief (just like when...
August 11th, 2014
Forever Changed
I’m 16, this happened to me when I was 14 and he was 15, I’m going to call him A.It was my freshman year. New school, new house, and new state. It all started when my biology teacher moved everyone around. When I sat down at this desk, I saw...
April 18th, 2015
Stranger Rape
Hi, I’m Nye-Emah and it was kinda weird how it happened 5 months ago. It was my birthday i turned 12. So. I went to my BFF. We was going to hang at the park. While we were there were strange men was there too. So we payed no attention...
January 28th, 2017
I Trusted Him
I was 15 at the time. He was 17. We had been dating for about six months, when he started to ask for sex. Being young I would say no. He would accept it normally. Sometimes he would touch me in places I didn’t want to be touched. I would...
September 1st, 2014
My Two Rapes
It’s taken me about 15 years to call my 1st time having sex what it really was-rape. As a mental health therapist who’s trained to know what abuse, sexual assault, rape is I’m not quite sure why it’s taken me this long. Maybe it’s because of my culture’s confusion about...
January 20th, 2017
Ashly’s story
I found this website, and it has been just so helpful reading other stories I don’t feel so alone. All these survivors so strong. When I was first rapped I didn’t know it was rape I thought it was my fault and I told myself, well you put yourself in...
August 6th, 2014
Football Player
he guy who raped me was a 17 year football player & I was a 15 year virgin. I newly had been dating another boy but had kissed this football player a few times in the previous months at parties. On this night, he led me to his truck during...
August 24th, 2009
כמוני כמוך
מחזקת את ידיך. כמוני כמוך, כמו כל החברות שלי, אין אישה בישראל שלא עברה הטרדה מינית / תקיפה מינית / אונס או גילוי עריות.
July 10th, 2017
Naive girl
I was 17 years old and just started dating this guy, X. First guy that I had ever dated. I didn’t know what was right and what was wrong at that time, trying to live life to the fullest during my high school days. So, when he invited me to...
October 9th, 2015
I Thought He Loved Me
I was sixteen and in a relationship with my ex boyfriend. We were only dating for a couple months at the time but I loved him already. We had many mutual friends and we lived in the same city. He treated me like a princess. He would buy me nice...
March 15th, 2017
I Blame Myself
I’ve never really came around to tell many people about my story, only because I’m always too embarrassed to repeat the horrid things that happened this night, but I think it’s time to finally share it. A couple of years ago, it was my senior year in high school. Everything...
June 21st, 2016
Last Party
I was a freshman in college at a school only a short distance from my home staying on campus to get the “full college experience”. I was never big on going out to parties because I had no interest in getting in trouble, and I hate the taste of beer....
April 10th, 2018
Raped by my grandfather
I have always hated him. He treated me differently than he did my cousins and younger siblings. One night, I was staying with my aunt and my mom had called me asking if I knew anything about him touching a neighbor and friend of mine who lived a floor below...
October 23rd, 2017
I want to Call it what it...
I am a Business Major at a prestigious University in Eastern Pennsylvania. I do drink, not usually too heavy, and only on the weekend. This weekend, I had a mixed drink that was stronger than it seemed. I went over my, I thought, friend’s apartment, and had a beer to...
December 20th, 2017
I’m a functioning alcoholic
My story started with sexual abuse from a girlfriend when I was 5 (I am also female). I assume that she was sexually abused from her brothers or her father at a young age considering she knew what “going down on someone” was at the age of 5. What proceeded...
September 5th, 2016
I Remember How It Felt
I remember how it felt. The way he violently caressed my hips as he vividly pressured my body firmly onto his. I was innocently walking back to the parking lot to get to my car because the movie I was watching had just finished. The normal parking lots near the...
June 15th, 2015
Careful What You Wish For
When I was just 6 years old my biological dad walked out on my family. It was devastating, and for the next 5 years my mum would have boyfriends in and out of the house. I was a lonely child and I didn’t have very many friends, I was desperate...
September 22nd, 2015
My Sexual Assault Story
My name is Sofía, I’m nineteen years old. I was born in México, 1996. At the age of 9 my parents split up, my mother and I moved to another city and by the time I was 10 my parents were divorced. My mom proceeded to take me to a...
October 3rd, 2016
That One Night
I can remember so many things about that one night so clearly. I went to have dinner at a friend´s house because we were going to the pub later to celebrate another friend´s 21st birthday. I was wearing a black dress. I usually don´t wear dresses when I go out....
October 1st, 2015
I Barely Knew Them
When I was 15, I went to the parade for my local fire department with my best friend. I was in good spirits, and the day seemed to be going well. As it was getting dark, my friend and I met this group of 4 guys in the park, and...
June 6th, 2016
It’s Been Eight Years
The first time I was raped I was around seven years old. It was by my older cousin. After I kept saying no, he said he would do it to my sister. So I protected her. I was fourteen when he stopped. I’m fifteen now, and had around three months...
June 19th, 2018
I am a survivor
The first time I was molested I was about 4 years old. I barely remember it. My birth mother was very poor and lived with who I’m assuming was a boyfriend or pimp. He used to take me in the bedroom and tell me to take off all my clothes....
January 2nd, 2016
Despedida
Hola soy una mujer de 31 años. Viví una situación muy confusa cuando era niña casi 9 o 10 años. Mis padres nos dejaban vacacional en la casa de mis abuelos que nos cuidaban, nos consentían con golosinas, ver televisión y jugar. Una tarde ya para llegar la noche nos...
