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May 27th, 2018

f*ck you

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You might not remember…I barely do. I was insecure then. I drank a lot…maybe more than I should have. But I didn’t think it would happen to me. I remember being at a party. The next thing I know I was in your bed. You were on top of me....
May 26th, 2018

BoR Amendment VI – Protecting Rapists in...

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Where are my rights? How is it that the accused enjoy so many privileges under our Bill of Rights, yet victims are hung to dry. A non-intimate person that I know broke into the room I was sleeping and tried to rape me 3 times. He was forcibly removed from...
May 26th, 2018

I didn’t think she would do this....

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Okay so I was at my best friends 16th birthday party (im 17). There were a couple of friends, one friend asked to bring another friend (which party we went to the week before) and he brought 3 of her friends (Lets call one of them Tim) with him. At...
May 25th, 2018

Twice a pattern?

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If something bad happens once, people usually say it’s bad luck. But to happen twice, just seems stupid. Growing up in a restricted family, I had never been exposed to the sexually explicit content that is out in the world. However, when I turned 17 that all changed for me....
May 25th, 2018

I was raped last summer

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Last summer I meet this guy he was so nice to he asked me out and I said yes then things started to get bad the littlest things would make him mad and he would hit and punch me at this time i had not had sex yet. Everything started...
May 24th, 2018

My 21st Birthday

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I “celebrated” my 21st birthday with 3 of my cousins. At first it was fun. I was sober enough to know what I was doing. They told me they wanted to take me out that Friday night so we did. Btw, I was hanging with 2 of my girl cousins...
May 24th, 2018

Friends With Benefit Raped Me After I...

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I was friends with benefits on/off again with the guy I lost my virginity to. He raped me after I finally told him I wasn’t interested in that sort of relationship anymore, I had enough of his hot/cold behavior towards me. He would randomly break things off with me when...
May 24th, 2018

My Own Party

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i was home alone for about a month and i thought it would be a great idea to throw a party to make new friends and even gain popularity. the party was so out of control but in the end nothing bad happened and everyone got home safe. i let...
May 22nd, 2018

After Wedding

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I had attended a friend’s wedding, and with an open bar, I was thoroughly drunk. It was fortunate that they provided a van service home, because I was in no shape to drive! I got home, changed, and blissfully went to bed. I awoke to my pajama top open, and...
May 21st, 2018

I don’t know if it counts

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I was dating my best friend’s older cousin. He was 17, I was 14. Him, my other friend and I had been drinking because his mother bought us drinks. My friend passed out. I blacked out and one of the few memories I have was him saying “I have been...
May 21st, 2018

Sexual abuse

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This is extremely odd, and unusual. I was 9, or 10. I can’t remember the exact age. I have a cousin who is one year younger than me, who was exposed to drugs, violence, and sex from a young age due to his mother being in and out of jail....
May 21st, 2018

Fear

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I was a little girl who thought the world was a place of protection and comfort. I guess my positivity proved me wrong. That night I remember thunder and lots of heavy rain hitting the roof as I sat still, he was whispering in my ear telling me not to...
May 21st, 2018

Cavemen

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By BF and me went to drink beers at the Door to Hell, a cave in the woods(it might have a name, but that’s what we called it). Basically a private place for the kids to drink, and the homeless clean the clans for salvage cash. We all drank a...
May 17th, 2018

Hiding from the Weather

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Last night, there was a fierce thunderstorm. I hid in a bus stop very scared. I was hiding my head in my hood while the rain was extra hard, and the lightning was very often. Someone else joined in the shelter and I didn’t look at him. Until he grabbed...
May 16th, 2018

Taken advantage of

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So about a week ago today I went through something I never thought I’d go through. I blacked out for what seemed like an entire day. When I woke all I remembered was flashes of having sex with this dude I thought I’d be safe around. I never liked him...
May 16th, 2018

I am not a rape victim

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I am glad, however, that this is here. For those who have been raped, I am so sorry for what has happened to you. I pray that you are able to recover against the terrible acts done to you, and that those who raped you are judged in both a...
May 16th, 2018

Does he know?

