I was working a summer camp as a teacher and when the four weeks finished I went on a road trip with a friend from the camp. We were met in a campsite by our Supervisor in the camp. He was about 10 years older than us and I really looked up to him.
That night we pitched our tent in the campsite and went for a walk around the local town. I remember having two drinks in a local bar and then we returned to go to sleep. My supervisor told me what way to sleep with my back to him. My friend fell asleep quickly, but I was nervous and uncomfortable and so could not fall asleep. Sure enough after a while my supervisor started to masturbate against me, I was wearing pajama bottoms but he still managed to insert his penis into me from behind. I remember it was uncomfortable and I was paralyzed – I was in shock, frozen, I couldn’t move. He gripped my hips with his arm to steady me so that he could continue whatever it was he was doing. When he finished, he cleaned himself and after a time I snuck out of the tent. I was terrified and sat in the dark a few feet from the tent for hours. My friend had slept through the whole thing and so didn’t know what happened.
When I returned to the tent at daylight, he asked me where I had been. But, I was so traumatized. I couldn’t even speak to him properly. He started to tell my friend that I was crazy – so that when I finally had the chance to tell her, she wouldn’t believe me. She didn’t believe me.
It was rape. We’re sorry that you weren’t believed when you tried to speak to your friend. It’s normal that you didn’t know that it was rape, or feel that you could seek help or press charges. It often feels safer to deny or minimize abuse. But the Supervisor committed rape and he should not be in a position where he is able to harm others.