October 12th, 2016
Happy Hell-oween
I was 20 years old, invited to a party on a Southern California Marine base. My cousin invited me, her boyfriend was in the service. so I figured that it would be fun and safe. I was excited, I bought a new costume and got dressed up. When I got...
July 26th, 2016
Hope for Healing
I was about 19 years old. I couldn’t sleep and I had been seeing a man who lived in another town. I decided that I would get an early start and hitchhike to see him. Two men picked me up. They were friendly at first, asking questions. They were both...
September 28th, 2015
Continue to Survive
I was molested at 2, I remember waking and going to sleep with older boy on top of me, but I was also molested by my father until I was 6, I Kept That From happening to my sister. If you knew back than the highlight of my life was...
May 7th, 2018
Surviving sexual assault trauma
Tonight, I was reading a book called full frontal feminism. I felt empowered and strong until I reached a certain chapter. The chapter was about sexual assault and domestic violence. I could feel a ping in my heart as I began reading because I knew it would bring back up...
February 12th, 2018
My Boyfriend
It happened freshman year of high school during my first relationship. It started by being pressured into doing sexual acts even though I told him I didn’t want to. He would make me feel terrible about myself until I did what he asked me to do. By this point I...
December 6th, 2014
My Own Sister
t was my freshman year of college and I had just broken up with an emotionally abusive boyfriend from back home. I was upset and angry and also feeling liberated because I could finally do what I wanted. So I went to a party with a couple friends. While I...
August 6th, 2015
En Enero de 2010
No se como contar algo que todavia duele, que todavia me mata un poco cada día. En enero de 2010 fui violada por un hombre que no consigo acordarme de su rostro, pero si de su voz y ese recuerdo me acopaña hasta ahora. Mis padres nunca supieron de nada,...
March 30th, 2016
From Scared Girl to Strong Mother
Though I’m sure I experienced some type of sexual abuse as a child younger than 6, I cannot recount those memories. I do recall being overly sexual by the time I was 6 years old. I do, also, recall hating being around my aunts boyfriend (who I later found out...
November 13th, 2017
Bad Morning
I woke up next to this guy. I don’t know what we did. I didn’t stay to find his name. I am in pain. I am not a virgin. I left him a post-it with my contact info. I need a call to discuss this. I want to back up...
May 26th, 2018
BoR Amendment VI – Protecting Rapists in...
Where are my rights? How is it that the accused enjoy so many privileges under our Bill of Rights, yet victims are hung to dry. A non-intimate person that I know broke into the room I was sleeping and tried to rape me 3 times. He was forcibly removed from...
February 11th, 2016
Longest Prayers of My Life
I was like 9 or 10 years old. A friend of mine was moving to Nogales Sonora so she invited another friend and me to the city. two adult uncles of my friend were staying in her house, and one night her uncles slept in the room where we were...
February 20th, 2018
My Story
I was 16 when I had my first kiss, 17 when I met my first boyfriend and lost my virginity. I was a shy girl, the one who blended into the background amongst her more attractive friends. Dennis was tall, blonde and exotic- All of us were drawn to him....
December 17th, 2014
Stand Strong
My heart goes out to all the survivors sharing. I was drugged and raped over 25 years ago as a girl. My friend, her father was a very sick abusive man who was drugging her and others and photographing abuse. It was truly horrific. There were two against me and...
May 17th, 2015
Incapacitated Still
When I was about 6 or 7 years old one me and my oldest first cousin male who is 7 years older then me was play wrestling. Then he said let me do something… At this point he started hunching me from behind. It went on for a little while...
August 19th, 2009
היי לינור
היי אני מקווה שאכן תקראי אותי. גם אני עברתי חוויות דומות, כאלה ואחרות בחיי מ 8 אנשים מהמשפחה. זה הבלוג שלי אם תרצי לעיין http://www.tapuz.co.il/blog/userblog.asp?foldername=bubaa&passok=yes אשמח אם תצרי איתי קשר במייל את חזקה! כל הכבוד לך *חיבוק*
December 17th, 2016
What Happened?
I was 4 years old. My Aunt and her friend (male) abducted me. This was in the 60’s – before anyone thought of Amber Alerts. Apparently the kept in some form of contact with my mother during this time there is even a picture of me on the phone apparently...
August 24th, 2016
Always the Girls Fault
He was my best friend. I had known him nearly a couple months then he started flirting with me. By that stage we were inseparable best friends. It started with asking for pictures which i gave into 3 times, hoping he’d stop. He did. The first time he asked me...
July 1st, 2014
7th Grade Assault
I am in 10th grade. 15 years old. It has been 3 years since my rape. I was 13, in 7th grade, still figuring myself out. During this time, I was going to a new school, a high school and middle school combined. I had recently been fitted for hearing...
June 3rd, 2021
he made me loose hope in love…
I met this boy soon after leaving a long term relationship.. I was heartbroken and had my guard down when we began dating. Our relationship started as innocent “hookups” and turned into more. But he quickly became abusive. In my words i would say, he treated me like a piece...
July 6th, 2016
First “Real” Boyfriend
I was a late bloomer, sexually. I didn’t explore my sexuality with anyone until I was sixteen years old, with my first serious boyfriend in high school. I had never done anything with anyone until him. I started to feel comfortable and safe when we would fool around. A week...