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’m in the Army and while I was in training I turned 18. The first time I went out clubbing it was with my sister, who had driven ten hours to see me for my birthday, but a few weeks later on the last weekend of training I was the...
May 16th, 2018

Personal Statement – Written January 2017

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Twilight hours of February 25, 2016 are buried in oblivion, bygone, sunk out of my head, perhaps for self-protection. This eclipse of my heart in dead of night. Fraternity boy coolness turns to shadiness at nightfall. His country boy accent is of the coal pitch blackness of the mines, sinking...
May 16th, 2018

My stepfather

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At this time I would like to remain anonymous. I cant remember the age I was when the abuse began. I cant remember a lot of the abuse in general. I know it happened more than 10 years ago. My stepfather would ask me to do things that would get...
May 16th, 2018

By my friend

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I was hanging with my friend from school. We are both in a mainstream learning disabled program. We were in my room playing a console game. He was excited as he won fight after fight. Without any warning, he threw me down on the rug, and removed my sweat pants....
May 16th, 2018

*rape

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I was 14 when it started happening. The sexual harassment. I didn’t know what was going on at first, I was so naive and young. Freshman year it was so bad. I didn’t know why all of a sudden everything changed. Boys in my classes making gestures, sending unwanted pictures...
May 16th, 2018

13 and 16

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When I was 13 years old I went to stay with a cousin and her husband. After being there a few weeks off and on the husband started getting close to me and i didnt understand why. One night he came into the room where I was sleeping acting like...
May 15th, 2018

Someone so close to me

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This only happened a year ago. My uncle who always would make sexual comments to me from age 6-still today raped me. We had this cookout where we invited our family and my uncle came. About halfway through I went to go use the bathroom and he cornered me and...
May 15th, 2018

Not a safe place after all

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The second weekend of moving back to the city I finished my undergraduate degree I decided to go to my best friend’s house, without the knowledge that soon there would be a few people joining us and drinks involved. I wasn’t a drinker but that night I was upset about...
May 11th, 2018

Rape

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hi i cant say my name because if i do the person who raped me will try to find me….i am 13 years old…..when i was 4 years old my mother boyfriend niece undresses me and took me into her room todo to these awful things to me but my...
May 10th, 2018

Raped by a so called friend

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To this day I’ve never spoke up or spoke about this. I fee the need to do so now to move forward. I was a party with friends mostly males I am more of a guy kind of gal love football love a pint. I’m basically one of the boys....
May 10th, 2018

That “man”

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I was told to keep quite. I was told not to say anything. Whenever I bring it up I get silenced. Most people didn’t believe me at first. Only a handful believe me now. I struggle with this everyday and somedays are worst than others. I’ve been called a lier...
May 9th, 2018

I didn’t wish it to happen

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About 10 years ago I was queuing at a fish and chip shop. I was approached by a group of women who appeared drunk. They began to make sexual comments and one of them grabbed my crotch and tried to wrap her legs around me. I pushed her away and...
May 9th, 2018

Why does this keep happening to me?

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I was about…6 I think. The first time it happened. My uncle was living with us after he came back from the islands. The first time he molested me was in our living room. It was in the middle of the night and I was watching a show, everyone were...
May 8th, 2018

A childhood to recover from

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It all started when I was young. My parents had a marriage that would have never worked out. After I was born it made things a whole lot worse. My mother was a kind of narcissist. They were the opposites of each other. My mom made my life toxic. And...
May 8th, 2018

He took everything

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I went out for a night out with work, but I wasn’t nervous or apprehensive despite not knowing very many people that would be present. I worked part time in a shop, and the man who owned it owned a number of others and had a Christmas party for all...
May 8th, 2018

Vaseline Stepbrother

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When I was in 2nd grade my mom had started dating this guy him and his 16 year old son had moved into the house with us. Everything was fine until he started house playing with me and my brother and his little sister one day we was all watching...
May 7th, 2018