September 12th, 2014
Molested
I was a young girl 8 my aunt’s husband started touching me then showed me his penis. I was scared to tell my parents. My dad would have killed him. I think there are things I can’t remember sometimes it like a bad movie in my head. I am a...
December 16th, 2014
Molestation
I was raped, and molested at the age of 7. It is a very long story, but I played with my neighbors and their uncle is the one who did this to me. It was brought to the attention of a police women and our parents whom brushed it under...
November 21st, 2016
Exploitation Was My Lifestyle
When I was 14, my parents got a divorce because my mom had an affair. her boyfriend moved in with us and I just wanted to be away from home. always. i had older sisters but they had moved out to college. i was alone. my mother was too busy...
August 30th, 2016
Forgotten Memories Submerge
I’m 21 years old, but my story begins from when I was 6 years old. My parents were not really involved in what was going on in my life, and simply, not interested. I was sexually abused spanning from age 6; 10; and 11. The incidents from when I was...
June 26th, 2018
Broken vase
A few weeks ago I was raped one Saturday night. It was by someone who I love dearly, and I want to trust completely- my boyfriend. We had become intimate and more affectionate with each other, and up until this point it was consensual and within my boundaries. We had...
I have no memories before rape. The first memory I have is being raped at 3 years old by my mom’s boyfriend and his dealer cousins. My first memories are of anguish and confusion. Broken trust and a broken body. That wouldn’t be the last time my mother allowed others...
July 14th, 2016
I Thought I was Safe
I was in class and I thought I was safe. It was my freshman year of high school and it was the week of finals. We didn’t have a final in that class so all of us got to play games. I sat next to him bc my friend was...
April 22nd, 2017
These Men are More Protected Than We...
I can’t tell names. I can’t publicly announce who they were because they’re protected by a law that says I could be sued for defamation. This makes me so angry! I was the one that was harassed, manipulated, attacked. And yet every one of them walks free. These men. Many...
I realized I was holding shame of when I was molested from a childhood friend at age 8. She was a child herself that was brutally molested. For years I held anger towards her then let that go. Then held anger towards her abuser. We were children who both had...
January 9th, 2018
Being Done
My young childhood was mostly good. My mom, who did 80% of the parenting, died unexpectedly when I was 10. My dad attacked me from ages 12-15. My younger brother and I were in and out of the foster care system (we got sent back to him). Mercifully, we were...
August 1st, 2017
Do you remember your first time?
Do you remember your “first time”? That special moment you shared with someone who loved you. Did you feel safe? Comfortable? Was it his first time too? Did it come natural to you, or was it as awkward as people say it can be? These are all questions I will...
December 3rd, 2016
From Heaven to Hell
This all started when I was in the 8th grade, I met my now ex boyfriend Matt C. who I dated for about four years leading up to my junior year in high school. I’ve know Matt since we were very little, we went to the same elementary so I...
June 26th, 2014
Afraid of Being Judged
When I was 18 years old I was like a lot of young women-dating, trying out relationships, making mistakes. My biggest mistake was to trust a “friend.”. We had a passionate relationship at the start. We were both college freshman, I had a long-distance boyfriend that wasn’t working out-and we...
מרגיש מכני נושא הסיפור: והסיפור: כלכך ישיר לנושא כלכך מורכב אני שכנה שלך ממש חדשה ברחוב הסחלב 96 רמת פולג בעלך עבד עם חבר שלי שמנהל את הקפה קפה באמנון ותמר 6 (של אבא שלי) הסיפור שלי כזה הייתי ילדה שמחה מאוד ואז זה הפסיק פעם אחת קצרה ,אבל כלכך...
June 15th, 2014
Innocence
I was raped repeatedly at the age of 8 by a neighbor teenager right after my mother had left our family, and I was sexually molested by a man who was 22 years older than me, a trusted father figure within a small religious community, when I was 16. I...
September 28th, 2017
Nobody believed me
I’m not going to state the relationship I had with this boy but I was around six. I’ll call him x so x one day took me into a room. And started touching me. X was much older than I was and I was a scrawny little girl. X continued...
April 16th, 2018
I let it happen twice
The first time I was raped, it was St. Patrick’s Day. I was 19. A friend invited me to a house party with her boyfriend and his friends. The house was just off a county road that led straight into my hometown. I was one of the last people outside....
October 8th, 2017
Dream / Recall
I was running running running Past the halls, the screams, the stairs My hand was busy on something -Probably the piece of glass I used to cut him. And then she ripped her necklace off Just as they ripped out clothes off Shattered glass -Another way of showing their power-She...
October 27th, 2017
It wasn’t my fault
It was my friends staggett and we crashed at her house after a fun night of celebrating her upcoming marriage. I fell asleep on her couch only to be awoken around 5:30am by her fiancé trying to unbutton my pants. I froze at that moment trying to figure out a...
August 18th, 2015
My Fiancé Destroyed Me
So, this is really not easy to me to. It still hurts so badly. I was raped by my fiancé, I was raped by my fiancé for 13 times. We started dating a little bit over a year ago. I was immediately in love with him. He was a gentleman,...
November 21st, 2013
I want my innocence back
I often feel as if I’m overreacting, that it wasn’t all that bad. Maybe I have even imagined or misremembered it, as I was drunk at the time; but the months leading up to it and my friend’s (drunken) memories should be enough as proof, seeing that the police takes...
November 29th, 2016
James
I was 12 years old (now 21), I was naive, thinking nothing would ever happen to me. I started talking to guys I met online. Big mistake. ‘James’ would talk to me late into the night, when I was lonely and sad, he would always be there for me. I...
August 5th, 2015
A Victim No Longer
I am a survivor of sexual abuse. I am 19 years old. When I was 4 till I was in fourth grade my step father molested me. I loved him like he was my father for so many years. He took so much of my innocence from me. I remember...
January 23rd, 2016
My Stepdad Molested Me
Three months ago when I was still 17, I lived in Arizona but went with my stepdad to visit family in Delaware. We were staying at my nana’s house while she was on vacation. The only other person in her house was her dog sitter. My stepdad was very strict...
It has been with me since I’ve known. I’ve hidden it since it happened, or at least so I thought. The night it happened I will never forget. We went to a party, too young but yet responsible young girls. It was supposed to have fun fight. Something happened however....
June 3rd, 2014
My Boyfriend Raped Me
My story I think is quite long, this is the first time I am writing it. I was raped, many times I do not know the number exactly, by my boyfriend of two years. I only realized it was rape after months in therapy trying to come to terms with...
March 9th, 2016
Once Again
At age 8, I was raped and beaten by my alcoholic grandfather. My mom having a mental illness was in the hospital so I had to live with my grandparents. My grandmother was sweet but she left for work 5 am and got home by 11pm. When she was gone...
December 4th, 2017
I’m so sorry
I’ve never told anyone my story- I brushed it to the side, hoping I’d find strength in myself to forget. I have a little sister, she needs someone to look up to- It can’t be me when I’m suffering. This exact day a year ago, my life changed forever- I...
February 26th, 2016
Stupid Coward
It began when my mother re-married and I suddenly got an older step brother. At first, I was delighted to have a new family member since I’ve always been a single child. We got along pretty well and we were pretty close, he would take me to shopping or to...
February 19th, 2016
Brother in Law
I was around 7 or 8 when this happened. My brother in law and step sister were watching me. I am not sure where my step sister was, but somehow I was in the bedroom/living room with my BIL and he started touching me and rubbing my legs. Then he...
September 3rd, 2014
לפני 14 שנים
והסיפור בעברית כי אני לא טובה לכתוב באנגלית!! דבר חשוב שיש לי לציין לפני שאני מתחילה לכתוב אני לא יודעת אנגלית טוב אני יודעת רק עברית אז מקווה שהתוכנה תתרגם נכון. שלום ראיתי את הסרט שלך והרגשתי צורך לכתוב לך את הסיפור שלי. כיום אני בת 16… זה קרה לפני...
July 7th, 2014
I Too Was Raped
I was raised in a very strict and religious household. In high school I would come to my mother and we would pray over the girls in my school that would have sex. I have always believed that sex is for marriage and marriage only. outside of marriage it is...
October 23rd, 2011
my story-and where i “took it”…
My story begins when I was 5 or 6…. my parents best friends had a son a few years older than me…. at some point he started molesting me… every time his parents came over or we went over to their house… it started out “easy”.. like he would only...
February 5th, 2018
I am a different me
After watching the Simone Biles Movie and seeing the #metoo movement all over I feel it is time to put this out there… I feel like a great disaster. I am so proud of myself for the things I have battled through. On a daily basis I go through cycles...
January 22nd, 2017
2-4 am on January 15th
Its almost Cliche, the way it starts out. I was out clubbing with friends, got too drunk, and was taken advantage of. There was a pre-party, and I had three drinks there. Everyone else was going out clubbing, and i was unsure of what i wanted to do. A friend...
March 6th, 2018
I should have never meet my biological...
I came from a bad home. I new i was not my stepdads biological duaghter. He made that clear. Eldest of eight kids at the time all were his own blood. My mother was addicted to drugs and in and out of the home. We were isolated from the extended...
October 14th, 2017
Raped as a child and teen
I am very passionate about victim’s rights and that they should be able to speak out without worrying about others. But I am a hypocrite. Let me start by saying that I now have a family who adopted me and would never let anything like this happen to me. When...
August 25th, 2016
Happy Birthday
I fell asleep on a couch of my friend, coworker, and tutor. I knew his place to be a safe one. I even knew his roommate, a friend I’ve known since elementary school. I woke up in his bed on my stomach with his on my back inside of me....
April 14th, 2017
A Stong Woman
I just wanted and needed to tell you a story if I hadn’t told you already, please feel free to talk about the shame, the hurt, the life changing experience I endured. Did I ever tell you the story about the 3 year old little girl who was molested almost...
Mi hermano mayor abusaba de mi,me violaba,desde pequeño,yo tenía 7, 8, 9 años de edad,le decía a mis padres y no me hacían caso,decían que era para llamar la atención, pero en mis recuerdos esto no era así, lo tengo muy presente todo el tiempo,cuando tu e edad para confrontarlo,...
June 23rd, 2014
Marital Rape
I myself experienced rape but it is a very different type and a very unique situation that made it hard for me to really know how to handle it at first. I was raped by my husband. It is one of those subjects that is a gray area where the...
September 12th, 2016
Disappointed
I’m not entirely sure what guys want. If I text my boyfriend good morning and appreciate him when he does something kind, I can put a smile on his face. If I study hard and be respectful and loving, I can make my dad light up. If I work out...