He said he loved me

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I’ve always had a messed up version of love. So when a guy that didn’t want to date me but fool around said he loved me It felt good. I knew him.. I was friends with his sister.. but we were down a stair case at school making out and...
May 7th, 2018

I dont know what to call it

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i was about 8 my cousin was in his 20″s i only remember waking up by his weight on me and feeling his penis on me i don’t know how i got to my bed or what had happened i am 27 years old today he is in jail for...
May 7th, 2018

Surviving sexual assault trauma

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Tonight, I was reading a book called full frontal feminism. I felt empowered and strong until I reached a certain chapter. The chapter was about sexual assault and domestic violence. I could feel a ping in my heart as I began reading because I knew it would bring back up...
May 7th, 2018

Two Men Lifetimes Apart

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ts hard to remember when it started happening. I know for sure it was before I was in kindergarten but I’ve blocked out most of my elementary school years. He was a man I called dad, even though he wasnt biologically so. He was there from the time I was...
May 3rd, 2018

Normalization

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Over the past few months, my heart has been occupied by loathe, anger and pain… where a heart that was so quick to forgive, was quicker to judge and hate.. all that anger directed towards the “HE” character who violated me at different stages in my life in different forms....
May 3rd, 2018

It is not my fault

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One day I was in school and I decided to hang out with a couple of friends. We decided to ditch class and have some fun. We were all A students and decided to take a break from out class. We decided to go into the basement and just hangout...
May 3rd, 2018

That’s not Me, it’s Her

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I read a recent story where a woman described not remembering, or seeing someone else. I know how you feel, my sister! I would rather not give exact details, fearing reprisals, but I was raped in the office of an authority figure. I can say that today, but at the...
May 2nd, 2018

Finally Sharing

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My story is old nearly two decades and yet it as if my rape was yesterday. I have done a lot of healing absolutely but this type of trauma never leaves you – it shapes you. I feel sad about the circumstances around my rape and as others have experienced...
May 2nd, 2018

Childhood trauma and overcoming it

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My abuse started when I was ten years old, the abuse lasted for five years. I was raped seven times and molested countless times. Countless people had the power to step in and help or stop the abuse and no one had the courage to stand up for me. If...
April 27th, 2018

Repressed Memories x3 Abusers

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5 years ago I started undergoing EMDR therapy (commonly used with PTSD clients) with my psychologist. I don’t even remember how it came up in the session, or when, but i uncovered a repressed memory of a rape when i was 12. It was a neighbour, who was 19 or...
April 26th, 2018

Just A Party

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He was a guy I liked. Had a crush on him. He was my manger from my work. I only knew him for like 3 months. He would flirt with me and say some sweet things. He would look at me like I was the only one in the room....
April 26th, 2018

Messed Up Childhood

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I think I was about 10 or 11 years old. He was a few years older then me, bit I felt like I would trust him. We were in my little brother and sister room, sitting on the floor. We were playing around, like play fighting when he got on...
April 25th, 2018

Just Playing

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My brother and I got into some basic games of “Doctor”. Nothing starting out as abuse, just a lot of looking, and a little touching. One afternoon he inserted a finger, and I got a little blood. I went and told an adult, as I was supposed to, and because...
April 24th, 2018

Charity is it’s own reward

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I was talked into taking the cousin of a friend to a school dance. He was short, homely, awkward, and basically the stereotype nerd out of all the B teen movies. In those, it always turns out she loves him by the end, but this wasn’t a movie. Counting the...
April 24th, 2018

I “needed” to do this!

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I am the youngest of 6, and at the time I was to go to mandatory college, the elder 5 either had or were working on Master’s or PhD in various fields. I can only say that a stunningly easy Senior year was bringing me to a 3.0 I applied...
April 24th, 2018

14 year old raped at school

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I was a freshman girl. I was 14. I stayed after school to retake a test and pay my art fee. As I was walking towards the art building, a guy that I’ve only talked to a few times appeared. He told me he had something awesome to show me...
April 23rd, 2018

He was a friend

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He was a god friend and coworker of two years. I was going through a rough patch in life and truly needed a friend. I had 4 deaths in my family in a matter of 3 months and felt very alone. My spouse was trying to cope with the loses...
April 23rd, 2018

My Story

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When I turned 16, I started dating a guy – we’ll call him Tommy – and our relationship was kind of rushed. Tommy jumped into getting intimate and said “I love you” after a month of dating, which kind of weirded me out but I was in a really bad...
April 23rd, 2018

A Night I Can’t Remember

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Two years ago I went to one of my friends houses. It started out well enough. My son and her daughter played while we played Jenga and drank beer at the table. I am a beer drinker, I never drink hard liquor, but on this night I did. I don’t...
April 22nd, 2018

Forest floor

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I was 10 years old, my father had recently flown across the country for a job and i had been spending a lot of time with my cousins so i wouldnt miss my dad too much, it was september. I had just started my 5th year… I was walking through...
April 22nd, 2018

Friend of mines set me up

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I was about 18 years old 2 years ago and me and this girl became really close. We didnt talk im school much but after we graduate she wanted to hang out more. One day she tells me she wants me to go to the beach with her and a...
April 22nd, 2018

My cousins friend

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Back in 2013 probably end of summer, hard to recall because it’s all a blur, I was raped. I haven’t told the police nor my family about it as I was so ashamed and felt it was my fault. That night I was heavily drinking with my cousin for her...
April 20th, 2018

A secondary survivor

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I haven’t suffered through a rape myself, but I found out recently that my partner has. She’s carried it by herself for nearly 10 years. One day she was brave enough to tell me. I don’t know why, but I am glad she found the courage and felt safe enough...
April 19th, 2018

She wanted me to prove I loved...

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I was assaulted almost a year ago to this date, and no one believes me. My partner at the time, a girl that had been my friend for four years before asking me to be in a relationship with her, was extremely manipulative. She made me hate myself, made me...
April 16th, 2018

He doesn’t even know he raped me

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I was very drunk one night at a party and as I swiped through my tinder I matched with this boy. He messaged me really quickly and told me he was a senior and that he thought I was pretty and that we should hang out. I was really drunk...
April 16th, 2018

I let it happen twice

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The first time I was raped, it was St. Patrick’s Day. I was 19. A friend invited me to a house party with her boyfriend and his friends. The house was just off a county road that led straight into my hometown. I was one of the last people outside....
April 16th, 2018

Sexual abuse

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my older cousin sexually abused me at age 6 till 11. when it all happened i thought it was normal. he made me watch pornography with him, he touched me down there, butt, breasts. i don’t remember a lot about it, i only remember a couple of things. like one...
April 15th, 2018

My boyfriend of 2 years

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I’ve been dating this guy for 2 years, and a little while ago, he took me to his family’s beach house for summer. The first night we were there, he offered me a candy. Obviously, I took it. I started to feel funny and turns out he drugged me and...
April 15th, 2018

The children are the priority here

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Thank You for Speak Out/Share Your Story, you are an Inspiration! My husband is a trucker and spends days to weeks on the road crossing the country. He feels bad about leaving us for so long, but he does it to be an excellent provider. It was a Sunday night....
April 13th, 2018

My ex

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This happened in late September to late October. I just got out of a relationship with my first love and to get over him I started dating someone else. I thought i liked him. He was seventeen and i was sixteen. He seemed nice a first, but soon became aggressive....
April 13th, 2018

A young mother

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I came to college a year early, I was seventeen and so naive. I had taken summer school 2 years so I could get out of that small town Kentucky high school. I was so ready to have a fresh start. My first semester was awesome. I joined a sorority...
April 12th, 2018

Bartender Lies

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I was 21, a young ballet dancer studying in NYC. My roommate and I went to visit the bar of the restaurant I was a hostess. The bartenders were always revered, put on a pedestal. I thought the attention from him was good, a positive thing. How wrong I was....
April 10th, 2018

the scary shadows

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Out of all people, I would’ve never thought my own brother, that I looked up to, would hurt me so much. At an unknown starting age (I’ve come to the conclusion that I was in 4th grade or so. ) , I would lay in bed, watching the light outside...
April 10th, 2018

A person to trust became my worst...