June 23rd, 2014
When I Was 8 Years Old
It is a miracle I am alive. I come from a family in which my step mother and father molested, raped and raised me behind closed doors with the secret of rape… Among the dinner parties with friends and family around.. my brother and I suffered in silence. We had...
February 20th, 2017
I Slept Next to Him
During the summer of ’16 I went out downtown like I always did. I went out with two friends and I had been talking to this guy who kind of had an appearance of a “thug” but he was a genuine person. He talked to me for hours, we talked...
I had met this guy through my brother in law. Since I had met him he sexually assaulted me before but I ended up liking him & went on a date with him. We were at a party & I had a few glasses of wine. The same night I...
July 1st, 2016
Don’t Belive Your Cousins
When I was 12 years old, I went in my uncle’s house to celebrate my birthday after eating dinner. We slept in a bedroom (in uncle’s house)with my cousins, my sister & big brother. My big brother would take me in the garage & he attempted rape with me. Every...
August 8th, 2018
When will it be enough?
Why is it not enough? Why is my reluctance not enough to make you stop? Why is my “no” not enough? Why is my “no no no” not enough? Why are my clawing, shoving, desperately-trying-to-pull-my-pants-up hands not enough? Why is my cry of “oh god make it stop, please make...
I can still remember it so clearly. The taste of alcohol on my breath the morning after. The humiliation I was putting myself through. I couldn’t bring myself to accept it, I had read about it before and had even taken an online class before attending college, I remember thinking...
September 18th, 2014
You Were Suppose To Protect Me
I was…young. Five or six when my brother raped me. I didn’t know what was going on. He had just pulled me into this small hallway that connected the bedroom hallway and kitchen. He had pulled out his penis and told me to touch it. Told me to pump it...
July 21st, 2014
ללינור היקרה
היי לינור, קוראים לי אוריאן אני בת 16 מתל אביב. אני כותבת לך מכתב זה כי אני מעריכה אותך ורואה בך מודל לחיקוי. האומץ שבך,האסרטיביות,הכוח רצון,החוזק שיש בך נותנים לי כוח ורצון להמשיך הלאה. את אישה מדהימה ליונר, את לקחת את הכוח שיש לך לדברים טובים,לעזרה לזולת,ואני מתכוונת לכך שכשזכית...
Cuando tenía 23 años de edad empecé a trabajar con el ejército de mi país por 6 meses. Allí conocí a un teniente que al principio nos llevábamos bien, conversábamos, etc. Teníamos las habitaciones continuas. Un día, él me llamó y él estaba dentro de su habitación, yo no pensé...
January 3rd, 2015
No One Believes Me
I was raped when I was 4 or 5 years old. It has affected me terribly all these years but because I kept it a secret no one believes me. I love my husband very much but I hate sex because of my past. I’ve told him my story but...
February 10th, 2018
Is Healing Possible?
I don’t know why I’m writing this here, I probably should have written it in my diary like I use to. I was sexually assaulted when I was a child, molestations most times, attempted gang rapes sometimes. I succeeded in blocking out the memories throughout my teenage years but the...
My name is Gina and I was 20 years old when it happened. He was my boyfriend at the time, I loved him and he loved me. It was why I stayed with him despite what he did. The first time it happened was at a get together at my...
September 7th, 2009
לדבר, להלחם, לנצח
לינור יקרה, בלי שתדעי ליוות אותי בשנים הקשות שלי. נאנסתי במשך שנים וכשאת סיפרת את הסיפור שלך אני הייתי בת 13. נתת לי את הכוח לספר את הסיפור שלי ולבקש עזרה. היום- יותר מעשור אחרי… ואחרי טיפול ארוך שנים ואין בוף עליות וירידות אני גאה לומר- ניצחתי. אני חיה. נהנת...
May 10th, 2018
That “man”
I was told to keep quite. I was told not to say anything. Whenever I bring it up I get silenced. Most people didn’t believe me at first. Only a handful believe me now. I struggle with this everyday and somedays are worst than others. I’ve been called a lier...
August 14th, 2016
You Were My Friend
Only 15 and happy to be seeing you after I had been on vacation for awhile. You and another friend of mine who was a girl. I was tired for I had not slept well the night before. We were all in your room eating nachos and watching tv just...
September 6th, 2016
What Should I Do?
Everything is very dream like to me, but it all started when I was about 4 years old. At that age, I didn’t know what sex was. My dad was never home, and I was afraid of my mom. I just don’t understand why my own uncle would do that...
October 22nd, 2017
I can’t remember if I said yes...
I feel really embarrassed posting this, because this story is different than a lot of stories on here. But I had been going on dates with this guy and staying at his parents house and solely just falling asleep together, nothing sexual. I told him I only sleep with someone...
January 15th, 2017
Ya perdoné pero nunca olvido
5 years ago I was raped sexually, today I only have the scar, I have healed but I have not forgotten and I will never forget it, I would love to help women, and because not even men who have been through this situation, it is not an easy path,...
October 4th, 2017
Spousal Rape
5 years ago, I was married to an extremely emotionally and mentally abusive man. After only a few months of marriage, I decided enough was enough and asked him for a divorce. He refused. I attempted to file the Court documents but he constantly evaded service. Over the course of...
June 24th, 2014
Multiple Times
Raped by a caregiver at 6 years old and then again after he was released from captivity. Second rape was also kidnapping and stabbing to punish me for telling the first time. I almost died. I blocked the trauma from my memory. My mother tried to get me help but...
June 13th, 2015
I Didn’t Know
So, I had this strange memory, I thought it was of a dream, but in it my best friend’s older brother was doing strange things to me. My young brain couldn’t comprehend it at the time, so I just set it aside. Many years later when I was having a...
June 29th, 2014
Never Got Over It
I am in my 40’s now, but I feel like a huge part of me is still stuck in the past! Every time something starts to go well in my life, I have a way of messing it up. I feel socially awkward, so I spend a lot of time...
January 20th, 2015
Glad To Say I’m A Survivor
I was 15 when it happened, He was my best friend.. Me and him would always walk to our other friends house together, As we were walking he started touching me, nothing big or anything, just a tap here, or there. then he grabbed my hand and asked me to...
February 4th, 2017
Thank you
Dear Brave Miss World Community, For the last two years I have had the privilege of reading and responding to many of your posts. It is an honor to hold space and watch healing unfold as survivors share their experiences, many for the first time. I wanted to take a...
July 8th, 2014
Impacted Forever
I was a private duty nurse taking care of a very critical patient. I was very foolish and trusted the Son that lived in the home. He was very kind and caring. I had been working there for over 6.5 months. One day the Son and 2 friends came in...
August 8th, 2018
sexual assault
I was twelve years old and in 7th grade.. My mom was involved with a man who we used to call uncle… I thought he was a great man.. I always asked for money and he will give it to me.. I did not know that he was planning something...
August 9th, 2016
The Night My Life Changed
I felt so lost and alone. It was so scary. My “friends” we’re having a party in one of the dorms so I thought I would go to hang out. It was cool in the beginning no pressure. Just drinking and eating and having a good time. Until things turned...
June 25th, 2014
Confronting My Step-Father
Although I was not raped by my step-father, I was sexually molested in our home when I was a teenager. For many, many years I turned my shame inward, believing I was somehow at fault. When I finally told my mother, she said that she believed me, but did nothing....
February 19th, 2018
Not just me
When I was in the 8th grade, I was taken advantage of by a boy a year older than me. It took me a year before speaking out, but I finally did. The police didn’t do much, I made a statement but never really heard back from that after that....
January 7th, 2016
Incest & Date Rape
As a young girl, from age 5-11, my stepfather repeatedly molested me when my Mom wasn’t around. I didn’t tell my Mom until I was 15, and she had divorced him. She still denies it ever happened. At 17, on the night I graduated from high school, I went to...
December 15th, 2014
A Child
I was abused as a 7 year old child by my uncle. It has taken me a along time to get where I am today. He made me touch him, and he touched me. I am now in the process of sending him to prison for what he has done....
March 14th, 2017
Surviving, Kinda
Help. God help me write this, but I think its time I let it out. This is my story about how a man who completely destroyed me within a matter of minuets, three times. At first I didn’t know it was rape. After years of abuse I just thought it...
June 16th, 2014
My Daughter’s Rape
My husband and I emigrated to Toronto from the uk in 2001 with our 2 daughters. Our youngest daughter, Abigail, was raped in 2005 whilst celebrating her graduation from high school. The tradition here is to go camping in a group the weekend after the graduation ceremony and prom. She...
I am 13 now, and I was 8 when it happened it was a normal day at school. I was in the library a boy came up to me told me the teacher needed me and to follow him we went out the back door that leed to the teachers...
August 12th, 2016
Young and Unaware
I’m 19 now and it took 4 years for me to process what had happened. I really only became aware of it 1 year ago. But when I was 14, I was dating a boy who was 17. I had lied about my age and he thought I was 15,...
November 7th, 2017
The Friend
2 years ago my boyfriend (now fiancé) and a mutual friend he worked with went to a concert. All of us had been drinking. On the way home I noticed my boyfriend texting someone. Of almost 9 months of dating I was furious to know he was texting with his...
August 3rd, 2017
Did I ask for it?
I am 22 and I am a survivor of 2 sexual assaults. The first takes place when I was young, perhaps around 5 or 6. My mum had gone out for the evening with a friend and so she had asked another of her friends to babysit for her. I...
May 29th, 2014
Mi Historia
hola tengo 38 años mi historia comienza cuando tenia 8 años mi padre murió y quedamos con mi madre en ese en toses vivíamos en el campo mi familia es numerosa somos 8 hermanos entre mujeres y hombre yo soy la numero 7 y mi hermana la numero 8 ella...
December 4th, 2017
Rape by Boyfriend
I never really told anyone the full extent of mine. I was in my first year of college and had severe body issues. I hated myself and was amazed when a couple of guys asked me out. I clicked with one guy and we started hanging out all the time....
July 18th, 2018
Healing takes time
Everything started of age 7 and lasted up to when I had turned 12. It’s a hard thing to talk about now that I look back at it, but if I learned one thing, it’s that releasing all that negativity helps spread light into oneself. At such a young age,...
“When I was 11 my older brother started raping me, clearly my barely pubescent vagina was not sophisticated enough to know this was a legitimate rape, seeing as after a few months of abuse I became pregnant. This was in the late 80′s and the system of bullshit that I...
June 23rd, 2014
Virgin Rape
In 1971, I was groomed/tricked by a male student from Chicago’s south side who was at a community college located in southeastern Washington State on a football scholarship. I was 18. I came from an abusive home: my mother mentally, emotionally and physically abused me from my age of 2...