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It was supposed to be one of the most exiting weeks of my life, a step into adult-hood i had dreamed about all of summer. Freshers week. The week everyone is supposed to let go of all inhibitions and have an amazing time with new friends and people who you...
April 10th, 2018

Raped by my grandfather

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I have always hated him. He treated me differently than he did my cousins and younger siblings. One night, I was staying with my aunt and my mom had called me asking if I knew anything about him touching a neighbor and friend of mine who lived a floor below...
April 9th, 2018

Rape survivor

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I was 14 years old when i was raped. It was my boyfriend at the time and i was still a virgin. We had sexual contact at the time but i did not want to have sex. I felt that i was not ready to lose my virginity yet. He...
April 9th, 2018

Two Times

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I have been raped 2 times in total, both in the same place, both by strangers. The first time was hang rape, they chased after me pinned me down and took turns with me. They told me it was my fault for wearing a skirt that showed some of my...
April 9th, 2018

10 YEARS OF SILENCE

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I can’t remember if I was 7 or 9 or if it happened more times that I can remember. He is two years older than me and he’s my cousin, even though I don’t consider him family. He’s always been the weird kid of the family and I think I...
April 8th, 2018

Coming forward turned into a nightmare

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6 months ago I was raped while at college. And I still have no idea who by. I was walking by a lake to get some fresh air and he came from behind. I never even saw his face. It all happened so fast that I completely froze. I didn’t...
April 8th, 2018

I thought he liked me

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We had gone on dates, I thought he liked me, I liked him. I was 18, he had met my family and made me feel special. I said no and he did it anyway, I laid there looking away, I didn’t fight, I should have fought. I cried after it...
April 7th, 2018

He raped me. I hugged him goodbye...

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One night while 18 years old and out partying with a girlfriend, I ran into an old friend. He was older – 27 – and I had known him for about 4 years, since he was good friends with my neighbor. I thought he was a friend because he seemed...
April 7th, 2018

Lasting memories

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Three things happened in my life. When I was younger I was molested by 3 men in my life, all family. I still blame myself till this day. Every touch, every word so powerful. I grew up a messed up girl from that. Move forward to the future, on April...
April 6th, 2018

A friend who is a rapist

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I’m a survivor maybe not as strong as I was but I will work to make myself stronger. As a mother of 3 boys and a wife of 10 years. I never thought one of my husband’s friends would peep at me while changing or grab me and finger me...
April 6th, 2018

Was it rape if he’s my boyfriend?

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In retrospect, we are a happy, normal couple. My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years, what feel like less. I love him and he adores me. He loves me. He respects me. I think? So I may have had too much to drink one night when the...
April 6th, 2018

Raped by my cousin

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I wouldn’t ever say that’s that my life was truly horrible, but I’m at a point in life where I want to talk about my struggles. To set the scene a little, I have 2 cultured south Asian parents, a stay at home mom and an engineer for a dad....
April 6th, 2018

Molested By My Uncle

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When I was 5 years old I lived in a house that shared property with my grandparents. My house was walking distance from theirs and I went over there often. My uncle had recently been released from prison. He was 28 years old. He was in prison for theft. He...
April 4th, 2018

My story

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I was 20 just before my 21st birthday. I was in college, out at a party with some friends. We’d been drinking and having a good time. A friend came over to me and said that this guy she’d been interested in had invited her to come over to his...
April 3rd, 2018

I tried to bury it for seven...

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I lied to my friends about the extent of what happened. I lied to myself that my emotional binge eating was tied to my parents’ divorce. I lied to myself that he only kissed me. I lied to myself that I did not not feel violated. The worst lie of...