July 24th, 2014
Repressed Memory
I feel like an impostor, like I might not even deserve this space, but I don’t know. I don’t remember anything but tiny bits from my childhood. Part of that is because the divorce from age 9-11 was so central to my life, partly because I think I have repressed...
June 25th, 2015
Just Friends
Three and a half years ago I experienced something pretty strange to say the least. I have only now come to the realization of what it actually could’ve been. I was kind of seeing a boy at the time, we were on and off, but another boy who lived across...
June 11th, 2025
Just Words
Just words. You have trouble talking about these things. You realize you have trouble talking about a lot of things. You remember being excited about your first job at Dairy Queen. One of your friends works there and you know a lot of people work there as a summer job....
July 21st, 2014
Undertones Throughout My Life
I was groomed as a child. A man rang my house phone and told me that he knew my mother. For talking to him and doing what he told me, my mum would get loads of money. I can’t remember exactly how I old I was, I think I was...
September 7th, 2009
עדיין מציק
וואו אני לא יודעת מאיפה להתחיל עברתי 3 מקרים וזה עדיין מציק אני בת 31 אמא ל2 ילדי מקסימים כשהייתי בת בערך 15 ליוויתי את חברה שלי הבייתה דרך איזו סימטה מוארת לפתע שמענו שמישהו הולך אחרינו הגברנו את קצב ההליכה וגם הוא הגביר ומכיוון שאני הייתי הכי קרובה אליו...
January 7th, 2016
Incest & Date Rape
As a young girl, from age 5-11, my stepfather repeatedly molested me when my Mom wasn’t around. I didn’t tell my Mom until I was 15, and she had divorced him. She still denies it ever happened. At 17, on the night I graduated from high school, I went to...
March 23rd, 2017
One Of Many
I was about 6 or 7, and I went to stay at a friends house. Her and I shared her brothers room that night, and for some reason I just could not sleep. So I lay there awake at 2:38 in the morning. The door opens and her oldest brother...
October 9th, 2017
My rape story
So my story is really weird and awkward, because it really goes back to when I was dating this guy in 9th grade 2 years ago who made it seem I always had to please him and make him happy and I mean we broke up eventually when he did...
May 8th, 2019
UNEXPOSED – AFTER 30 YEARS OF EXTREME...
Molestation 4-13, dissociation syndrome started, afraid 24/7, PTSD 10, black outs began & were triggered by the smell of certain foods or a male authorities voice. Attempted Rape 15, Physical Abuse 16-31, all my ex-boyfriends. Rape 18, also attempted suicide & started dancing because I needed extra money & no...
Although I was not raped until the age of 23 I need to start my story much earlier. When I was about 7 or 8, my older cousin, who was only one year older than me began touching me. At that age I don’t think I really understood what was...
July 27th, 2015
Raped By My Therapist
I am a survivor of childhood abuse including sexual abuse by my father. In 1995, when I was 40 yrs of age, I started talking about the abuse to a social worker in my doctor’s office. He told me that he was the ex partner and father of the children...
June 6th, 2015
I Was Only 7
I’m from a little town in Mexico (I apologize for my english) And my nightmare started when I was 7 years. I Was a little girl, a little happy girl… but when I started the school, my cousin, (a nephew from my father’s) raped me and changed everything. He was...
November 18th, 2014
De Los 6 a Los 12
Desperté con su aliento sucio y su lengua dentro de mi boca y, no entendí nada, quedé paralizada, tenía apenas 6 añitos y lo quería y admiraba… era mi abuelo. Esa noche, antes de irnos a la cama y con mi abuelo de visita, lloré desconsolada pues competíamos mis hermanos...
September 5th, 2010
גבר אלים וחולני
לקראת גיל 15 התחלתי לצאת עם בחור שהיה גדול ממני בשנה, לאחר חודשיים בערך ביחד הייתה בנינו מריבה מטופשת במהלך המריבה הוא נהייה אלים כלפי זאת הפעם הראשונה בעצם שהוא הרים עליי יד, הביא לי סטירה שהפילה אותי על הריצפה וכשאני שוכבת על הרצפה הביא לי מכה חזרה בבטן עם...
The first time I was raped I was about 7 years old, my uncle raped me in my grandmother’s house, he had previously assaulted my mother when he was younger and my mother was a kid. I was sleeping in my room with my cousin by my side, and I...
October 13th, 2015
Shattered Childhood
I have come to realize the extent of the damage, to me, to my soul, to my brain, because of childhood sexual abuse. Repeated sexual assaults. On me, on my child that I was, then. I can recall an assault when I was 2 yrs old. A repressed memory that...
July 31st, 2016
I Woke Up In The Tub
I woke up in the bathtub. With the shower running. My socks were on. My underwear between my legs. The alarm was going off. Something was wrong. Besides the socks. Besides the underwear. Besides the shower and the tub. Besides the pain. Don’t think about the pain. Something was wrong....
January 23rd, 2015
Who I Once Called My Father
I am afraid… I have never told anyone… I don’t know where to start… But it has to come… My story begins on March 20, 1997… the day I was born. Yes, I am only 17, still very young. Going back to the day I was born, I have no...
September 8th, 2015
The Day I Was Raped and Abandoned
1.9.07 It is the same every year. Every year the leaves turn, and there is that slight twinge in my leg, a hesitant reminder of times past. Every year as the winds change, there is that slight catch when you take a deep breath. A catch not from the cold...
February 23rd, 2016
My Story of Rape
i was raped when i was 17, six years ago. i was going through an extremely dark time in my life and was so desperate for love and affection and to feel like i was worth something that i snuck out of the house and walked six miles through a...
June 26th, 2017
Broken Car Broke Me
My ex-husband and I had been divorced for two years and I had not seriously dated anyone since. I had my fair share of wanted hook-ups, but nothing serious. Because of my divorce I decided to file bankruptcy, and in the process of I gave up my car. I saved...
April 16th, 2015
Wanted Love But Got Rape
Everyone thought that I was going through a bad breakup. And for a long time, I made myself believe it too. It was like losing a piece of my voice, my life, my skin, my heart, my soul. My mind became a place of torment that I could never escape....
February 1st, 2018
One in Four
I came into college knowing the horrifying statistics of rape, but I never thought that I would be the one in four. My night started like any other night of drinking and hanging out with my roommate, only this time our “friend” asked if he could come join us. We...
August 10th, 2015
Brothers
In 1971, I was a 19 year old college sophomore. I had been dating my boyfriend for about 4 months. He was only the second person with whom I had ever had sex. One night, he had a party at his apartment. He had invited his older brother, who was...
December 6th, 2015
A Fun Night
I was out with my girl friends in a bar where I met this guy from Brazil named Matheus. He introduced himself and asked me for a drink, while chatting he seemed to be interesting and intelligent person. Later we find out that we have a friend in common he...
College is about finding yourself, finding your friends and ,finding who you want to become. While there is more freedom that comes with the title of a college student, there is more adulting as well. The movies make college seem like an endless party where all the boys are cute...
January 3rd, 2014
Rape & Sexual Assault
This has gone on for too many years, not only to women but men too. The shame and guilt and fear kept me quiet for over 40 years.I let myself down as well as others. How to heal and speak out is something i need in order too move on...
The first time I was raped. I was 18, I never thought of it as rape until recently, but I guess it was. I’d been drinking and there just wasn’t a clear line of consent. I was too out of it to say yes or no. And the guy had...
I had been married for 9 years, when my husband and I decided to separate. I had gone out, and ran into a person that I always thought was cute, everyone knew, and was in the National Guard so why not trust him. That first night was amazing. He danced...
June 13th, 2016
Violent Rape
am 20 years old. This year, 8 February 2016, I walked out my back door to check on my washing. An African male smashed a beer bottle over my head and another one caught me as I lost my balance and ushered me inside. They shuffled me through to the...
July 28th, 2014
Babysitters
My husband was sexual abused by his babysitter and her boyfriend in 1971, he was 4 years old. His mother, a divorcee, had a list of sitters she used. She worked odd hours and partied a lot. It just so happens that the list of sitters, their boyfriends and male/female...
September 15th, 2016
My Abusers
In my lifetime, I’ve dealt with nasty things. From getting bad grades, to getting therapy. One of my worst secrets are my assaults. The first one was in preschool. I have no memory of what my teacher did to me, but I remember somethings. I remember the little daycare I...
April 2nd, 2016
My Step-Parent
The day my mom was in the hospital giving birth to my brother, I was 3 months away from being ten. She had to stay in the hospital for 3 days. I woke up the next morning excited to go to the hospital to see my mom. My step dad...
November 14th, 2016
You’re a Rapist
I didn’t want to go to the homecoming dance my junior year, but the majority of my friends were seniors and wanted me to go with them for their last year. I agreed and got ready with a group of girlfriends, and we all stayed for the duration of the...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
December 10th, 2015
Friends?
The first occurrence of sexual assault happened to me when I was 6 years old, at the hands of my sister. She continued to sexually assault me until she met her boyfriend 3 years later. The second time, in 2002, I was drugged and raped by two college acquaintances. I...
November 25th, 2014
In Five Years
I am 60 years old. When I was 16, I was forcibly raped by my date. I pleaded for him to stop which he did eventually do but not before he penetrated me. A few years later I had too much to drink so went to a friends dorm room...
October 9th, 2017
New Years Eve
We had gone to the big gathering to drink, party, and watch fireworks as 12 passed. There was about 12 or so in our group, but a lot got separated in the crowds, which got more solid as the moment approached, meanwhile everyone got more liquids as well. Midnight rang...
I was molested by my grandfather and cousin during all of my early childhood up until I was 9. It all started when I was around 1 or 2 years old. Although I don’t recall these memories from such a young age I know this because my mom said I...
September 4th, 2018
Feelings After I was Raped 20 plus...
I am always screaming inside. What is Normal. I forgot who I was before I was raped. What is it like to be Happy. I never really sleep. I am always mad. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about my Rapist(s). Why I never told anyone. I...
June 26th, 2014
My Story of a Gang Rape
I was 18 years old and away at college. I was with my boyfriend and just had sex for the first time. Afterwards he was unable to start his car and 3 men pulled up and offered to help. They got out of their car with a gun. My boyfriend...
June 5th, 2014
Por Fin Puedo Decirlo
Es la primera vez que hablo de ésto, el único que llego a saberlo ya está en el cielo cuidando de mi, mi amado abuelito…. Sucedió cuando era una niña, al comienzo no entendía que había ocurrido pero con el paso del tiempo lo entendí y ahora creo que muchas...
March 17th, 2016
Choir Camp
When I was young I was in this children’s choir. Every summer they had an overnight at a camp grounds to prepare for the next season. The first time I went there, I was 11. I went with my best friend at the time who had just gotten new glasses....